3 Boom Boom Baby

I was fortunate to grow up in the period after the Japanese military threat towards Australia had been halted.Banzai!

Nine months after one small after explosion, I was one of millions come to replace those who had just died. I quickly learned of life’s complications. During my gestational period I felt like a man trapped inside a woman’s body, struggling to get out. Even when I was born, there was a string attached. I was so surprised about all this I didn’t talk for a year and a half.

Dad had served on Catalinas, twin-engined flying boats used extensively for patrol and rescue duties in the band of islands and peninsulas to our north. Now forming Malaysia, Indonesia and Papua New Guinea, this region came to be Canberra’s primary strategic concern after the war. The presence of my father (his head framed by the two biggest boys) and his comrades was welcomed by the locals in Borneo.

He would tell me the story of the war and I was deeply marked by it. I felt particular compassion for people who had had bombs rained upon them.

Dad illustrated his account with his own photographs and those taken by Cecil Beaton to widen the scope. Beaton was officially employed by the British Ministry of information. He recorded the war at home and abroad, preserving sombre moments that changed the face of the earth forever – the bomb damage on the streets of London and the night operations on RAF stations; injured children in hospital and wounded men in the desert; WRNS officers in Greenwich and Gurkha snipers on the Western Front.

I was particularly moved by his unforgettable photograph of a three-year-old girl sitting in a hospital bed holding a teddy bear after being injured in a German bombing raid.

This deeply sympathetic photograph was as powerful a piece of visual propaganda as any made during those years, Widely seen in the U.S., still refusing to join the conflict at the time. It commanded Americans to take a keener interest in a war that, at that stage, still felt very far away.

Raised on World War II, in which virtually everything I saw was heroic, I looked up to, was proud of and would aim to measure up to my father, W.B. Davis, number 61245, Australian Air Force, Roman Catholic as stated on his metal dog tag, my only lasting keepsake of him, along with a few photos.

Oh Mein Papa

Oh my papa, to me he was so wonderful

Oh my papa, to me he was so good.

Oh my papa, to me he was so wonderful, Deep in my heart I miss him so today.

It was a German song of all things ‘O Mein Papa’ that expressed my early feelings about him. I was much taken by the instrumental version of trumpeter Eddie Calvert. Like my father with me, it reached number one.

He bore no ill will towards the Japanese and the Germans. While proud to display his badge of service he didn’t wear his heart on his sleeve. He didn’t particularly like marching in the annual Anzac Day parades and the attendant boozing and gambling. He was aware that most people longed for peace. He wrote as seeing himself having largely influenced my ideas. He was always respectful to my mother.

My earliest distinct recollections were happy ones whiled away basking in the fond embrace of my family, filled with a sense of protective wellbeing.

Tweedly tweedly tweedly dee. The essential advantages that life could bestow on me.

I was the apple of my father’s eyes. Mum thought the sun rose and set on me.From my very beginning, it was ‘darling Allan this, darling Allan that’ from her.My cup runneth over.From day one I received what would be a wealth of encouragement from others which continued throughout the passing years. These sentiments I would in turn pass on to others. Like many families being started up at the end of the war, ours had been put on hold. As a baby boomer my childhood was played out against a most propitious period, the years of the long postwar boom which historians have come to call capitalism’s golden age. Throughout the Western world high rates of economic growth coincided with low inflation and negligible unemployment, favourable conditions for political compromise and “consensus.” If you were white and well off, it seemed like paradise. Fed by the spoils of victory, I was bred with the haste and dispatch and muscle flexing of a nation giving bridle to its own success and good fortune.

Getting back on their feet, my father’s’s generation, ,returning home like Agamemnon to Ithaca, could hardly be called lost. The desperate shortage of virtually all goods and services triggered a situation where there were more jobs than people to fill them. As the postwar austerity measures were fading they saw fit to establish a business in a country town in northern New South Wales. After being demobbed, Dad had become an employee of Australia’s largest confectionery company based in Tamworth. Allen’s Sweets. How could I resist with such a name? Such sweet memories for me. Boiled sweets, bullseyes, all days suckers. Goody, goody gumdrops! Driving their bright red van around and distributing their products enabled him early in the peace to reccy the area and look out for the best prospects.

After giving it the once over, he decided upon Gunnedah, a prosperous town in the backblocks settled by squatters in the 1830s. They had followed in the tracks of the explorers, hewing a path with wagons and cattle, putting down their loads, claiming this rich soil and grazing land as their own. This common clay had lost every perch and rod of their own ancestral lands, their forebears having been forced off following the English enclosure acts. Initially unauthorised, they had the right of pasturage from the government on easy terms.

Stuffing all our belongings under a canvas stretched across our flat truck bed, westward we rolled to our new home.

Stone Broke.

On a visit to the Australian Museum in Sydney, I gazed in wonder, nose pressed against the glass cases, weaving the legends I had read in and around the groups of life sized figures with their woomeras, spears and boomerangs. My father entered a float in Gunnedah’s big yearly procession with exhibits of these artefacts on loan from the ‘Edgells’ food company.

‘What do you call boomerangs when they don’t return?’I asked him.


As a nipper in Gunnedah I had an aboriginal nanny, Rose Watley

who lived in a hut at the edge of the town. It was a step up from a humpy, but oh the location! location! location! Without electricity, running water or proper drainage, it was at the edge of the local rubbish tip where refuse was burned off.

‘How long does the burning go on?’ I asked her.

‘The garbage is always glowing, even at night, and you hear popping sounds. I think it’s batteries exploding.’

The dump was her shopping centre. It furnished her hut, made of timber, corrugated metal and old tarpaulins scavenged from the dump site. Surrounded by toxic smoke, this modern hunter gatherer picked over the garbage, careful not to step on rusty nails and broken glass, salvaging bottles, listening for the sound a prong makes when it finds a plastic container, searching the rot for glints of light-silver spoons, tin cans, pieces of machinery and whatever could be sold as scrap metal. These would all be recycled, an essential task.

Standing there watching cars and trucks arrive and leave, I tried not to breathe in the stench of everyday household waste as it gently rotted. Around noon in summer as the hottest part of the day approached, the fumes and the smell of the dump circulated. A constant black writhe of flies covered every moist surface, forcing you to speak with clenched teeth. The smell was so strong that it got into your throat. You could taste the smell. Your eyes watered.

‘Every morning I wake up,’ said Rose, stuffing lead pipe into a sack, ‘my throat is burning and my chest is tight. I have difficulty breathing. I just have to wait until it goes away.’

‘How do you put up with this,’ I asked her.

‘It’s awful, I know, but with time you get used to it.’

I could have. But only after I’d grown my third set of teeth. I had all the comforts of a decent home. Hers was the kind of poverty and destitution portrayed by Charles Dickens and Victor Hugo. The sight of my entirely beloved nanny, one of the true working poor, fossicking through such waste was one that became burned indelibly into my young brain. I became colour blind.

While her roots ran deep and straight, my scorched earth mother was not officially an Australian. The name of her tribe who lived in the area, the Kamilaroi (or Gamilaraay) means ‘having not’. The name of the town derives from their word for ‘place of white stones’. Rose told me where they were they used to be. A sizeable outcrop of white stone where the public school stands.

‘My people used them as tools.’ said Rose. ‘For them, they were sacred. They put them in places where they were essential to survival.’

During construction the white stony outcrop was covered up – as were feelings for their loss. Her people hit rock bottom. They were so poor they had no dirt, They would not collect at the start. As they had come into the world, so they would go out. Every inch of the land that they could see, all that lay beneath it belonged to someone else.

There were no vestiges of tribal life to beckon Rose. For most her people were largely forgotten, except for local place names and tourist references. Strangers in their own country. A country with a black history, whitewashed when the wagons were corralled. The legends illustrated with paintings, acted out with dance and accompanied by music- and going back longer than anyone else’s were not being told. Sacred songs and performance of ritual had strengthened survival. Rose’s mob had lived a nomadic existence around the Namoi River since time immemorial, when all our ancestors were in the Stone Age. True children of nature, they lived in harsh harmony with the environment, not overly tampering with the natural balance, their ecological footprint modest. Feeding voraciously during the all too rare rainy seasons, they built themselves up to survive the lean, skimpy years of drought.

In the dry months of the year, Rose told me, they built a yard of boughs and brambles at a river spot. Then at flood time they would go out in their canoes and, spotting a shoal of fish, drive them as one would a herd of cattle into the yard where they would be an easy target for their spears.

They believed they were given the sacred land in trust. Their society had no school but children were educated by elders of the group and developed their skills by taking part in the group’s activities.

The 1830s was the beginning of the end for their traditional life, achieved through what Don Bradman called uncompromisingly ‘murder’ and ‘plunder’ of their tribal lands by his forebears and mine. They would lose access to common land as inexorably did the forebears of the poor white settlers. Most would feel that they had been sold down the river. These have-nots would rub shoulders on the fringe of society. Where they had scattered chips of stone used for making tools, now there were just chips on their shoulders. They were all litterlouts according to the stoniest of hearts.

One of the most familiar faces on Australian television, Ray Martin, remembers in Gunnedah on a Saturday night at the pictures, all the Aboriginal families were pushed down the front, usually to sit on the floor,’ he says. ‘And I was appalled as a ten or eleven year-old going down the swimming pool and seeing one of the lifeguards hosing down the aboriginal kids before they were allowed to go in the water. I wasn’t hosed down.’

He passed for white although he found out many years later his great, great grandmother was a Kamilaroi from outside Gunnedah.

My abhorrence at this degradation of one as worthy as Rose formed the basis of my lifelong identification with those living on the margin and my serious concern for the fundamental values of human life.

Are You Being Served?

As a cheery chirpy lad, dry behind the ears, I took pride in the buckled belt holding up my pants. Eventually, my pants would have belt loops holding up the belt.

What would be going on here? Who would be the real hero?

Both feet on the ground, developing both social and resourceful sides of my forbearing character, I engaged in enterprises reflecting these as my stock-in-trade. ‘Waste not, want not, Al. It’s a sin to waste food. In Asia they’re as hungry as the wolf felt when he met Red Hiding Hood, so finish what you’ve got,’ Dad always told me at the table. Trundling around the town and environs with my billycart I scoured the scene for empty beer bottles. Fetching a penny each, recycled they would be filled with industrial fluids. With methylated spirits and turpentine these would often slosh down the same desperate glugging gullet as the original contents.

Another useful cargo was manure obligingly deposited on the roads by stockmens’ horses and in stables I cleared. Sprinkled on our strawberries a bushel and a peck – in the loam, naturellement- they made for big juicy fruit. Ever on my toes to the opportunity of combining pleasure with business, I stumbled upon a nice little earner, an offbeat financial sideline– selling the wool from dead sheep I came across. However, this busy bee’s main job was working alongside my family. While shops closed at lunchtime on a Saturday and reopened on Monday morning, that of my parents was open all hours. It was a general store, although customers could buy anything specific. I remember a local with a hearing problem come into the shop and ask, ‘May I have a bar of soap, please?”

‘Do you want it scented?’ I enquired.

‘No’, he replied. I’ll take it with me now’.’

In the old fashioned way, we dealt in groceries at first and later alcoholic liquor and all kinds of raw produce and fuel for the home and farm.

My father got to know their individual needs.

‘Your finest Scotch, please.’a customer asked him.

‘Yes, sir,’ Dad replied as he handed him a ten year old roll of tape.

I helped serving people, keeping stock and helping hold the fort until I left school. My orderly approach for storing both objects and ideas was established here: A place for everything and everything in its place. I made sure they stayed there til the right moment. What customers came in for was their business. With customers like ‘B.O. Plenty’ what they went out with was our business.

‘If you don’t want to pay for groceries,’I reminded B.O.,’You’re going to get an awful lot of ‘No sir-ee’s.’

One day he came into our shop and asked for five shillings worth of methylated spirits.

‘Five shillings worth of methylated spirits?” I said, suspecting he might drink himself blind, ‘what is it you want it for?’

‘Two shillings’, replied B.O.’

Another day when he was presumably more on top of things he entered the store and said to my father: ‘Ten gallons of red ned please.’ As well as bottles we a sold it in bulk straight from the cask.

‘Did you bring a container for this?’ asked Dad.

‘You’re speaking to it.’

‘Wine improves with age. The older I get, the more I like it.Now can I get this on tick?’

‘B.O.’ Dad answered, ‘You know the banks along Conadilly Street.’

‘I know where they are but I’ve got no account there to withdraw from.’

‘The thing is I’ve got a business arrangement with them.’

‘What’s that got to do with me?’

‘Well, B.O., the deal is they don’t sell grog, and I don’t lend money.’

As this retail trade became more self service based, we still had to inform customers about the products they were buying. Some had difficulty understanding the contents and instructions. One customer fronted up and said: ‘I want to make a complaint – this vinegar’s got lumps in it.’

I corrected him: ‘Those are pickled onions.’

Another limped into the store to complain about the tin of soup he had bought: I haven’t been able to walk properly for days. The label said clearly, ‘Pierce lid and stand in boiling water.

Another customer asked ‘I’d like to buy some deodorant please.’

‘ Cream or ball?’

‘No. Underarm.’

Upon the introduction of the push up deodorant, one young male customer targeted a third area where he applied his. He asked me for some ‘bottom deodorant’. A little bemused, explained him that we didn’t sell anything called ‘bottom deodorant’, and never had. Unfazed, the guy assured me he has been buying the stuff on a regular basis, and would like some more.

‘I’m sorry,’ I said, ‘we don’t have any. Do you have the container it comes in?’

‘Yes,’ said the customer who lived close by. ‘I’ll go and get it.’

He returned with the tube and handed it to me. After inspecting it I looked at it and said ‘This is just a normal stick of underarm deodorant.’

He took the container back and read out loud from the container: ‘To apply, push up bottom.’

Another query: ‘This cereal box says it contains a free gift. Aren’t all gifts free?’

I got to know the area well as we delivered supplies to customers both in town and country. In a small town where everyone knows everyone, everyone knows everyone’s business and their faults, what’s happening in their marriages and where the kids have gone wrong. I got to meet lots of people from different backgrounds and  got to understand the rituals and roles played out before me.I picked up on the differences between the classes, the perceptions, the privileges, the taboos.

The distinction between the classes seemed pretty clear to me-based on education, religion, accent, where they lived and how they worked. These were groups of people with a common relationship to the means of production, with a common consciousness of identity and a common interest in opposition to those of other classes. Watching them go about their business, I observed their different lifestyles keenly. The owners of the stores, salespeople, doctors, dentists, nurses, builders and clerical staff. The butchers, the baker, the undertaker. Wealthy squatters on their large properties, the old money social set at the top of the pile, centred on the town, with their balls, polo matches and picnic races. The farmhands who worked for them and the shearers who were contracted to clip the wool.

We were often the only visitors some cow and wheat cockies or farmers on the land saw the livelong week. They greeted us with open arms, particularly in the summer. We could see them as we approached, waving their arms constantly. The great Australian salute to keep away the flies.

We went for weekend drives around the surrounding countryside. We never got bored. We engaged in guessing games as we travelled on long trips. I spied with my little eye, but only a fraction of the things I could with my fully grown eye. Unlike kids and parents so often today we played as kith and kin.

I paraphrased Father Peyton’s slogan, ‘The family that plays together stays together.’ I replaced the r’ with a ‘l’. Now wouldn’t that have appealed to a Japanese speaker.

This was a community where work and friendships firmly interlocked. Tenderfoot me spent school breaks on the land, plenty of room to swing a rope, with our friends, the Roberts of Kelvin dabbling in bush skills, rolling up my shirtsleeves, putting my back into it, having a crack at everything. Lyle managed the property with his offsider brother Col, as spare as the bush itself, his quarry faced stubbled mush full of leathery old lines, all wrinkly, his hair as knotty as the jumbucks he drove. Each day revolved around the livestock, dictated by routine.

Col’s humble hut, where he batched was unconnected to electricity, lit by smoky oil lamps and discouragingly limp candles. He would bring a battery into town to be charged so he could listen to the radio during the week.

‘Why do I need electricity? he reasoned. ‘It’s really just organized lightning. I get plenty of that out here.’

He had woken up every morning in his simple home for much of his  life.The hut was without indoor plumbing. The cesspit was out at the backside. Pieces of newspaper hung on a nail for toiletry purposes. Washing was done in the outhouse- with a boiler, mangle, starch and blue bags. The wooden kitchen floor slanted left to right. He cooked on a coal stove and had no refrigerator, but somehow he made do, like the pioneers, fashioning his situation to his needs, whether it be making a rough sawn table for the kitchen from a piece of unplanned timber, building a shelter in the scrub from bark and branches, or husbanding a fire when the leaves were damp.

I had my own go at improvising. Col wondered why I was pulling on and off my pullover repeatedly and vigorously. Why I was rubbing balloons on my head.

‘Static electricity’, I answered, producing that crackling sound, ‘to make things run more easily.’ I never could work out how to harness it for cooking.

The Roberts had one of the bovine ilk. One end was moo, the other, milk. The cow, had a lovely and tolerant nature, and would allow me to milk her. Like Romulus and Remus we often drank straight from her. Any left over was churned into butter. While ruminating on the origins of milking, the inevitable question was posed to me: ‘Who discovered we could get milk from cows, and what did he think he was doing at the time?

I learned from observation such facts as that a cow lies down one half at a time and gets up in reverse, and could describe how a chicken acts after it’s decapitated.

I learned a lot from their cattle dogs: obedience, loyalty, and the importance of turning around three times before lying down.

Col and Lyle worked very long hours. ‘Remember’, said Col, ‘the earlier we start the better. We work from from ‘can’t’ to ‘can’t.’

‘What times are they ?’

‘From ‘can’t see in the morning’ til ‘can’t see at night’.’

Sharing the hut gave me an insight into the backbreaking, dawn to dusk life of a weathered rough and ready farm labourer. Joining him ring-barking trees, clearing scrub for pasture land, mending fences, sinking a dam, rounding up the sheep and cattle. The rootinest, tootinest, shootinest, hootinest little sidekick around, singing ‘move ’em on, head ’em up, head ’em up, move ’em on, count ’em out, ride ’em in, ride ’em in, count ’em out’. Rattling my dags, I threw myself fully into this enterprise. Wrangling the herd towards the corral, we caught each pregnant ewe with a crash dive into the dust.

With little schooling, thrown on his own resources, Col’s childhood ended early when he had to shove off from home to grub and sweat for his keep. ‘I went a waltzing matilda everywhere, humping my bluey every day on rough, dusty bush tracks looking for work. Somedays there would be no work and the tramping would have been for nothing.Many others had been on the road for months, walking up and down the country in a maze of jobless refusals. Things were crook on the land. For every job, so many men. So many men no-one needed. Another day, another nothing. When I could, I rode a horse. The same did duty between the shafts of a sulky when it came time to choof off. I was always without two shillings to rub together. But we always managed to find grub. We lived on rabbit stew.’

‘Boy oh boy, you’ve been a real battler, Col’, I said.

‘Bloody oath’ he said. I’ve never turned a hair at a bit of hard yakka,’ he skited, tall in the saddle.

He was not a sophisticated man, but when he spoke, the words came out like the bricks of a wall built to last.

‘Don’t you feel cut off from life, here in the scrub?’ I asked ‘Don’t you ever feel like a shag on a rock?’

‘No bloody fear,’ he said, resisting the obvious play on my innocent words. ‘No one raises my hackles or bosses me around here. I like the peace and quiet where a man isn’t crowded.’

Wilderness, farmland, desert and country towns, the bush is a place where some people live and others never go. Even though most Australians were going to the surf and turf rather than the bush, it was the mateship and collectivist outlook forged through such isolated hardship which retains a transcendent place in the Australian ethos.

Then there was the commercial class who operated stores and businesses, and workers who provided the labour for them and for the coal mine and abattoir.Stifled by the permeating stench of ammonia from waste in the air, I watched the slaughtermen at work, herding cattle to their deaths, stunning them, then stringing them up on a conveyor belt, cutting their throats, watching them bleed. Later throwing away their inner parts, a hard and for many a horrible job. But for them above all one where  they could  bust their gut to demonstrate their strength and value. I observed these workers engaged in their series of daily routines, in the striving and succeeding and failing that make up a life in which, because of poverty, there is little freedom of choice. The quiet nobility of their lives lived with values but without great opportunities. After knocking off work, there was just time to lay that bit of lino on the floor or work on the car before having a few middies and a game of two up at the back of the pub.

My knowledge of such hardworking people, parents of my mates, led me to the credo that work itself be elevated to a place of pride and esteem and, even if you happened to be in a lower paid or manual job, you were valued for the work you did which was necessary for the functioning of society. Never touching it, my father made more boodle selling coal than the miners who, busting their gut, confronting cave-ins and the deadly black damp deep below the earth’s surface, dark as a dungeon, their lungs full of noxious phlegm, coal dust pitted in their skin, tore it out of the coalface. ‘Gas leaks, fire and water are our daily enemy’ said my friend Colin’s father.’

It was while I was in my friend Andy Dall’s house one cold snap I learned about overproduction in the capitalist economy. Shivering he asked his father, lying on the couch, ‘Why is it so cold in the house?’

‘We don’t have any coal’, he said, rugged up like the Michelin Man.

‘But why is there no coal?’, Andy wanted to know.

‘Because I got laid off for the rest of the month’, he replied.

Still unsatisfied, he asked one more time—‘And why did you get laid off?’ To which he answered, ‘Because there is too much coal.’

Of course, it wasn’t that there was too much coal. It was just that it was all in the hands of his employer, the company that owned it.

‘I made an investment in this country. Where are my dividends?’ said Andy’s dad.

It was just the wisp of an idea at first. Then slowly but surely I came to the conclusion that workers, who produced the goods we needed, who built the town, the railway, ploughed the fields, without whom nothing can move, were the underlying motor and buttressing social stanchions of society and should be placed at the forefront. It was those who did heavy manual work, like miners or farm workers, the salt of the earth, who should enjoy certain privileges, better wages and health care than those in less strenuous or dangerous professions, like office work or managing – and above all those who made money off their backs by merely owning.

When these backs rested, their thrones were less than regal. I’d have run a mile rather than use the outhouse toilets at the homes of some mates. Unconnected to the sewerage, such ‘thunderboxes” were not built over pits. Instead, waste was collected into large cans, or “dunny-cans”, which were positioned under the toilet, to be collected by contractors or “nightsoil collectors” hired by the local council. Collected waste matter would then be removed from the premises and disposed of elsewhere.

My inchoate political leanings grew into a deep commitment to overcoming the big chasm between those who have and those who don’t.

There are two kinds of people.Those who divide the world into two kinds of people and those who don’t. I’ll leave it to you, the reader to work out which one I am.

Some of these business and working people were immigrants from The Old Dart and some were from Europe, the latest arrivals to wash ashore. The English were given a particular warm welcome.

They kept their wits, not their nits.

They learned the local slang

About the native fauna.

Many were geared up to venture outside the city.

They went where they were needed

And learnedof the tyranny of distance

Skilled, enterprising and happy to please, these ten pound poms and new australians fitted in quickly and were highly valued -more or less.

One bushy who made a packet gambling went to Europe on a holiday. When he returned, I asked him: ‘How did you find it?’

‘It was bonzer, Allan. Such a rip-snorting variety of landscapes – the Mediterranean, Black Forest, fjords and all those interesting old buildings. I even saw the dancers at the Bolshoi.’

‘What were these Russians like?’

‘You know what the most amazing thing about them was? They’ve two legs like everyone else.’

‘Would you live in Europe?’

‘You know there’s one thing I would find hard to hack about living there.’

‘And what’s that?I asked.

‘There’s too many New Australians.’ he replied. ‘But if I had to, I could live in Switzerland, though it’s very expensive.

‘What would be the best part about living in Switzerland,that peaceful country whose greatest achievement is—-the cuckoo clock!? Would it be the chocolates, the mountains, the fresh air?’

‘I’m not sure,  I got into some hot water there in Geneva.I turned on the hotel shower tap labelled C’ and nearly got scalded.Their ‘C’ stands for ‘Chaud’-French for hot. Still their flag is a big plus.’

Of the any who  who came, uncounted numbers changed occupation, their ambitions encouraged by the openness of Australian society to talented and determined newcomers.

My Dutch Uncle.

My cousin Beverley came up from Sydney accompanied by her new husband. Tom had migrated to New Holland from Old Holland as a teenager. Our family extended a warm welcome to this fine, wholesome gentleman.

I looked up to Tom. On one level It wasn’t surprising. I was still poised for my final spurt in skeletal growth. I got to wondering if I’d reach his height. I had read that Dutch men were the tallest in the world. My theory on this was based on a crude version of natural selection. As the Netherlands was so small, to all fit in they could only expand upwards. Secondly I reckoned it was also so they could keep their heads above sea level.

On another level, I found Tom to be thoroughly community minded, thrifty, practical and above all possessed of a good sense of humour.

He was interested to learn of my fascination with readings from the Apocrypha.

As an ornament we had a pair of yellow clogs on our mantelpiece which provided an interesting talking point.

Tom had presented Bev, his fiancée with a pair of carved wooden shoes as is the traditional engagement gift.

‘Thanks, my Old Dutch, but no thanks she said.’ I don’t fancy blisters, splinters or chipped bones. I’ll stick with my comfy leather shoes. How about you take me out for the day instead?’

‘O.K.’ Tom had replied.’ You’ll have to sit on the handle bars.’ This was before he had enough cheese to buy a car.

He took her out for morning tea and biscuits. This was a new experience for her. She had never given blood before.

While at lunch she slipped on some grease and dropped her tray. ’In the evening he took her to the picture theatre.At intermission he asked what she would like to partake of.She said, ’Tom, I’d like some fruit and some sweet.’He came back with an apple on a stick.

I thereby learned the custom of ‘Going Dutch’.

‘Clogs too have had an important place in our heritage,’ Tom explained to us. ‘Back in the day the Dutch landscape, full of bogs and swamps, was very suitable for clogs. They are robust, safe, waterproof, and as an extra bonus: they are cheap too. Our language has many idiomatic expressions associated with klompen.

‘Now my clog is breaking’ is one such saying. It is said in astonishment if something unforeseen happens.’

‘When would you wear them, Tom,’ I asked

I’d wear them whenever I had to keep my feet dry, wooden shoe?

No sooner had he uttered these words than such an opportunity arose.

Dad came into the house crying, ’There’s a crack in the dyke. There’s water flowing everywhere. What can I do? He knew that left untended the crack in the base of the bowl would grow larger, that from a single leak, a terrible breach might grow. He knew that the water could end up splashing out of the bog, the trickle turning to a torrent.’

‘Now our toilet is breaking,’ I groaned.

Before you could say Hieronymous Bosch, needing no persuasion, Tom slipped on our ornamental clogs and clomped, clicked and clacked to our outhouse. Thinking quickly he plugged the crack with his finger.

What caught my eye was the way he went about it. Although the crack was on the left side of the base, Tom reached his right arm around the back, pivoted while looking back searchingly before applying his finger.

‘Rest assured I’ve got your back, Tom. But wouldn’t it be easier to use your left hand to do this?’

‘Oh this,’ he replied. ‘force of habit. It’s the ‘Dutch Reach’. When I’m opening a car door, I always check out automatically what’s behind me.’

‘Tom’, said Dad,’ I hope you can keep the water in check til I can get the plumber.’

‘Bill,’ said Tom, ‘I don’t want to stay stuck out here for hours in this soggy, sweaty heat. I have a simpler solution. Why not just turn the water supply off at the mains?’

‘Of course,’ said Dad. Why didn’t I think of that sooner?’

‘You got a bit flustered, Bill. Keep in mind You know the message at the front of your shop. ‘Keep, cool, calm and collect our specials!’ Keep in mind the first part.

‘Three cheers for Tom’, I said, Our Dutch uncle has saved the day.’

‘And I’ll save on your specials,’ Tom replied. ‘Some cans of your salmon for sandwiches on our journey home. We Dutchies love a bargain. Who doesn’t?

‘I read that the Dutch spend less than any other Europeans on holidays and festivities,’ said Dad.’

‘Some people might just see this as being more frugal and less materialistic than others. Like many of my compatriots I grew up under the privations of the War. This certainly doesn’t have to mean that we have less fun. Perhaps not spending as much money leaves more room for other ways.’

In keeping with this thinking, it was not surprising that Tom was influenced by the preaching of John Wesley eschewing profanity, espousing personal discipline and abstinence in the consumption of alcoholic beverages.

It was also not surprising that he came to realise the world was changing and that the Church had to adapt. Through education and improvements in people’s living conditions more moderate and enlightened social behaviour would ensue. Two incidents on Tom and Bev’s northern pilgrimage reflected the changing times.

As well as tending our store my father sold fish from the back of an ice packed truck parked beside the Civic Theatre. He used to spruik his goods calling out, ‘Damfish for sale, dam fish for sale.’

Tom asked him why he was calling them ‘dam’ fish.

Dad said, ‘These ones were caught them at Keepit Dam, so they’re dam fish.’

He brought some left over home at the end of the day and asked my mother to cook the dam fish.
She looked at him a little bewildered and said, “You shouldn’t use such language in front of Tom.’
‘I’ve explained to Tom why they are called that,’ he said so she agreed to cook them. When dinner was ready and everyone was sitting down, Tom asked me, ‘Please pass me the dam fish.’
I replied, ‘That’s the spirit Tom. Now please pass me the bloody potatoes!’

While Tom was in Gunnedah he attended a service given by one of those old  Ministers who rail against alcohol,warning of the fiery furnace.

When he was completing his temperance sermon, with great expression he cried, “If I had all the beer in the world, I’d take the demon drink and throw it into the Namoi River.”

With even greater emphasis, he said, “And if I had all the wine in the world, I’d take it and throw it into the Namoi River.”

And then, finally, he said, “And if I had all the whisky in the world, I’d take it and throw it into the Namoi River.” He sat down.

The song leader then stood very cautiously and announced with a wide smile, “For our closing song, let us sing ‘Shall We Gather At the River.'” from The United Methodist Hymnal Number 723.

An Inquiring Mind.

I was always wanting to learn new things, about what people had to say and how they got to where they were. With an incipient searching point of view, I wanted to know everything about everything.

Articles of Faith

As you might have guessed, ours was a political household. From a tender age politics and history were food and drink to me. And vice versa. It was my grocer father who was the purveyor both of articles of sustenance and of faith. He doled them all out with care : ‘Here’s a half a pound of reasons,’ he told us, ‘and a quarter pound of sense, a small sprig of time and as much of prudence.’

My mother, his right hand woman, went along with whatever he dished up to all intents and purposes.

Items of knowledge about the tea, butter, flour, sugar, spices, tinned foods he trafficked in, were served up at the dinner table as a matter of course, as were the names of those responsible for producing and marketing them.

He told me a great tale about how marketing can work wonders in boosting sales.

‘You know how we sell much more red salmon than pink.’

‘Sure. Red has much more flavour.’

‘Well the advertising men turned this insurmountable handicap around to get ahead of the game. Their client, a cannery stuck with a glut of less marketable pink salmon boldly labelled their product as ‘Guaranteed not to turn red in the can!’

I read the labels on various packaging to sharpen my own wits.

‘Dad, how a product could be labelled as ‘new and improved’? ‘If it’s new there has never been anything before it. If it’s an improvement there must have been something before it. What was being passed off then?’’

Bandied about at our table were the names of the various companies, their workers, the politicians who represented them and what was at stake in their disputes. Coming up for discussion most often was the question of who was running the country, whether it be Ben Chifley, the leader of the Australian Labour Party, who had spoken of the Light on the Hill, or Robert Menzies, protector of imperial values, leader of the Liberal Party, which governed in coalition with the Country Party.

The Land of Nod.

It was Menzies whose nodding acquaintance I made early in 1953-December 10 to be precise, Chifley, having been laid to rest. The formidable Ming as he was known dominated the Australian stage like no one ever has done.

My father took his chip off the old block to witness his performance on his whistle stop,pork barreling visit to Gunnedah. On the black stump, he was coming to endorse the government candidates in an upcoming by-election. He could be guaranteed a good turnout in this part of the sticks, seeking assurance of its importance on its part. It wasn’t everyday that such a notable man of affairs dropped into the state’s northern wheat belt and while my father was from a different faith, he knew the good sense of hearing out disparate voices. After all this was the dyed-in–the wool conservative heartland where his business interests required him to tread on eggs as well as sell them.

Waiting to file into the town hall, no vetting,no admission by ticket only, we were at the end of the long queue that reached the side entrance when the bestriding figure loomed up. Jumping jellybeans, there was no mistaking this famous head, large as life bending down and up ever so slightly, its dewlaps as pendulous as a sea lion’s, its dark bushy eyebrows even more luxuriant than its crowning white cap. You could tell this was a man who commanded authority by the close attention paid by his minders and the obeisance displayed by those in attendance. He arrived directly after his luncheon. Nothing fancy-just hot tongue and cold shoulder for those his followers found distasteful. Along his path his minions fell over themselves bowing, scraping, curtsying or moving their heads to express their assent.

Not known as ‘a man of the people’, this redoubtable father figure was nevertheless moved by my civic minded presence to bequeath to me words of wisdom. ‘Good evening young fellow, what’s the good word?’ he enquired, ‘Are you winning?’

‘Well, Mr Menzies’, I replied, clearing my throat, eager to make an impression, ‘I’m top of my class at school, I’m happy to say. I get lots of holy cards and koala stamps. Lots for spelling.

’I was on a winning scholastic streak at this stage with pats on the back. ‘Mum and Dad call me a walking encyclopedia. I’ve got information vegetable, animal, and mineral.’

‘That a boy.’ he said. ‘And do you help your parents?’

‘I assist them in our grocery shop’ I replied, my father beaming beside me.

‘Well done, if I don’t say so myself. So did I. Whatever you do in life always strive to do your best,’ he advised, ‘and you’ll go a long way. Whatever you do always give one hundred percent. Unless you are donating blood. You be good now.’

As he proceeded into the hall, festooned with flags and bunting, my father said to me, putting me on, with his usual term of endearment: ‘You should take him at his word, Allypal. You never know, you might well wind up in his shoes one day’. Alas little did my dad know how true this would be, at least in the physical sense.

Know for his rapier wit and razor tongue – even among his colleagues – in the hush of a large, mostly loyal audience, this heavyweight could lower his guard and leave them sheathed. Those beetlebrows could rest unruffled with no one to bristle at. No one would have dared heckle him. While I did not follow all of his references, his clear simple English and re-cap of the points he was making enabled me to get the drift. He conveyed his views forcefully in his sonorous baritone voice, striking a distinctive pose with his right hand raised and clenched, his other hand on his hip. Absolute silence during his pauses. Not a dicky-bird. Most of his address was self-congratulatory directed towards those who showed the clear solid values that he stood for: industriousness, thriftiness, self-reliance and commitment to family life, parliament and the Queen.

He exalted the home as where the life of the nation was to be found and emphasized the role of women as custodians of this site. To the cheer of ‘Hear, Hear!’, he referred to the audience as ‘the forgotten people – not Rose Watleys mob – but the middle class, whose neglect he put at Labour’s door. Trumpeting his government’s sound management, ‘What we have done is right for Australia’, he said that the proof of the pudding was in the eating. While Australia’s famous ride on the back of the sheep

had come to a halt and prices of world and other agricultural exports were plummeting from their record levels, there were plenty of jobs. If only the unions would toe the line. In their selfish pursuit of greed, they were forcing up costs and stopping competition. They were bullying every worker to become a member. And their ringleader, none other than the leader of the opposition, Dr. Evatt who promoted compulsory unionism. A hypocrite, charged Menzies, because while President of the General Assembly of the United Nations he had championed its Declaration of Human Rights. It declares: ‘No person shall be compelled to join an association”.

In his peroration, Menzies reminded people that they were now foremost in the mind of his government, and that things would pick up even more. Waving glittering promises before their eyes, he told this rural audience that if they worked hard they would be rewarded accordingly.

During the course of his address his audience gave forth great guffaws when he said his opponents had invaded the area like grasshoppers. ‘It is up to you to find out how destructive they are,’ he added.

He claimed that the Labour Party led by Dr.Evatt had had their tongues hanging out in the hope of another depression. I picked up on his view that the Communists he said we had on the run in Korea were not to his liking and that ‘we are dealing with them’. As to what he meant, a nod was be as good as a wink to a blind horse.

He knew how to tap into the mood of genial provincial optimism that had settled over middle Australia during these years of unprecedented prosperity.

The funny thing is Dad had a grudging consideration for Menzies. ‘He advanced himself as a self-made man – although he would have been wise to get some help.’

His own beginnings were not unlike that of Menzies: “He wasn’t born with a silver spoon in his mouth. Menzies father ran a grocery store in a country town”, he pointed out to me. “And things weren’t easy. Like you Menzies lived in rooms at the back of the shop”. Typical of Scots of humble origins, Menzies senior respected schooling and nudged his son to avail himself of a scholarship to rise in the world.

My father’s own father had had a saddlery business, a farm and investments in property. Neither my father nor mother completed the final years of their secondary schooling. However, his experience of the hardships of the Depression and of working for others had affected him deeply. ‘This man-made calamity swept across this rich country like a plague. Time was when banks and businesses folded. Farmers, bothered with mortgages, debts, unable to pay their bills lost their plots of land. Workers lost their jobs and their shirts. Debt collectors and money lenders hammered on their doors. So many hands were available that wages were pushed steadily downward. Opportunities for most people dried up. Many of the displaced migrated wherever in search of work’.

Like most people, what concerned him was that once the slack of wartime shortages had been taken up, dole queues, soup kitchens and swagmen vainly scrounging up work would boomerang to the land again. You can guess what I’m going to say next. In the long run he was right, but it would take another thirty years for the capitalist economic engine to start running into big troubles again.

Experience of this crucible convinced him of the value of children, every last one of them, having the best education of which he or she is capable. This would also of reduce social and economic inequalities. Menzies grandfather, a trade unionist miner, taught his grandson the same, but the second part didn’t seem to take root as deeply. That’s where Menzies needed more help.

These things engrained in my father’s thoughts the true belief that through both self improvement and greater equality Australians could ensure that war and depression not happen again. He saw the ALP as the engine of change. His hero had been the unlettered Ben Chifley, who rose from being a railway engine driver to becoming Labour Prime Minister during the last year of the War. I often saw this man of great dignity in photographs and even in newspaper cartoons staring intently through white twirls of pipe smoke. Somehow this suggested to me he was a benevolent, wise man, a man who would not rush into doing harebrained, worrying things.

‘There are others who see the way forward to a classless society differently’, he told me when I asked after the subject of a magazine cover. ‘They take a different road than us. There’s been no end of argument about this.’

‘What is this argument about?’

‘It’s an argument about means, not ends. They don’t rule out a violent overthrow of the ruling class whereas we work on the hustings with the ballot box.’

While I was helping renovate our living quarters, peeling back a layer of old linoleum covering the floor, this stripling historical archaeologist unearthed engrossing yellowing, mottled old newspapers used for insulation purposes, including a faded cover of the establishment Australian Women’s Weekly.It had not seen the light of day for a decade. The portrait, that of a fleshy faced, mustached avuncular man in uniform, pipe in mouth, was labelled Joseph Stalin.

‘He’s the ruler of The Soviet Union, the largest country in the world. He heads up The Communist Party which rules the country without opposition. He says Communists are the only ones who can bring peace and prosperity to the world through wraparound state ownership of wealth and the means of distribution.’

‘What does this mean, Dad?’

‘It means their government will see to every need. Stalin says they’ve already demolished class differences. He says they will do away with hunger and greed.’

‘Is he really good or bad, Dad?’ I asked, studying this image of an avuncular, thoughtful figure. ‘He looks like someone you can bank on and trust. But Mr. Menzies talks about Communists as our enemy.’

‘During the war when the Soviets were our powerful ally we used to call him “Uncle Joe”. Before the War he many saw him as a monster. As the 1940s was a fretful time with war and economic difficulties, it seemed good to have such a man in charge of our ally’s affairs. He brought his country from nowhere to become very powerful. His Chinese allies are doing the same. Foreign visitors are struck by the abundance of fruits, vegetables and poultry in all the cities. Beggars, barefoot children, men or women dressed in rags, are now seen only in a blue moon. People there now live with more dignity. The Archbishop of Canterbury, Geoffrey Fisher put it this way when he visited Australia. Its creed appeals to peoples which have throughout the ages known nothing but poverty, semi-starvation and poverty and see here a promise of delivery and hope.’

‘Does this mean the Archbishop approves of Communism?’ I asked.

‘No fear. He suspects their intentions.’

‘Weren’t the Communists on the same side as us during the War?’

‘The Soviet Union and the Chinese Communists were our allies when America was still neutral. When it entered the Communists were given reluctantly a temporary pass. The sacrifices of their people helped to turn the tide against the Axis.

With the war all over bar the shouting, we were suddenly led to believe it was the Soviets who wanted to dominate the world.’

‘Do you believe this, Dad?’ I asked.

‘I go along with Doc’, he said. He believes the Soviets are only establishing defensive zones of influence in Eastern Europe, not unlike what he has been trying to get Australia to do in our north. He believes we should develop a positive relationship with the Soviet Union.’

‘So what about Stalin?’

‘That’s not to say Stalin’s a good guy by any means. It’s London to a brick on he was never the kindly man the Woman’s Weekly showed him as. Is he as bad as they say he is now? There are too many horrible stories coming out the Soviet Union to say otherwise. Behind this mask lies a fiend who knows nothing of honour or conscience. They are quite unknown to him. He rules with an iron fist’, he said, closing his hand, bending his fingers to the palm. ‘The problem is the Communists – like the publishers of The Women’s Weekly – don’t put up with newspapers saying it as it is. The Packer press here accuses The A.L.P. of being in bed with the Communists. The newspaper barons and the companies have so much dough to keep the Liberals and silvertails in power, it seems to grow on trees.’

By bringing to light this paper, something clicked. It was an early lesson for me about political flip flop, how history can be turned on its head, how by blowing hot and cold, yesterday’s buddies can become today’s baddies. How yesterday’s baddies can become today’s buddies.

What did you learn in school today,

Dear little boy of mine?

What did you learn in school today,

Dear little boy of mine?

I learned our Government must be strong;

It’s always right and never wrong;

Our leaders are the finest men

And we elect them again and again.

Pete Seeger.

Doc Comes To Town.

Hot on the heels of Menzies’ flying visit was that of the larrikin leader of the federal opposition, on his barnstorming tour to drum up support for the Labor candidates. The outcome being important for the balance of power, for one week the ticklish national issues were being thrashed out not in Canberra but at our own parish pump. Dad took me to hear out this son of a country publican at the well-attended street meeting the following Friday.

On the way we passed the Commonwealth Bank to which he had accompanied me the previous week, toting my money box.

About a bank I learned that it’s a place that will lend you money, if you can prove that you don’t need it. A place where they lend you an umbrella in fair weather and ask for it back when it begins to rain.

About money, I learned very early there is never enough in creation, that some people have more of it than others, that it determines in many cases how people look at you, talk to you and treat you.

‘Show me how you’ve been saving’, Dad had said’. When I handed it to him he shook it but there was no rattle. It was packed tight.

‘Good for you.’ he said. You know what I say about rainy days.’

How could I forget. It had been on such a day when we had taken shelter in the bank’s classical building in Sydney. It was in its likeness that my uniquely designed Heritage pressed tin container was printed and shaped.

‘People recognise this model, like the bank ’, he said, squeezing the sides of the tin without being able to bend them, ‘as something substantial, constant, and reliable.

These boxes were sealed, without an opening for small fingered temptation. Unlike today when personal savings count for little and financial credit and spending for everything, people were encouraged to actively put aside. Upon my handing the tin to the teller, he proceeded to rip it open and disgorge the contents. He then handed me a new one.

Dad told me on the way home, ‘Like your box, unlike the private banks, The Commonwealth belongs to the Australian people. Chifley and Evatt tried to have them all publicly owned. They moved to nationalize them to serve as a model. They wanted the elected government, not the private bankers, to direct the course of the nation’s economy. They had done this to steer us through the war. And what direction would that be that?’

‘Straight ahead, on the up and up’, I said stretching my arm forward and curving it upwards.

‘Too right.’

‘And how do you think the bankers responded?’

‘I bet they didn’t like that.’

‘They kicked up one hell of a stink’ he said, pinching his nose. ‘So strong, I wouldn’t wrap fish in it. Before the last election these enemies of Labour made much it as signs of— ‘creeping Communism, he said putting on a scary voice and face.’ They spent big bikkies in a publicity campaign to scare people. They marshalled bank clerks to demonstrate in the street and at public meetings. Supporters feared being stabbed to death by a fountain pen.’ he jested. ‘Even though it was popular, many people remember the bankers from the Depression as greedy bloodsuckers who drove people out of their homes for not making their payments. Shylocks who produce nothing. Labour lost.’

‘So Menzies had the private bankers in his corner’. I said. ‘Always circling each other, he and Evatt must be very different kinds of men’.

‘On the face of it, they are alike. Like Menzies, Evatt is a legal eagle. Both chose public life instead of enriching themselves through the law. They are both silks, having reached the acme of their profession. But there the similarity stops. Menzies is as cunning as a fox. He can pull a swifty as niftily as Doc’s dad could pull a beer. He could find a loophole in The Ten Commandments. He could then turn it into a noose.’

What does he stand for?’

‘He used to stand for something but eventually stands only for Menzies.

‘Which groups does he aim at capturing?’

‘His appeal is to what he sees as the great sober middle class, the ‘forgotten class’ he talks of. He credits them as the real Australians, having the strong arms of “lifters”‘, he said, flexing his biceps, ‘instead of the flabby bellies of “leaners”. He plays them off against those he portrays as the monied and powerful on the one hand, and the unionised working class on the other. He wants better paid workers to see themselves as middle class.’

‘The working class can kiss my arse, I’ve got the foreman’s job at last’, I said, getting the drift, echoing and amplifying cynical comments I had picked up around the traps. ‘Working class! These layabouts are so lazy, they can’t even spell it. So lazy they can’t even fake working. They’ll never get to the top sitting on their bottom. Like those employed by the council. How do they earn their keep? Those bludgers have never done an honest day’s work in their lives.

Look at that one,’I pointed out  to him when we were driving around.

‘He’s doing the work of two men.Abbot and Costello. Come on Australia, Tote those planks! Lift those bales! They never seem to be doing anything, and yet they do not like to be disturbed at it. Some are like blisters. They don’t show up until the work is done. People say nothing is impossible, but they do it every day. Yet they want something in return. Work fascinates them – they can look at it for hours! Where are those elbows and backs? They wouldn’t work in an iron lung,’ I said, bunging it on. Some are like blisters. They don’t show up until the work is done.They think manual labour is a Spanish worker, They lean on their shovels in the fresh air while honourable accountants sweat in their offices lifting their pens and businessmen break their backs lifting their takings.’

‘You’ve got it, Al,’ he said, a little surprised at my precocious parroting. “They don’t have the Protestant work ethic.’

‘What about the Catholic work ethic?’

‘They have that. They don’t work more than they have to but feel very guilty about it. Of course, every individual worker faces hard work differently. How they approach it spotlights their character: some turn up their sleeves, some turn up their noses, and some don’t turn up at all. As for Doc’s work, he’s, in principle, dedicated to doing away with poverty and unemployment. He sees them as the worst menace to peace. Menzies wants things to be kept the same through free enterprise. Free of government control. Evatt wants social change to be achieved through a strengthened central government.’

‘Like in the Soviet Union?’I asked earnestly.

‘Nowhere to that extent,’he answered. ‘I share Doc’s faith and reliance in our existing political and legal order. My money’s on us achieving social and economic reform within our institutional framework. I’m of the firm belief that we can achieve social and economic reform within our institutional framework. We can legislate socialism into existence and capitalism out of it.’

‘What has Doc done in the way of improving things?’ I asked.

‘He’s really shone on on the world stage.As Australia’s foreign minister, he worked to make Australia an independent nation in the Asia Pacific region, with its own voice. He learned during the war that we have to stand on our own two feet. Our American cousins promised him more planes for us but never came through with the delivery. Like piecrust their promises were meant to be broken. He discovered both Britain and America were committed to a ‘beat Hitler first’ strategy. They made decisions that affected us without consulting us.’ ‘How did he help us stand on our own two feet?’

‘From his years in office, he has left two lasting contributions to our security that really stand out. The first was to swing Australia behind the Indonesian Republic, to help it become independent from the Netherlands. He believes creating fast stable allies near to home safeguards Australia’s northern approaches and means a better defence for Australia. We can’t forget the little resistance the Japanese encountered as they marched down through Asia. I never want to see you having to go through what we did,’ he assured me, putting his hand on my shoulder.

‘And the second?’

‘Doc’s other big part was in the founding of the United Nations – especially his fight for the rights of the smaller powers. This gave the ‘big boys’ who stacked the odds against them the pip. They saw him as as impertinent.

‘How does Menzies see him,’ I asked?’

‘As for his main adversary, there’s no love lost between these two’, he said. ‘During the war, Menzies and Co. dished the dirt that Doc was fleeing the Japanese when he attended talks with our allies.

‘Gosh, Dad that’s terrible’, I said.

‘He was there to argue Australia’s case. Never let it be said Doc was in in any way, shape, or form yellow’, he scoffed. ‘He was constantly flying the Pacific in Navy planes that could be shot down at any time. And it wasn’t just that. He always attracted the worst kind of vicious scuttlebutt. From those who should have known better. Archbishop Duhig said in 1942 he regarded Evatt “as the most dangerous man in Australia, an out-and-out Communist in sympathy, anti-religious and particularly anti-Catholic”. And the mud stuck. But who was he to talk? He and other knockers were all for Franco and Mussolini at the time. Because they were taking on the Communists.’

‘I thought Franco was on our side,’ I said. ‘Some of the nuns and priests speak highly of him.’

‘Franco brought in Moorish infidel troops to put down the democratically elected Spanish government,’ he replied. ‘Hitler sent his planes to bomb the loyalists, most of whom were Catholics in name.But he’s on our side. Work that one out.’

I did- but it would take a bit longer. The Church, I would learn, had a lot to answer for soft pedalling fascism.

We reached the designated meeting place where a crowd had gathered and we squeezed through for a ringside view. It was just about time for the return bout. We waited expectantly, me on tiptoes, for the bare-knuckle contender to take on Menzies, his reply in their stem-winding stoush.

It wasn’t over fashion. Just as well. In all his visits to London, Norman Hartnell’s had not been part of his itinerary. Clotheswise he was lagging, his suit it was sagging. The rumpled contender turned up, pressing the flesh, wearing a plain baggy grey suit that hung on him loosely, his hand clasping a large grey felt hat. After an introduction by the local ALP party representative, the Maitland Militant took up his position. His delivery platform was no less the tailgate of a utility vehicle. However, as a speaker, Menzies had his match in Evatt. The stocky, broad-shouldered figure of earlier years was acquiring a paunch, but spoke with a punch, with a carefully cultivated broad, nasal, flat-toned, proletarian twang. In concise, understandable language, this stormy petrel parried Menzies’ earlier thrusts, getting stuck into the government’s policies and answering a host of curly questions bluntly with conviction. While Menzies was not present, a sprinkling of his barrackers were on hand to badger Doc.

‘We’ve got to stop the sale or sabotage of successful public enterprises’ he cried, going on the attack.

‘Well stone the flaming crows, what’s it to you?’ one impudent heckler chiacked from the back.

‘Most of us lose by it’, Doc said matter-of-factly. ‘In each case the area of exploitation is widened because the safeguards against monopoly-namely competition by successful undertaking – have been removed. These belong to the people. That’s about it.’ he declared. He didn’t hold back exposing the motives of his coalition rivals. He declared that despite their name changes, today more than ever they represented the almost unbridled financial power of a few wealthy trusts, combines and monopolies.

‘What’s in it for you? ‘the heckler continued.

‘A wigwam for a goose’s bridle,’ shot back The Doc, realising the extent of the heckler’s maturity. ‘Do you want to try it on?’

His offsider obviously did. This ruddy faced mug lair in gabardine riding breeches and polished riding boots craked, “What are ya? If you don’t like it here, go back to Russia!”

Without skipping a beat, Doc ignored this, refusing to become unstuck by such distracting ratbaggery.

‘You’re all about sharing wealth’, cried the lair. ‘If you had two cars, would you give me one.’

‘Nothing of the sort. But if I had two brains, I’d give you one, sport. Now where was I? ‘Of course, this power is why these bigshots have imposed the ‘wool grab’ ’. The Doc picked up, referring to the tax on wool producers. ‘This is why they’ve broken their solemn promise to impose an excess profits tax on wealthy corporations.’

‘Political promises,’cried one supporter,in one year and out the next!’

They’ve let prices run away. These groups believe in one freedom – the freedom to exploit the rest of the community.’

‘Bullshit!’ cawed the the first taunter raucously.

‘Ah, my friends, we have an artist in our midst.I’ll come back to your chosen field of interest in a second, Sir’, said The Doc without batting an eyelid.

At the bidding of a few wealthy graziers, the Country Party has scuttled our policy of bringing more industry to the bush.

The second moleskinned heckler cawed once again derisively, ‘ Bullshit!’

Unruffled, The Doc put him in his place: ‘ I assure you, old son, there’ll be more of this than you can handle. As with grain handling, we’ve decentralised slaughtering and this will continue. The Country Party is afraid this trend will tip the voting balance of power in our favour. ‘They’ve become the slave of the Liberals, hardly serving country interests at all. It’s nothing to crow about.’

Strong stuff indeed in these days of obsequious laborite subservience. Where its leaders say one thing and do another, their words not matching their deeds. Overall, most of the people who showed up to seemed to be Doc supporters. They applauded when he laid into the Liberals. And they gave him a thirty second standing ovation, as if to send word to Heckle and Jeckle.

Doc acknowledged their right to speak also. ‘I’ve come to listen, too’. He said he understood he made himself a target by putting forth a substantive plan that his opponents could use as a weapon against him.

As with that of Menzies’, the meeting was tremendously exciting for a whippersnapper like myself. Like Evatt up on the ute, the ideas were a bit above my head, but from my eye level, I was moved by the theatricality and emotion of the occasions, the sheer excitement that was generated in the good people all around me and the arguments that Dad explained to me on the way home.

‘Why did that clodhopper go and tell Dr.Evatt to go back to Russia, Dad? I asked.

‘He’s pig ignorant, Al. Bert’s never been to Moscow. He’s a Maitland boy. Some yahoos presume those who are different to them ought to be living somewhere else.’

‘These wallies can always up fiddlesticks and go back to Woop-woop’, I suggested, citing that mythical Australian nowhere place’.

Such scenes are rare nowadays. These were not just some of the hand-picked, party supporters only events that pass for public meetings these days. Ones where the requirement for a campaign event to look good on the TV news with candidates prepackaged like TV dinners has killed a lot of spontaneity. As have the needs, real or imagined, of security.

Dad pressed upon me a strong honest work ethic and the belief that anything could be achieved through persistence. He sat me down in the back yard one day and spoke man to me man as follows: ‘Let me give you a slice of my advice for what it’s worth, Allypal.There are certain obligations you just can’t shirk.You’ve got to put the heat on to make the kettle perk. Whether in this line of work or in schoolwork, do it properly, not any old how. Never do things by halves. Whatever you go at, always give full measure.

When you’re weighing spuds, seven pounds means seven pounds – or slightly over – never under. A small ice cream means a full rounded scoop – not a half-hearted scrape. People know if they’re getting short weight. Give them their money’s worth. Otherwise they’ll take their custom elsewhere.’

‘Up the road to Bruce Douglas’, I said, referring to our comparably sized competitor in the main street’.

‘The same goes at school, he went on. ‘Study up on everything that your teachers ask you. Put your mind to it. Keep your thinking cap on tightly. There’s a good boy. You’re as clever as anyone else, second to none. I’ve got such high hopes for you. With a good education you can have opportunities we never had.You’ll be amazed what you can do if you set your mind to it. No matter what, do the right thing and you’ll make the grade. That’s the way to go. All any father can expect. You’ll have the world on the end of a string’.

‘And I’ll do it’, I sang in my childish treble, standing up, reeling down my yo yo, ‘with a bing, bang bong.’

The Great Divide.

My father’s reflexive support for the Australian Labour Party which claimed to represent the working class and the have-nots stemmed from consideration that went deeper than this. You see 20th Century political life in Australia was shaped as much by religious as class factors. My father grew up in a time of thriving sectarianism, when notions of being Catholic or Protestant, of religious discrimination, were of every day noteworthiness.

‘If you wanted a job in New South Wales in the thirties,’ my father said, ‘you had to put down what your religion was, and if you applied for a job in private enterprise and you were Roman Catholic you didn’t get a job. That’s why the public service was full of Catholics, both state and federal, because they had nowhere else to go to get jobs.’

If you trace the establishment in white Australia back in time, it can be seen as mostly British Protestant and middle to upper class in character.It viewed with disdain and suspicion the significant Irish Catholic minority who gravitated to the ALP  and saw it as their natural home. Its leaders saw their Labour counterparts as exemplifying all the vices of the dictatorial Catholic Church and as being as beholden to it as to faceless trade unionist out to wreck the economy. They saw themselves as enshrining the notion of the individual, as representing the Protestant ideals of freedom of conscience and freedom of judgement. They regarded the requirement that Labour Party members sign the Pledge as something sinister and binding. They questioned the allegiances of its members when the bitter divide between Catholic and Protestant was starkly apparent during World War I.

“Where does your loyalty lie, to your King or to the Bishop of Rome?” my mother’s father was taunted when on leave from his military service as a motorcycle courier in France, “You have injured the honour and prestige of the Empire”, claimed some uninformed loyalists.

Fostering a similar moral sense of attachments to the organization as that by the Church, the ALP forged a remarkably cohesive alternative to the W.A.S.P.ish ascendancy. There were resonances between Catholic social thinking and the collectivist aspects of the ALP. Both were concerned with offsetting the harsh consequences of capitalism. The Irish connection brought with it a tradition of sympathy for the underdog and the colonized. Moreover the Party had a good reserve of prestige remaining after its wartime leadership.

“After the British garrison at Singapore fell to the Japanese, we were left largely undefended”, my father pointed out to me. “What’s more before the War, Menzies, or Pig Iron Bob as he got called, made matters worse by selling to Japan scrap iron which only got shot back at us. Only Curtin could bail us out of this defeat”, he said referring to Australia’s wartime leader.

It would be the question of how far to go in fulfilling its social and economic objectives and the accompanying timetable that would test to the limit the cohesiveness of this labourite alliance of odd bedfellows – those of a secular tendency and those influenced by the Church.

The Light on the Hill

The brilliant glow lighting up the firmament over the generously named Mt. Porcupine [264m.] drew me and my friends like moths on this one night of the year with the promise of exciting and amusing goings-on. When I first saw it I plain wondered if this were the ‘Light on the Hill’ spoken about by Chifley and relayed to me by my father. A metaphor for the objective of crackerjack government, great happiness and prosperity, it was one whose accomplishment would come to dominate my life’s thoughts.

Those who had started off the annual commemorative occasions culminating in the bonfire gatherings argued that this objective had already been achieved, but I was developing strong doubts about this. There were too many irons in this fire to control.

Commonwealth Day – or Empire Day as it was still known – a mostly British protestant enthusiasm and invention – was held to commemorate the triumph of civilization brought about where the British had held sway. The Empire which had imparted such great red swathes to the fading atlases in our classrooms. The aim of the day was to cultivate in us children a long table of virtues – such as temperance and politeness – said to have build the Empire. However I did pick up signs that not everyone was behind these aims. For starters those from an Irish Catholic background more lukewarm to its fading political purpose called it by a more palatable name – Cracker Night.

For all of us kids it was the wondrous day of whose coming we could talk of nothing else. An early release from school after lunch enabled us to get down to the real business of the day – testing of fireworks aplenty: extremely loud double bungers, jumping jacks under our feet and the screams as we jumped out of their way. Catherine wheels pinned on a piece of wood which we had to struggle to get to spin, roman candles, star – showering rockets and all kinds of miniature home made bombs contrived from these. Not to forget sparklers, those light-hearted cousins of the fireworks family.

Judging by the grizzling reported to the schools and in the newspapers of burns, injuries and larrikin atrocities such as exploding letterboxes, it seemed only a matter of time before this pyrotechnical feting of imperial virtues would phut and fizzle out.

Free Rein.

It takes a whole village to raise a child.

African proverb.

For my part the fifties was a time of innocence, invention and imagination. Wacko the diddle-o, a free ranging glorious time for that old gang of mine. Mother Nature had provided vast expanses in which we could indulge in all kinds of diversions. There were no regulations. Our parents didn’t warn ‘Watch out for brown snakes! Watch out for red back spiders!’ We dealt with these as we came across them.

No stranger danger. People looked out for us unaccompanied kids.

It seemed like the summers would never end.We would shinny trees and maunder along the river.We’d compete at skimming  flat stones across the water sidearm so that they bounced off the surface as  many times as possible. The objective of the game was to see how many times they’d bounce before sinking.

We revelled in going for dips. Even after the town swimming pool was built, we would still opt for the Namoi. You couldn’t beat swinging out from the bank on a rope and bombing each other. We dunked each other, holding each other under water until eventually exploding out of the water in search of air. You couldn’t beat the freshness of running water without the addition of chlorine.

Some parts of the Namoi are much wider than others. At one particular spot I saw local tramps Jack Locock and B.O. Plenty on the opposite bank. Jack was holding a short stick in front of him, for what purpose I couldn’t make out.

There’s a fine line between fishing and standing on the bank looking like an idiot.

‘Yoo hoo!’ I shouted, ‘How can I get to the other side?’ Jack looked up the river then down the river and shouted back, ‘You ARE on the other side.’

‘What I mean is I want to get to the side you’re on.’

‘Wait on.I’ll come and get you.’He sculled over in an old rustbucket to collect me. ‘Row, row, row your boat,’ I could hear him sing, ‘gently down the stream. Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream.’

‘Was this part of your dream, Jack, to have a fine vintage craft like this?’ I asked. ‘It must have been launched when Long John Silver had two legs and an egg on his shoulder.’

‘It’s not mine.I’m just leasing it at present, but I have the option to buy.’

‘Do you actually ever do any real fishing in it, Jack?’

‘Have you any idea of the joy of landing a fifty pound Murray Cod along this stretch of the Namoi?’

‘I’m afraid I haven’t.’

‘Well that makes two of us.’

‘You used to be be quite well off, I believe, B.O. You were a stock and station agent and had a good income.’

‘Now I’m living so far beyond my income, we might also be said to be living apart.’

‘What happened to all your assets?’

‘I spent half my money on gambling, on the squiff and taking out various women. The other half I wasted.’

Alcohol is a perfect solvent: It dissolves marriages, families and careers.Would it be so hard for you to dry out?’

‘I have been been sober for twenty days… just not all in a row’.

‘So why then do you drink?’

‘I drink to forget I drink.’

‘What happened to your marriage?

‘When my wife left, I was sad, upset and lonely.
After that I got a dog,bought a new boat, blew a grand on drink and
all my savings .’

‘And after that?’
‘My wife went crazy when she got home from work.’

Wouldn’t you like to live your life over, to start again right from the off without making any mistakes?’

‘If I had to live my life over, I’d live over a saloon bar. But right now–I’m Popeye the Sailor Man, I’m Popeye the Sailor Man,’ he sang as he skyed his oar, starting for his return voyage, ‘I’m strong to the finish ’cause I eats me spinach. I’m Popeye the Sailor Man.’

Boredom was a self-inflicted malady. Just the threat of it, a mere hint, forced you to be inventive, to improvise. My gang and I were adept at making various simple machines, contraptions and whatnot from whatever was available. The building sites we played in were a good source of materials. These days they would be fenced off with plenty of warning signs.

My mates from up the lane helped me build the greatest billycart. We took turns on the slope of Mt. Porcupine. They had it downhill while I had it uphill. We built it from all kinds of bits and pieces. Nothing got wasted then. Strike a light, I nearly did when I started making bolt bombs. I prepared these by tightly packing match heads into the cavity formed by two bolts and screwing them into a common nut. The detonating report I produced by slinging them onto the walls of an enclosed garage was invariably so loud it could waken the dead. The trajectory of the projectile – and my own – was more herky jerky.

As with the fireworks we played around with, with such abandon, this off-the-wall experimentation wasn’t geared to enhancing our nuts and bolts understanding of ballistics or combustions, as it should have been, but was just larking around. I almost copped the odd bolt from the blue on my own nut. I would just have to bide my time to use legally sanctioned explosives.

Eventually I would go about trying to blow the lid off the biggest can of garbage in Australia. One officialdom would try to keep down tightly. ‘Cos I was doing it with words. But more of that later.

I then adjusted my sights to contriving missiles that could be guided better with less bang. On both counts I slipped up. By a long shot. The missile went right off the radar. The report, not at the point of discharge, rather at the point of landing, was thunderous.

Too Close For Comfort

I had gotten into building a crossbow simply from a grooved plank used for flooring. Old bicycle tyres provided the thrust, nails the arrowhead. Pressing my lips together, I took a deep breath through my nostrils and steadied myself to take another punt. Fire away! Poof! The first arrow I shot was like the one in the verse “I shot an arrow in the air, it fell to earth I know not where”. Gee whiz, I found out where the next day when the boys in blue came around. They were following up a report made by a neighbour quivering with trepidation. They were trying to get wind of the source of the arrow that landed next him, a block away. He was busy at his workbench, when the missile thudded into it. Thwack! Robin Hood couldn’t have shot it further Jacob Enks, a local butcher, was nearly skewered himself by the Phantom Archer. My father assured them that I would never displease him by getting into such a fix.

‘What happened to that archery you were so into?’ he asked me later.

‘Never heard of it.’

I had dropped it on the spot. T’was a fair cop. With other strings to my bow, it was then that I turned my interest to bicycles.

Home On The Range

Roaming unencumbered the wide open, sunburnt countryside with my mates, through paddocks of golden wheat and pastures of plenty, past sagging silos, we never rushed our fences.Whether on ground or pumping the pedals of our bikes, wherever our happy feet took us, the days seemed to stretch endlessly in front.Each one a blissfully carefree day. Zip-a-dee-doo-dah, zip-a-dee-ay. ‘Allan, why do you always get so dirty?’ my mum would ask, taking care to scrub my feet.’

‘Well Mum, I’m a lot closer to the ground than you are.’

I developed an appreciation of seasonal change, it’s working on the human spirit as well as the landscape and the natural order of things. Each day brought an almost infinite number of sensual impressions of colour, sound smell taste and touch. We were introduced to the wonders of the bush. Learning to recognise the different wild flowers and trees, we took wild flowers back to school or home to press and save. Learning first hand about local wild-life, we studied the copious insects crawling under the foliage and those preparing for takeoff. Like Leo Cullum I could see things from the caterpillar’s point of view. They do all the ground work while the butterfly gets the glory.

I told one of my mates ‘Did you know butterflies only live for about one month?’

He said, ‘That’s a myth.’

‘No, it’s definitely a butterfly.’

When studying ants we discovered the observer effect- the fact that simply observing a situation or phenomenon necessarily changes that phenomenon. When we looked at the ants through a magnifying glass on a sunny day they burst into flames.

We looked for birds’ nests tucked in tree boughs, sometimes with newly hatched birds. We got to know which colour and size of egg belonged to which bird.

The birds in turn looked out for us.

Brimming over with vim and vigour, our style was cramped only by the occasional snake slithering through the grass and putting the wind up us. Any venom I would draw would come later in life from one of the local two legged variety.

As for these slippery legless customers my moving experience with them remains firmly embedded in my mind’s eye. After receiving an air rifle for my birthday I had the bright idea of sniping at sparrows on the bank of the Namoi River for target practice. As the slow, soothing motion of the river trickled through the reeds, I took potshots at any perched preeners. After an hour or so of this senseless massacre, I felt a rustling of grass underneath where I had taken up firing position. Looking down my heart was going like the clappers. Zounds! I was staring walleyed face to face with a brown snake. It’s beady eyed head was engorged with the bodies of the passing passerines I had demolished. My eye was on the sparrow. He was watching under me. Decamping gingerly, I vowed never again to kill wilfully any creature, without good reason.

This was not a good time for sparrows. While I was on the rampage, Chinese sparrows were systematically being wiped out on the orders of Mao Zhe-dung. They were being targeted along with flies, mosquitoes and mice in the great campaign to rid China of pests. Not that anyone in our parts had any sympathy for these little critters. On the need to rid the land of pests which eat grain seeds, Australian farmers and the Chinese Communists were in agreement. Moreover they agreed on the importance of Australian sales of wheat and wool to China. We were feeding and clothing the reputed enemy.

Those Faraway Places

While I was training my mind I was also minding the trains. The railroad track ran through the middle of Gunnedah, punctuating the day. There were two services to Sydney at that time, the morning run and the other which went through about 8:00 at night. Those times of the day were of of greatest excitement. I got increasingly restless whenever I heard the whistle of a train. Like the horn of a ship or the roar of a plane, this is one of the most romantic-or loneliest- sounds. I watched the trains from the lookout on the hill behind the town. Mt Porcupine offers a vast panorama of the plains around the mountains to the North West. Gazing in this direction, a strong subliminal itch in my legs, I would often think about what lay beyond, over the hills and far away. Such a lot of world to see. For starters, that Eurasian land mass with its strange sounding names was calling me. When would I would go there and what lay in store for me?

Straddling the Saddle

In the meantime I was happy to breeze through these sweeping plains at my own pace graduating to a larger saddle, with the addition of horsepower.There was nothing like my first riding attempt to make me feel better off.With a blistered bum and a touch of bling, I painted the saddle’s foot frames with gold paint. ‘Giddyup there, Treacle,’ I’d whisper. My horse had golden stirrups.

The great outdoors, the properties of friends, saw me covering new terrain in a wide range of manoeuvres – cantering up and down hills, jumping over ditches, making the dust fly, fording shallow creeks and climbing the surrounding embankments, the clop of hooves ringing on the hard black soil. All placing me in good stead for the gymkhana, the games on horseback. Combed, curried and washed behind the ears, I moved as one with my mount, sound in wind and limb, competing with the horsey set in all manner of races, individual, relay, weaving, and a variety of novelty events to demonstrate my horsemanship. Yippie-yi-yo-ki-yay. The real test was to decide what to do with all the ribbons that were generously awarded. The more practical minded made them into blankets and saddle clothes.

That year every body was doing the limbo.

Somebody stole the stick we’d limbo under.How low can you get?

That year a local farmer took advantage of the gymkhanas to sell some his horses. On the cheap he put Jack Locock in charge of the of this operation, feeding him up and getting him presentable to the public. At one meet a Pitt Street farmer, a wealthy absentee rural landowner from Sydney, upon enquiry approached Jack with a view to buying a mount for his daughter to compete on. Jack had three horses to offer him.

‘Let me see,’ said the father, looking the horses over. There were two young ones to select from and an older one.

‘I’ve been advised to avoid the younger, friskier horses’, he said, ‘as they’re more suitable for experienced riders. With them it would take a lot of time and patience to get good results. An older, more experienced horse would be better for my lass. She’ll be a beginning competitor. I’m not looking for the best looking horse but one which will be easier to handle. My daughter’s skills and that of the horse will offset each other. I’m going for the older one. Can I take it for a test run myself? I want to judge if it and my girl will be compatible.’

Take your pick,’ Mister. You can try working the horse in the arena over there,’ he said pointing to the distant enclosure. It’s got deep, soft sandy footing. After your ride ask yourself these questions: Does the nag have enough speed? Is it willing to stop and turn when you ask it? What’s its temperament like? Does it jibber? How does the horse recover from a workout?’ As the father kicked his foot into the stirrup, Jack leaning against the fencepost, drawled out ‘Personally I’d go for one of the young’uns. I’m not too sure about that old mare, mister. She don’t look so good.’

The dad, ready to start said ‘She looks fine to me. Can I just get going?’ Jack shook his head and said ‘It’s your ride, mister.’ And motioned to the old horse to get started. The horse knew the way and started off.

About an hour later, the father returned all coated with mud and sand. His face was all scratched and his shirt had been torn in several places. ‘This is an outrage!’ he yelled. ‘This horse ran into trees, tore through bushes and puddles.Then it ran headlong into low hanging branches. It’s like she’s half blind!’

Jack pulled a piece of straw from between his teeth and said ‘Well, she is.’

Well here is a question I have to ask you: ‘Why didn’t you warn me?’ cried the dad, recovering from the ordeal.

‘I did. I told you she don’t look so good.’

To bear out what he was saying a little girl looking on called out, ‘Look at that horse with one eye.’

Covering one of her eyes her friend asked, ‘Where?’

Angling for Compliments

There was one creature I would continue to kill – but with good reason. Its flesh was double delicious. One of my more rewarding pastimes was ‘fishing’ for yabbies, fresh water crayfish in a pond adjacent to the Namoi River. It was remarkably simple – even simpler than the way Elvis had sung about in ‘Crawfish,’ dispensing with his big long hook and a big long pole. By dangling a piece of meat tied to a length of string in the water, I would soon attract a yabby who would nab the piece in its claws and try to make off with it. I had to make sure the meat wasn’t me.

When it pulled the string tight, I would pull the grasping yabby slowly back to the bank, with it determinedly maintaining its hold onto the meat. All I had to do was to scoop it out with a net and take it back home to the pot. Tout de suite, the claws so succulent, the meat so sweet.

My family’s menu consisted of two choices: take it or leave it. The standard dish was steak with mash and veggies, albeit with 57 varieties. Followed the next day by lamb chops with bubble and squeak. Served with a simple salad, my yabby dish was a nice break.

I would pass on my knowledge of this unique savoir fare to Andre Simon, the doyen of writers on wine and food after he sent me his good wishes.

He wrote the best selling ‘A Concise Encyclopedia of Gastronomy’ and scores more. Keen as mustard on catering to the refined palate of this illustrious veteran of the Great War, I invited the grand old man of literate connoisseurship to come and savour some mouth-watering bush tucker. Knowing this anglicized Frenchman’s love of language I wanted to regale him with my debonair impression of Clouseauese, that mimicking by Peter Sellers of the French who can’t quite get their tongues around certain English words. My greetings would have been something like the following ‘Monsieur Simon, we welcome yeu (you) to our arse (house) make yeuerself (yourself) at heum (home)’.

While preparing a real slap-up meal, I was to have have invited him into our kitchen to demonstrate and pass on the butchering and vocal skills of the bush poissonier, bursting through the tough shell of this hardy crustacean and into my smooth cover of Elvis’ Crawfish:

See I got him, see the size
Stripped and cleaned before your eyes
Sweet meat look, fresh and ready to cook
Now take Mr. Crawfish in your hand
He’s gonna look good in your frying pan
If you fry him crisp or you boil him right
He’ll be sweeter than sugar when you take a bite’

Come dinnertime with a soupcon of colonial etiquette, this cordon bleu was to place my honoured guest next to my Dad, the host. I was to do the honours, proudly unveiling this non-pareil culinary delight with a sweep of my hand and a gallic flourish. ‘Voila- la piece de resistance! Bon appetit!’

Accompanied by some crisp bon mots and a bottle of vintage ‘plonk’ from my parents one stop shop. Andre was always bemused how the Australian troops couldn’t quite get their tongues around the words ‘vin blanc’.

I would have asked him ‘Aperitif?’ as I’d heard he relied on dentures.

‘Chardonnay?’ I would have liked to have opened the bottle with my French Army Knife but Michael Crawford hadn’t yet drawn up the blueprint.

I would have liked to have opened the bottle with my French Army Knife but Michael Crawford hadn’t yet drawn up the blueprint.

‘ Formidable! C’est si bon!’ Andre said. ‘I’ve just spent a month in France, and its Chardonnay ’as got nothing on this.’

‘Naturellement,’ I said. ‘Over there, their Chardonnay is domestically produced. Ours is imported.’

Alas this deluxe banquet in the backblocks was never to be.The tyranny of distance proved the overriding snag.Andre would have had bigger fish to fry closer to home. The secret of ‘Yabby Salade avec Plonk du Jeur’ would remain so that much longer.

Culture Vulture.

Thriving in this secure burgeoning world, thoughtful in all matters of the mind and plenty serious, I whiled away much of my leisure time engrossed in the radio, the picture theatre and books.Once I got into serious reading that was it. I became fascinated with the writers and actors I encountered, and the literary and theatrical sets in which they consorted. These opened a window on the outside world for me.The wide world of thoughts and dreams, myths, ideas, inspirations, intuitions brought into being by the human imagination since the dawn of consciousness.

Not just something decorative, much of the costumery we wear, the songs we sing and so on. More deeply the body of ethical and moral values that we place around each individual to keep at bay the barbaric heart that history teaches us lies beneath the surface of all humans. Our culture that enables us to make sense out of sensation, to find order and meaning in a universe that doesn’t give it freely. The glue that allows civilisation to happen and wards off alienation.

The radio acted to dispel any sense of isolation, being my main source of news, music and entertainment. My first was a crystal set that I was attached to, snuggled up under the bedcovers at night. My ritual before getting shuteye. The single family wireless receiver was built like a piece of furniture and took up a whole corner of the lounge room.

This ‘theatre of the mind’ stretched my imagination letting me create my own mental pictures around what I was listening to. High on my list in this regard were the improvised BBC ‘In All Directions’ and ‘The Goons’ of which I was one of the many listeners throughout the world.

‘In All Directions’ regarded as a forerunner of the Goon Show featured Peter Ustinov and Peter Jones in a Beckettesque road movie, driving round in a perpetual search for Copthorne Avenue. Peter was a real card who exploited his renowned gift for mimicry to the full. The comedy derived from the characters they met along the way, often also played by themselves.I aimed to emulate Ustinov’s fine ear for characters and sounds, his perfect command of accent and intonation. I worked at reproducing musical instruments, bird cries in our garden and car impersonations.By taking off his, mine were so accurate that I could get people to leap on to the pavement to avoid being r.un down by non-existent vehicles.It was my ‘car’s’ cold start one morning that led to my father jumping out of bed, expecting to see his car being driven off.

Such skills could come in handy.Once on a visit to Sydney a trio of louts tried to occupy my seat in a train carriage.I flipped out, acting as if I had been bitten by a rabid dog.This sent them packing.

The Goons’ zany miscellany of skits and bits mixed cockamanie plots with surreal humour, tag lines, quips and cranks, and an array of daffy and bizarre sound effects. Appealing to the latent eccentric in me it sharpened my sense of the absurd. The bubbling humour they created also infected the Monty Python team and the Beatles, all who would give me great delectation. It would be the sound of his troublesome stomach that would announce the arrival of the cloddish Major Dennis Bloodnok, a well known coward who deserted from the British Army. This was one of the many characters of Peter, the impressionists’ impressionist, who could even do a Spike Milligan, his fellow Goon. Peter took on the voice of Hercules Grytpype, a smooth talking con man. He was the twittish boy scout Bluebottle whose flummoxed and flummoxing persiflage with Eccles take place in many of the Goons scripts.

At the other end of the age spectrum he was the extraordinarily antediluvian Henry Grun who defies old age and the dreaded lurgy with ‘Get Fat Hormones’. Having lived in India Peter was a master at taking off the broken English Hindi accent through his characters Lalkaka and Banerjee. The Goons’ characters were largely based on dimwits or cads they came across in the forces, or in Peter’s case at a minor public school. With their vocal dexterity their characters took on a life of their own. The Goons was a showcase for Peter’s improvisational talent with he and Milligan perfect foils, sparking ideas and situations off each other. I aimed to capture such clever casualness and off-handedness in my own call and response verbal volleys.Trading banter with partners of the right chemistry, playing off each other’s reactions, feeding a continual flow of fuel.

‘Did you know I invented the echo?’I asked my mate Owen.

‘Just listen to yourself—self—self,’he replied, happy to act the foil.

Best Sellers.

.Peter Sellers was one of the worlds greatest character actors, especially in comedy.

He was also a very disconsolate man, often infusing his comic characters with an undercurrent of deep melancholy, reflecting his own mood indigo. Aiming to help him in a small way overcome his personal insecurities and lack of a well adjusted self-image, I would congratulate him for his comedic legacy for which he thanked me very much.

I told this enigmatic figure, who often claimed to have no identity outside the roles that he played, how impressed I was with his astonishing range of characters which had earned him international stardom at a time when rigid typecasting was usual. He had a talent for playing multiple characters, making the individual characters distinct, frequently with contrasting temperaments and styles, for example in “The Mouse that Roared’ as well as ‘Dr Strangelove’, considered to be his best film.In it, he took on three different roles seamlessly integrated into the end-of-the-world storyline.He had a gift for playing different nationalities and ethnicities.He could embody his characters with such wonderful, ‘out there’ characteristics.

Peter strove to avoid playing the same character twice. He especially enjoyed slipsliding into characters much older than himself. He could slip in and out of characters as easily as one slips in and out of a jacket.

In Lolita as a mentally unbalanced TV writer with multiple personalities he mined emotional depths and reached crazed comic epiphanies unmatched in his later work. His hotel porch confrontation with James Mason’s Humbert Humbert is a marvel of nervous energy and quirky timing.

Watching him I became aware of that sense of lunacy lurking.You never knew when his role would be as someone provocative, sensible, totally insane, singing, shaking his booty or exploding. He was a unique combination of being extremely subtle and over-the-top all at the same time.

A Man Of Capacious Talent.

I congratulated actor, raconteur and humanitarian Peter Ustinov for enriching the gaiety of nations, adding to the public stock of harmless pleasure with some darned good acting thrown in for good measure.

As an actor, he won international stardom as a lurid, gloating Nero in the 1951 epic ”Quo Vadis?,” gained increasing stature by playing sly rogues and became one of the few character actors to hold star status for decades, adjusting easily to movies, plays, broadcast roles and talk shows, which he enlivened with pungent one-liners and hilarious imitations. I told him he was far from being an epigone. This was no faint praise.

I congratulated him in particular for his portrayal of the slave owner Lentulus Batiatus in another sword-and-sandal epic, Stanley Kubrick’s ‘Spartacus’ which brought him the first of two supporting actor Oscars.

As the unctuous self-disparaging slave dealing Lentulus Batiatus, purveying shapely females to the Roman upper classes, owner of a gladiatorial school, his instructions were to bully Spartacus mercilessly and break his spirit. Fellow actors still analyse the almost throwaway technique of understatement with which he upstaged Laurence Olivier during that player’s prime.

Peter sent me his best wishes from the sleepy Swiss lakeside town in which he lived along with his friend and neighbour Charlie Chaplin.

His acting career was characterized by numerous roles in which he displayed those talents for vocal mimicry and age affectation. In 1946 he played the detective, twice his own age, opposite John Gielgud in a legendary stage version of Dostoevsky’s Crime And Punishment.

The Big Smoke.

: “He ceased; but left so pleasing on the ear his voice, that list’ning still they seemed to hear.”

Homer, describing Odysseus’ effect on an audience in a faraway land.

As a child I came to Sydney during school holidays and other times to stay with my father’s sisters. I got to range over this big city, especially its centre, on my own hook. Like most people I like to watch the activities on building sites. This particular one I came across in November, 1960, just a stone’s throw from Circular Quay, my reference point, was not like any other. This was where the latest wonder of the world was being constructed. The Sydney Opera House. I asked one of the hardhats entering a gate how I could get approval for a look-see.

‘How far have you worked up those tricky sails structures?’

‘Listen Sonny Jim,’ he said hurriedly, hugging an oxy acetylene cylinder, ‘after a slow start, I can assure you now we’re cooking with gas. Come and see for yourself. The opening act is just about to start. If you want to see and hear a world class act, just tag along with me. You can do the official tour anytime.’

Was he fair dinkum or having me on? Curious as to what kind of artistic performance this labouring man could offer, I decided to take him up on it.He led me through a maze of massive concrete slabs, , building machinery and the general clutter of a construction site, onto the performance space- this stupendous expanse of concrete platform, resembling an ancient Mayan temple, decorated with cranes. Workers were standing, sitting on their haunches or perched on the scaffolding eating their lunch,, gathered around a big black man. We were all hushed, spellbound as this extraordinary beautiful, deep, rich, bass-baritone set of pipes, as calm as the water lapping around the site, began to boom.

Bowled over by the sheer magnitude of the notes his lungs and diaphragm expelled, I realized his voice must have carried far beyond. He would have been heard from miles away. His singing without unaccompaniment lent a highly personal atmosphere to this impromptu standout performance. I recognized the voice as soon as it opened up. There was only one in the world like that- Paul Robeson. Except that when he broke into Old Man River, he had changed the lyrics, ‘ No more “tired of livin’, scared of dyin’”, to “must keep fightin’ until I’m dyin’.He sang the stirring song of protest ‘Joe Hill’, about the unionist/songwriter, summarily executed for murder, many believe on trumped up charges. So powerful in the directness and simplicity of its melody and lyrics. In Paul’s rendition it became a moving hymn to the never-ending struggle of working people for justice. Goose flesh manifested. We rewarded him with our extraordinary attentiveness and warm-hearted response. These construction workers raised the roof. At the end of the performance, after Paul met and talked to us well-wishers, my host explained to me the nature of this event while escorting me outside.

‘Our trade union invited Paul to come here today. He can perform anywhere he likes-in palaces, in grand theatres, but he prefers to play directly to the people he believes in – those who earn their bread by honest toil – the common people. He sees us as truly brothers and sisters in the great family of mankind. Like Joe Hill did, Paul sings at union meetings, on corners and picket lines, to us. Although we are the ones who build this mighty structure, we know we won’t be the ones who’ll be able to afford it. So this is a once in a lifetime occasion for us. For an hour at least we’re the ones who call the tune.’

The Soundtrack of my Youth

At the beginning of the 60’s I entered a musical quiz broadcast by the mobile studio of the local radio station 2MO at the local show. As a kid, I was chuffed to win against a local schoolteacher and to receive something that was brand new to the world – a transistor radio. This breaking of the nexus between the radio and the power point was an exciting development. It brought with it a profound increase in the exchange of knowledge, ideas, and information, which in turn influenced my generation to become more of a going concern in politics and other affairs which affected us, than what our preceding generations would have been. Wrapped around my ear, it provided me with a companion to fend off boredom wherever I was and to lay on background music for whatever mood I wanted. With my ear to the ground, twiddling with that dial, I was well and truly switched on.

This revolution in listening consummated the age of fast expanding mass media whose birth coincided with mine. The baby boom and economic growth had fuelled the emergence of the youth culture I grew up in. I wondered what had happened to the big famous big swing bands that had come before. The leader of the local brass band, Iven Laing filled me in on this.

‘ Allan, he said, ‘it costs a bomb running a small town band. Imagine how more so it is for big bands. The big professional ones had to cash in their chips. During and immediately after the war bandleaders became balled up and chained down with big musical units. With shortages of fuel and limitations on audiences and available personnel, they became uneconomical. Many musicians felt it impractical to carry on this tradition. The big bands were replaced by smaller combos, using electric guitars, bass and drums, amplifiers and microphones, producing 45 rpm records. What’s transforming the musical soundscape now is rhythm and blues from the inner-city ghettos exerting itself in various forms.’

Those with an eye for tapping into the huge emerging market that accompanied these changes knew the importance of the means of communication. Of course, it was forces stateside who ushered in the birth of the rapidly growing popular music industry to shape my listening. One of those responsible for nurturing it on the British side of the Atlantic was Norrie Paramor, head honcho of recording for the giant EMI Corporation. He had a head both for music and the industry. His background as composer of movie soundtracks, arranger and orchestral conductor, enabled him to become one of the top producers of easy listening and early British rock and roll. He played a large part in determining what I and millions listened to before the Beatles rage. Norrie arranged and produced recordings by such artists as Eddie Calvert, Judy Garland, Helen Shapiro, Britain’s answer to Brenda Lee, and the star turn of his stable, Cliff Richard, a knight to Elvis’ King.

I told Norrie how thrilled I was by the instrumental smash hit ‘Apache’, performed by Cliff and his backing group The Shadows, which Norrie put together. A pioneering example of the surf music genre with its use of twangy guitars, its innovative tribal rhythms and straightforward melody, it evoked that mighty rush I felt, the swells coming fast, hooked onto the forces of nature while surfing. Body surfing that is. Being fair freckled skin and a country mile from the salty tang of seawater, I had as scant a connection with the lifestyle of those archetypal bronzed briny boarders who hung five, hugging the coast, as had those melody making pommy palefaces. Or as had Burt Lancaster’s celluloid redskin in the movie ‘Apache’ whose courage inspired the tune.

Norrie had an ongoing rivalry with George Martin who had under his wing amongst others the comic talent of Peter Sellers. George was trailing Norrie in the number of hits they produced until Helen Shapiro’s supporting act, the four mop topped lads from Liverpool came to his notice. They would sweep the field, but not before parodying the ‘Shadows’ in their instrumental ‘Cry for a Shadow’.

Every dog has his day and as I would remind Norrie, he had had his fair whack. I told him to take the Beatles send up as a back handed tribute. He was delighted to learn of the enjoyment he and his protégés gave me in what would seem, at least to many mums and dads looking back, an oh-so-squeaky-clean age when the sound was toned down and records kept ‘straight’.

Put a Penny in It!

Going to ‘the flicks’ was undoubtedly the most enjoyable time of the week. This young movie buff got to go twice a week to this darkened sanctuary. During the week I would go with my parents. Everyone one went to see the same films. We would sit on the comfy cushioned chairs upstairs in the dress circle and see two feature films. I would stay behind at the end to collect the lemonade bottles which people left on the floor, along with their sweet papers and tickets. Sitting in the dark with others watching a screen somehow is conducive to that habit which is defiant to the cultural standard of cleaning up after oneself. The deposits on the bottles which patrons paid and which I would claim paid for my night out plus my Saturday afternoon matinee. This was a more rambunctious affair, sitting on the harder stalls down below with orange coated chocolate balls and the groundlings hissing, booing or rolling in the aisles. ‘Hey, down in front!’ How anyone could hear the films was a mystery.

A chorus of finger whistles and voices would punctuate the silence like a dose of salts when the projector conked out with slow handclapping and catcalls of ‘put a penny in it!”

The owner of the picture show would walk up and down the aisles flourishing a torch to shine on anyone too excited to watch the show. This was the best opportunity to sneak in by the side door he left unguarded.

When interval came there was a rush for the toilets and refreshments. Otherwise you could stay and watch the advertising slides. Passouts were given to those who wanted to leave the building. After the dark interior inside hitting the street was like running into a flash of lightning. If you made it back late, you’d have to feel your way back to your seat, falling over legs, getting kicked in the shins and tripped up, squeezing past those already seated shushing and saying, ‘Watch where you’re going’, mind out’ and ‘this is not your seat’.

Defining our fantasies, fears and pleasures, most of the films were American, followed by British and a dwindling number of locally made films. The American cinema told stories that identify a collective fear of invasion, nuclear destruction, and invasive political ideologies, reflecting this paranoia back to a receptive public. For example, after it was announced it was “Them! Them! Them!”, the eponymous mutated, giant, radio-active, murderous ants hatched in the New Mexico desert after an A-bomb test were interpreted as Communists on-the-loose.

It was a toss-up whether the police in American noir were corrupt or not, but in British film of the 40s and 50s, corruption was startlingly absent thanks to censorship. Policemen were portrayed both sympathetically and impeccably as hard-working, caring, humane individuals while the crims were unstable delinquents on the make who got their just desserts. Forget tasers, SWAT teams, air marshals, finger printing brutal interrogations, strip searches or indeed any hint that policemen are less than saints in uniform. In the Ealing films London police, their hearts in the right place, rode bicycles, directed traffic, gave directions, found lost dogs, and even sang in the police choir. The grossest sin committed by the police was a tendency to park themselves in the police cafeteria and drink one too many cups of tea.

Sentimental viewers today may fall for the idea that these movies showed a gentler, kinder age. More cynical viewers (including yours truly) understand that they are a reflection of the age and its censorship. Not too surprising as the films did nothing to offend. Generally these movies endorsed the idea that the police and military apparatus made us secure standing between us and the End of Civilization as we know it.

At the end of every show the lights came on and God save The Queen was played. Everyone stood in silence while on the screen appeared Her Majesty and Phil the Greek. If you didn’t stand someone would remind you with a prod in the side. Most of us didn’t know all the words and just mumbled along after the opening lines.

This was a particularly barren point of time for the Australian film industry. The hunger for local people to see their own stories on the screen was voracious. They were nostalgic for a time of hardy pioneers. When the classic ‘On Our Selection’ film featuring the rustic Dad and Dave came to the pleasure dome, the queue to buy tickets stretched along Conadilly Street, the main drag. Usually the only Australian content of the program was the newsreels, as often as not giving the latest update on the ongoing ‘war between good and evil’, on the battle against the ‘Reds’ for world mastery. Kicking off the matinee performance was the American serial with its ham acting and crude special effects, laughable today, but gripping stuff for us kids then. A variety of short films of topical interest and cartoons would provide filler until the main item started rolling.

The feature films of the fifties overwhelmingly reflected conservative values with white-bread social, gender and racial roles being promoted. Men were men and women’s place was in the home.Any African Americans looned around and popped their eyes while playing maids,servants and crazy legged dancers. The ‘natives’ in the Tarzan and Jungle Jim films were usually relegated to romantic backdrops to be exploited by civilized white men or eaten by wild animals. Or they formed implacable hordes, red in tooth and claw, who only understood the language of force.

Occasional outbursts of defiance and rebelliousness as portrayed by individuals if not by organized political groups made it through to the Civic Theatre in Gunnedah. Performances by Marlon Brando and James Dean as contemporary anti-heroes added some reel biff to a fairly long period of sanitised run of the mill releases. On the screen I had seen endless legions of American Indians mowed down to expand the frontier of civilization. When the cavalry won it was a great victory, and when the Indians won it was a massacre. I told Burt Lancaster it was an eye-opener for me to see him interpret their plight as the result of white conquest and displacement rather than the result of their own ignorance and barbarism. While typically still using non-Indian actors for such roles, ‘Apache’ was one of the first films to depict the Indians sympathetically and one of the liveliest. A dazzling frame for non stop action, the film is full of spectacular battles, breathtaking chases and tight suspense.

Burt took on the persona of the renegade Apache, Massai. Fired by his exploits I in turn envisaged myself as this indomitable warrior of sorts. Refusing to be treated as a slave and being forced to kill others.Refusing to accept the kind of humiliating surrender that Massai’s chief Geronimo had submitted to after years of bloody fighting with settlers.

Going native,I horn in on the surrender ceremony in mid-stream to hurl defiance at the top dogs. Cut to the the prison train I‘m transported in. I make a break for it to undergo an epic journey back to my home. With unflinching strength and enormous cunning, I wage a one man war against the US cavalry. Scampering over rocks and rolling unscathed between the wheels of racing wagons, I squeak through. I keep one step ahead of the highly trained soldiers, riding the skin off their foaming horses, pounding the prairie, raising a cloud of yellow dust. They have sworn to track me down. As my resistance escalates into a final show- down, I know I must persevere, not only for my own life, but for the pride of my people.

This the cinematic warrior does, for the sake of the film studio who wanted a happy ending, against Burt’s wishes. The historical Massai was brought to bay by the cavalry and cut down. It seems we could only have our eyes opened so much at a time.

A Question of Colour.

Another film that impacted on this young cineaste during the period was “Jedda”.

I remember the posters outside the picture theatre announcing it’s coming. Interest in them was off the charts.

The straplines read “The magic of the native mating call was stranger than the habits of civilization” and “The drama of a girl caught between civilization and the call of her native instincts”.

Such words acted to stir the blood of the local people. This wasn’t another feel good movie with Doris Day. ‘Jedda’ was daring, long awaited and duly well patronized. It was the first Australian feature film in colour and the first in which the indigenous cast played themselves. Colour was an important element because the film dealt with the question of skin colour, still then an important determinant of one’s status in a racially divided Australian society. At the premiere in Darwin, first nation people were kept separate from the white folks. Only the two stars could sit upstairs in the comfy seats. At its first showing at the Civic Theatre in Gunnedah, I sat downstairs in the stalls with my nanny, Rose who took me as my parents were flat to the boards renovating our shop.

Turning on the aboriginal stars, the film was the first to give considerable weight to their emotional lives. Marbuck is the tribal young blood in this outback take on the Romeo and Juliet star crossed lovers scenario. He is dignified and proud, ignoring the castoff trappings of civilization. He’s not wearing trousers like the other Aboriginal men, and he never puts those trousers on. He is introduced at the beginning as a problematic outcast. He makes an entrance to the station and is told by the owner to leave and camp away from everyone else. When he is shooed off, he’s being shunned, but his egress is also a marvellous entrance and we see about four different shots of his handsome body. Jedda, the object of his desire is a young woman who was taken in and adopted as a baby by a white family.

She learns how to read, write and dress like a white girl

and is steered towards white tendencies and away from first nation norms.

Yet she feels an increasing sense of solitude

She feels more and more fascinated by the tribal life style.

Unlike the case of Rose Watley, this lifestyle draws her to it. It remained intact much longer in the northern territory of Australia. Jedda, who longs to go on the walkabout every year, hears tribal chants over her European piano. She is torn between two races and cultures.

It is Marbuck’s mating call that entrances her and stirs her awakening as a woman.

He takes delight in tearing down the wall that the mission has erected around her heart and makes off with her. Pursued by the white family and shunned by Marbuck’s tribal council because of her wrong “skin colour”, their attraction proves fatal.

Driven insane, Marbuck takes Jedda with him in leaping to his death. The passion that Marbuck and Jedda aroused in each other had the same effect on the audience, leaning forward in their seats.

Chauvel, the director knew how to tap into the great fascination white Australians have for the land and its ‘noble savage’. Many see black blood as having been flyblown when intermingled with that of whites, as more important than the corrupting effect of their dispossession. We were spellbound by the physical beauty of the couple. There were few dry eyes in the cinema the evening we saw it. We were awed by the sight of this rugged wilderness, this savage Garden of Eden, alive for the first time in all its glorious colours. Later my father showed me the bluff near the Blue Mountains in NSW where the stirring finale had to be refilmed.

This film had all the right ingredients for a classic. Like ‘Apache’ it delivered its message in a popular action packed adventure formula. Marbuck could keep pace with Massai on the land, wrestling crocodiles, using fire to throw off his pursuers, using water to cover his tracks and being expert with both spear and rifle. Like “Apache”, it showed indigenous people in a more humane light, both providing a strong sounding board for me to discuss racial issues. It was highly critical of the then-prevailing policy of assimilation. It boldly rejects the notion that indigenous Australians should conform to the expectations of European Australians.

At the deeply affecting end of ‘Jedda’ no one in the cinema was moving. No one was talking. For several minutes the whole audience sat in stunned pin-dropping silence save for scattered gasped sobs, blowing noses and softly catching their breath. Red cast down eyes and clutched hankies betrayed what even the the stoniest of viewers had been reduced to.

The story had raised the question of what it is to be Australian.

It also raised the question as what had happened at the local rock formation known at ‘Gin’s Leap’, a towering wall of stone left high above the plane by a volcano millennia ago.

The name is said by some to derive from an Kamilaroi woman who leapt to her death. The widely accepted origins of the current name follow the tragic death of a pair of ill fated young aboriginal lovers, another modern day Romeo and Juliet. The young girl, promised to an elder of her tribe, the Kamilaroi, ran away with a young aboriginal man from another tribe. Hotly pursued by tribesmen and the unwanted suitor, the lovers jumped to their deaths from somewhere along the top of the cliff face.

But did they really? It’s hard to say. Was this nothing more than a powerful illusion created by certain ‘gubbos’- whites- who had made it a tragic black spot.

You see, Rose had another version of the tale: ‘We don’t call the rock that name. It’s not nice. We don’t like being called ‘gins’ or ‘lubras’. It’s not respectful. Our people know the rock as “Cooloobindi”. A bunch of local farmers who saw our mob as a problem rounded up our women and they marched them to the top. They gave them a choice- to jump or to be shot. Black blood runs all over and that river it runs deep, no matter what the sign reads underneath Gin’s Leap.’

I’m not claiming to bear witness and I know people are sensitive to their history.

But if asked to pick a story I know which one I’d believe.

Our Neck of the Woods.

The power of the still image came to me in the illustrations and photos of our library books, but quantitatively in magazines and comic books. The proximity of words and images accelerated my reading ability greatly. That’s why I particularly loved cartoons.

Whenever I saw the images in books, I longed to have my own copy. Not alone, I had that envy of those who had the luck of the draw.

I accumulated a humongous repository of comics. Starting with a few, I swapped small ones for bigger ones and bigger ones for more smaller ones until shazam!I had a huge stock to marvel at. Popular items included Dick Tracy with his futuristic wrist phone that now seems so commonplace, and the nose thumbing Mad Magazines with its keen joy in exposing the fakery behind the images the ever more powerful mass media were pumping into our lives. It was magical, objective proof to kids that we weren’t alone, that there were people who knew that there was something off beam, phony and funny about a world of bomb shelters, brinkmanship and toothpaste smiles. The magazine gradually instilled in me a habit of mind, a way of thinking about a world rife with false fronts, small print, deceptive ads, booby traps, treacherous language, double standards, half truths, subliminal pitches and product placements; it tried to warn me that I could be merely the target of people who claimed to be my friend; it prompted me to be alert to to mistrusting authority, to read between the lines, to take nothing at face value, to see patterns in the often shoddy construction of movies and TV shows, to cut through the schmalz.

One of my finds was a classic copy of ‘Flash Gordon’, the space cowboy series which featured the evil emperor, Ming the Merciless. This was the cognomen given to Menzies (who pronounced his own name ‘Mingzies’) when he tried to deport an anti-fascist, anti-war immigrant to Europe before the war, my dad informed me.

Among my favourite reads was the popular comic strip Li’l Abner set in the fictional backwoods community at Dogpatch, U.S.A. This hillbilly world became familiar caricatures of American life. Sunday mornings would see me dashing along Conadilly Street to the newsagent to make sure I didn’t miss out on the newspaper with its comic supplement. Cars swerved to miss me as I sprinted across the roads, pedestrians avoided bumping into me as I walked back slowly along the street poring over the latest instalment.

The characters featured in this syndicated strip- Li’l Abner, his gal Daisy Mae, Mammy Yokum and others- satirized famous persons and customs.

In particular Daisy Mae’s voluptuous charms tickled my fancy. Much of it was visible thanks to her famous polka-dot peasant blouse and cropped skirt. Hubba hubba.

This strip created by the cartoonist Al Caplin, who abbreviated his name to Al Capp, included Charles Chaplin amongst its admirers.

Appearing intermittently as a strip-within-a-strip was ‘Fearless Fosdick”, a spoof of Dick Tracy, set in an unnamed American metropolis lousy with crime, where the sun refuses to shine, where you shouldn’t make a sudden move. Its urban setting filled with tough guys, burnt-out buildings everywhere, narrow alleys, rubble spilling out over the sidewalks, cheap bars, greasy spoon diners, people living on top of each other, their expressions reflecting the destitution of their surroundings.

So tough it was said you could walk six blocks without leaving the scene of the crime. So tough you couldn’t avoid trouble. It came looking for you.

So tough it was said even the muggers walked around in pairs.

So tough when asked how far it was to the subway a policeman replied, “I don’t know, no one has ever made it.

So tough even the police even the police had an unlisted number.

So tough the high school newspaper had an obituary section.

So tough you could receive a deliberate hit and run  on the pavement from a pedestrian.

So tough when you went to buy silk stockings, the shop assistant wanted to know your head size.

So tough anytime you put your hand in some wet cement you felt another hand.

So tough when a medico bought a therapeutic waterbed,he found a body at the bottom.

So tough every time you shut the window you hurt somebody’s fingers.

So tough the kids take hubcaps-from moving cars.

So tough in a good building, you got a doorman. He didn’t say ‘Good evening’, he said, ‘Good Luck.’

So tough In a bad building, you just got a man in a door.

So tough at Easter time the children had little porcupines instead of bunnies.

So tough if everyone was seen to be smiling at once, it must have been Halloween.

So tough paranoid people moved there for health reasons. It’s the only place where their fears were justified.

So tough if you needed to exit off the motorway for fuel there you’d say, ‘Damn it, I don’t need gasoline that badly.’’

So tough if you stopped at a motorway siding you’d be content to see the city through binoculars.

This all stood in stark contrast to Li’l Abner’s rural Dogpatch. In combatting crime Fosdick was himself responsible for astronomical collateral damage,

Making for twice as much reading fun,Li’l Abner bookended the offbeat Fosdick sequences as a narrative framing device. Abner himself serves as a rustic Greek chorus—to introduce, comment upon and sum up the Fosdick stories. Typically, a spun up Abner would race frantically to the mailbox or to the train delivering the morning newspapers, to get a glimpse of the latest cliffhanger episode. Every so often I would walk back from the newsagent reading about Lil Abner walking away with his latest copy, reading about Fearless Fosdick.I got two for the price of one.

Subsequent instalments of L’il Abner would reinforce his obsessive immersion in the unfolding Fosdick continuity while at the same time recapping the story-within-a-story. Oblivious to the surrounding ‘real’ world Abe would walk off a cliff or into the path of an oncoming train, or inadvertently ignore one of Daisy Mae’s perilous predicaments. Occasionally the gullible, bumbling and impossibly dense Fosdick’s adventures would directly affect what came down the pike to Abner, and the two storylines would artfully converge. The story-within-a-story often ironically paralleled and or parodied the story itself. Also, by having the comically obtuse Abner “explain” the strip to Daisy Mae, Capp would use Fearless Fosdick to self-reflexively comment upon his own strip, his readers, and the nature of comic strips and “fandom” in general, resulting in an absurd but overall structurally complex and layered satire.

I can now, after a fashion, walk along my risky city floor reading about me walking along the risky country streets of Gunnedah reading about L’il Abner walking along the risky country streets of Dogpatch reading about Fearless Fosdick walking along the risky streets of the city. A story-within-a-story-within a story. It remains for some literary critic to write about my writing to extend the layers.

Sparing no-one his merciless needle, Al targeted all kinds of mossbacks, radicals and liberals. Some sharply satirical episodes of Li’l Abner were censored in early strips.

While the details remain sketchy, his irreverent art stayed with me as I got older. With adult readers far outnumbering juveniles, Li’l Abner forever cleared away the concept that humour strips were solely the domain of adolescents and children. Li’l Abner provided a whole new template for contemporary satire and personal expression in comics, paving the way for MAD.

I would commend Al for the wealth of characters he created. I pointed out to him that many country cousins of his rustic folk lived in our part of the bush. Al thanked me for having taken the time to write to him so kindly.

Wishing me the best, he threw in a drawing of Li’l Abner and Daisy Mae in full stride on one of their humorous adventures.

The Busy Bookworm.

“Read well and you will write well”

Sir Max Mallowan.

An archaeologist is the best husband a woman can have; the older she gets, the more interested he is in her.

Agatha Christie on Sir Max Mallowan.

With an eye to learning and edification,and with strong jaws I wolfed down books, my mother’s milk, from the local library.I started with the Enid Blyton children’s books when I was little, moving through to the boys stories of wartime heroes and space adventures. By the time I entered secondary school I was one of the innumerable readers of the second most published author in the English; by the time I left I was tackling the leader of the pack. When reading Shakespeare’s works, a turnoff to many, it broke on me that along with owning books, reading was one of the greatest gifts we have. It takes us beyond ourselves.

Some of my mates missed out sadly on both counts. They couldn’t read well and never even knew we had a local library. It was kept quiet.

I encouraged one of my mates to find out about this vital resource. He rang up finally and asked Ms. Rixon: ‘Is that the local library?’

She said: ‘It depends where you’re calling from.’

When he eventually fronted up to her desk, he said, ‘I’d like to join.’

She said, ‘You have to prove you’re a citizen of this area.’

So he quoted aloud the words of the local poet, ‘I love a sunburnt country, her pitiless blue sky,’ all the while baring his chest all red, blistered and raw.

She issued him with a card immediately.

‘Now what would you like to read ?’she asked him, ‘and why?’

‘I’ve got some penfriends overseas. I’d like to be able to write good letters about what’s going on here.’

‘Why don’t you read ‘Jane Austen’s Letters’. She writes about everday life, about things around her in England: the weather, health, clothes, social engagements including gossip.’

‘I could write letters about our local people and what they get up to. But would she read any of mine ?’

She asked him, ‘Would you like a book mark?’

‘Ms Rixon you just issued me with a library membership card. You should remember  my name is Barry.’

My mother was an avid reader of Agatha Christies mystery novels. I chose her books while I got my own and would plough through them all, exhausting the supply. I kept the town librarian, Beth Rixon on her toes stamping them with their due date.

‘Outside of a dog,’she liked to say, ‘ a book is man’s best friend.’

‘Inside of a dog,’ I hastened to point out, ‘it’s too dark to read.’

I was a great one for borrowing books in the morning and returning them in the evening which flummoxed Mrs. Rixon. ’This is against the rules, Allan,’ she pointed out to me, turning a blind eye to this ludicrous restriction.

My familiarity with the ideas in these books and the experience of their author made me percipient of the thinking of my mother for whom they were a staple. I told Ms. Christie I appreciated her craftsmanship, spinning delicate webs of deception and mistruths in an effort to dissemble the real deal behind the façade. I told her that my mother and I had fun following the cleverly plotted and ingenious solutions that would never fail to surprise us. ‘Who knows?’ I asked myself, ‘maybe one day I too will write such mysteries’.

Indeed I would write a short one and it is part of this saga. Titled ‘A Case of Mistaken Identity’, the main character is my mother herself. The mystery is that surrounding her fate and the behaviour leading up to it.. Reading further will supply you with the clues necessary for solving it.

I asked Ms. Christie to give my regards to her husband, the eminent archaeologist Six Max Mallowan whose digs she had accompanied him on. These provided background for some of her novels. Both stimulated my interest in lost civilizations and those who seek to discover them. Ms. Christie expressed her good wishes to me.

Her classic crime fiction is considered to be a leading example of the cozy or cosy style, a title which says a lot. While the subject is more often than not murder, it invariably takes place in a context that would be considered familiar, non threatening and not likely to bring significant unpleasantness to readers or to the other characters in the story. It starts with perfect order in which everyone fits securely into his or her place until a slight case of murder disrupts that order and reveals unexpected connections between the characters. Usually focused on member of a closed group, often in a country house village or European train, these become suspects in a generally bloodless and neat murder. The case is cracked wide open by an amateurish but astute detective or shrewd spinsterly sticky beak doggedly sniffing out clues-footprints, fingerprints on teacups, secret doors and the like. The characters often reflect refined personal habit – Oxford dons, threadbare aristocrats supported by down in the mouth butlers, grooms, footmen, servers and gruff ruddy constables from the village. As with most good detective fiction, the puzzle seems impossible to solve until the last chapter when everything’s made transparently clear. The happy endings are usually preceded by confrontation induced confessions and erudite unravelling with a minimal acknowledgement of the social or factual aspects of the crime. Much of the deduction and logic used is to explain who is behind the corpse rather than the mind bending psychological factors that compelled the killer thus.

Murder investigations were much simpler back before the advent of DNA analysis.Our gruff village bobby might report to Miss Marple like this, ‘We’ve found a pool of the killer’s blood in the garage.’And she would be like, ‘Oh how horrible.Mop it up.Now then,back to my hunch.I’ll keep looking for clues.I’ll tell you what we’ll do.We’ll draw chalk around the body is.That way we’ll know where it was.’

I came up with an alternative to the standard mystery formula: ‘The Butler Didn’t Do It.’ After the lord of the manor is found bludgeoned to death with a silver platter, the one armed chief manservant is quickly ruled out as a suspect. Upon observation of his working motions, Ms. Marple determined Jeeves could take it, but he couldn’t dish it out.

The Bleeding Heart.

If you want to find an earlier parallel to the modern contemporary murder mystery, the closest similarity is the four Gospels, especially the first three, the synoptic Gospels. People are intrigued about the sudden termination of life because it says something about what life is about. Agatha’s stories are about the death of an innocent person. The Gospels are about the death of an innocent man and what it means. These kinds of narrative speak to us about our mortality.

The mystery that engrossed my mind the most was that surrounding the ritual killing of Jesus as interpreted by the Roman Catholic Church. While other children pondered the mystery of a giant bunny rabbit delivering chocolate eggs in the middle of the night, my beatific meditation was on the suffering and insults Jesus endured, shaped by the powerful visual narrative set out in the stations of the cross. These graphic scenes following his footsteps, stretched around the church, guiding my spiritual pilgrimage of prayer. I resolved to learn to speak in divers tongues.

My parents were both Catholics and the Church played a central role in my formative years. As a tyke, lining up at the altar rails, I was very moved by the image of the sacred heart of Jesus – a flaming bleeding heart encircled by a crown of thorns. A simple, credulous woman, my mother was ready to lap up any homilies dished out by the prelates. My father’s Catholicism was tribal, more secular, rooted in good works rather than dogma or pomp and circumstance. He didn’t flagellate himself or prostrate himself at the altar. Tempering his spiritual belief with a healthy dose of scepticism, he resembled so many Catholic men returned home after World War II. It was the war that sent away a generation of rich men and poor men and sent them back just men. Men that bled, men who shattered into a thousand pieces under fire, men who loved and felt fear and wanted better. While maintaining in varying degrees their ties with this almighty body with its allusion to saints, its penchant for sacrifice and its medieval views of the human condition, these Catholics in name had misgivings about the church’s restrictive social and sexual moves. They were deist in a airy fairy way, faintly Catholic in their outlook and ideas, not too much so.

I once asked him what happens after we die. He told me we get buried under a pile of dirt and worms eat our bodies. He could have re-inforced what the Church led me to believe at the time – that if you make one false move you will go to hell and burn eternally – but he didn’t want to upset me.

I wore my ‘heart’ not on my sleeve but under my shirt. Strung around my neck was my scapular, a religious emblem with a cloth badge illustrating the agony of Jesus. This symbolized Christ’s suffering and love for humanity.

In the Eyes of the Church.

Whilst a preteen parishioner, early at the rails, I always swung a ringside seat.

As an altar boy I was quite zealous in my service. I was given that old time religion. All day long I’d biddy-biddy-bum. Down on my knees, I’d fiddle with my rosaries, bow my head with great respect, and genuflect, reflect, expect. I’d get in line in the long processional, step into that small confessional, find out if my sin was original. Kyrie eleison, I’d play it safer, bow down more to receive the wafer. Two, four, six, eight, it was time to transubstantiate.

Reading through the New Testament Gospels, I realised how often fish are talked about. I concluded the Jesus fish is a symbol of hope.

I always felt sorry for Jesus because no matter what he did he could never live up to his father.

In an aura of incense, stained glass and theatre, a culture of symbolism and imagery, I was right up front in all the action, serving devoutly both in the local church and in the chapel of the Sisters of Mercy. Assisting the men of the cloth discharge their ecclesiastical office with bells and smells gave me first hand knowledge of these celibate shavelings and the almighty institution they served.

While serving one cold early morning mass, I slipped and dropped the wine cruet. The sound of the bulb-shaped container bouncing across the hard marble surface echoed off the high walls and arched ceilings. Expecting a stern tongue lashing, I braced for punishment. But Monsignor Leahy the gruff, stern local priest was thoughtful instead. One mass in the vestry after taking off his chasuble,he told me, ‘Allan, Don’t be concerned. Such mishaps can happen to the best of us. The same thing happened to Bishop Fulton Sheen when he was an altar boy. He served in that capacity as well as working in his father’s store. Just like you. Do you want to become a shopkeeper like your father when you finish school?’

‘Dad would like me to go to university.’

“Tell your father that I said when you get big you might go to St. Patrick’s Seminary at Manly and someday you will be just as I am.’

That meant someone shrewd,quick thinking and terse.The story went that he received the following phone call from the Australian taxation department..

‘Hello, is this Monsignor Leahy?’

‘It is.’

‘This is Robert Pritchard from the Commonwealth Taxation Office. Would you help us in an inquiry of ours?’

‘I would.”

‘Do you know a James Kelly?’

‘I do.”

‘Is he a member of your congregation?’

‘He is.’

 “Did he donate $10,000 to your church?”

‘He will.’

In the chapel attached to the convent, I assisted a string of priests who must have come out of the ark, too feeble to say the mass impressively in the parish church. Their idea of a good sermon was to have a good beginning and a good ending, then having the two as close together as possible.

One of these, lean, goggle-eyed and cadaverous, said to me ‘We must ritualise both the quick and the dead. Which ceremony do you like best?’

“Weddings”, I replied straight off, savouring the thought of iced cake and scads of other goodies, on top of the festive atmosphere of the occasion. They were especially enjoyable after the self denial of Lent for which one year I gave up abstinence.

I learned that ‘ best’ man was a misnomer as at first it was him I had expected to win the woman’s hand.

‘What about you Father? I asked,‘Which one does the Lord make you truly more grateful?’ My gut feeling was that his was the same as mine more than the lofty one he had come up with.

‘I prefer funerals to weddings,’ croaked the ancient cleric.

‘Why so, Father?’

‘It’s easier to get enthusiastic about a ceremony one has an outside chance of eventually being involved in.’

‘There’s more goodies here than at the Last Supper,’ I said at one reception. ‘For what we are about to receive, may the Lord make us truly grateful.

I often wondered why none of the disciples sat on the other side of the table. I reckoned that originally there were people sitting on the other side but those were the people going, “You know, there’s a strong draft from Mount Zion hitting me right on the back on the neck.’

I observed the appropriate emotions accompanying each ceremony.

I learned why it is that we rejoice at a nuptial and cry at a funeral. It is because we are not the person involved.

At the funeral of one of the local wealthy graziers, a man was crying inconsolably as if his heart was shattered.‘Now cracks a noble heart,’he declared while sobbing, ‘ Goodnight, sweet prince,and flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.’

‘I see how difficult this is for you,’ said Monsignor Leahy. ‘Were you closely related to the deceased?’

‘No, he said, choking back a sob.‘ I wasn’t related at all!’

‘But then why do you weep?’

‘That’s why!’

I was always relieved when the priest was delivering the eulogy and I realized I was listening to it.

The ancient cleric wasn’t too involved when he was commending one soul to the Lord. It was an appropriately funereal day, the wind was blowing hard, rain pelting the black crowd of umbrellas and everyone wanting to get it over with. I swear while watching the coffin being lowered into the ground I could hear the priest saying, ‘In the name of the father and the sun and into the hole he goes.’

‘Now your dear husband can get that final rest he always said he needed,’ he said  to the widow  to console her after the service.’

‘He needed a new car.He needed a heater in our bedroom,’ she replied, ‘A burial plot is the last thing he needed.’

We were in the car once with a load of slow moving cars in front of us. The cleric cried, ‘How is it possible people are driving so slowly. Even if you were out for a Sunday drive, you’d be faster than this. Driving like that requires genuine mental effort. They must be doing it on purpose just to get on our goat.’ He got very ropeable and started shouting.

‘Hush Father,’ I said, ‘you’re ruining the funeral procession.’

After the sad ceremony I asked  Colin Sills , “When you’re in your coffin, and your friends and church members are mourning over you, what would you like them to say?”

Colin said, “I would like them to say, ‘Colin was some kind of wonderful  Rugby League player,  a kind person who made a huge difference in people’s lives.”

‘What about you,Allan?

‘I’d like them to say, ‘Listen, can you hear that knocking?!’

At one wedding we officiated at, a bubbly old hen poked a nubile neighbour and said teasingly, ‘You’re next.’

She didn’t like it when the young woman returned the comment some time later. They were both attending the same funeral.

At one shotgun wedding, a case of wife or death, this priest disapproved of the groom drinking so heartily. ‘My wishes for a healthy family’, he went up and said to him.’ I hope there’s nothing in heredity.’

‘Marriage is a most sacred ceremony,’ he declared to me ponderously. Protestants can wriggle out of it without compunction. For them anything goes. Wishy-washy versions of what the Lord expects.

Those supermarket Protestants can choose from the shelf what’s convenient, what’s easy, what suits them, what’s within arm’s reach, and leave the rest. They call themselves believers yet embrace a disposable God. Consequently, too many are mispronounced man and wife. The Archbishop of Canterbury adds an escape clause for those wishing to remarry. He says it is their private responsibility, and if they seek marriage, it must be by a civil ceremony without trying to involve the Church in the act.

Monsignor Leahy told me you’ve read about Pearl Buck. He didn’t want to tell you but that fallen woman spells trouble for Christianity and the family. This whore of Babylon is in cahoots with that cancerous sore, that Communist Robeson. She once told a large gathering of Presbyterians that missionaries do more harm than good. Can you believe her own father was a missionary himself? So much for the absurd idea that priests should be able to marry. What’s the world coming to?’

‘God only knows, Father ‘,I replied, nonplussed, thinking of such mind-benders as the Creation, making the world in seven days. Seven was the magic number so in accordance with the mystic rules of life we got seven seals, a lamb with seven horns and seven eyes, seven days of the week, a dance of the seven veils, seven deadly sins, seven seas and seven brides for seven brothers.

We almost got the Seven Commandments except for Moses,he who had the Red Sea parted, holding out for a better bargain:

‘These are great, God. How much are they?’

‘They’re free.’

‘I’ll take 10. That’s all I can carry due to my arthritis.’

We got Feeding the Multitude- thousands of people dining on seven loaves of bread and fish, requiring enormous skills in preparing tapas. I had fancied my own chapter of the seven seals: seven samurai eating tapas out of seven bowls to the sound of seven trumpets.

We almost got the Seven Commandments except for Moses holding out for a better bargain:

‘These are great, God. How much are they?’

‘They’re free.’

‘I’ll take 10. That’s all I can carry due to my arthritis.’

We got the Virgin Birth-test tube babies were not yet possible, the Ascension- what some less reverent call ‘ Jesus moving back in with his parents, ’and Transubstantiation, changing bread and wine into a man’s body and blood without the need for any digestive tract.We got the Trinity-the three in one,the triple treat.

‘People have all kinds of absurd ideas these days. They believe in the Abominable Snowman and the Loch Ness Monster. They believe that four-leaf clovers, horseshoes, copper bracelets, tooth fairies, wishing wells and rabbit foots will bring them good. They believe in fairies at the bottom of the garden. ’

‘ As for Mrs Buck or whatever she calls herself nowadays she should know that God created women from the rib of Adam, that her ordained role is as homemaker and mother to her children.

Rumour has it she and her new husband might turn to a surrogate mother to bear their baby. The Church forbids this practice.’

‘It’s a good thing they didn’t have that rule when Jesus was born.’ I thought.

‘I’m told she wrote a book about a female sculptor who chooses a career over her husband. She should hang her head in shame. She has no respect for the sanctity of marriage herself and has trampled on it, choosing to shamelessly remarry the very day her divorce papers came through. She must think husbands are like Kleenex tissues, soft and disposable. I hear she even bought a drip-dry wedding dress. What does she think monogamy is- a type of wood?

‘Maybe,’ I thought to myself, ‘ for many it sounds too much like monotony. If ‘I am’ is reportedly the shortest sentence in the English language, could it be for that demographic ‘I do’ is the longest sentence?

‘How can she ever live this down? It’s contrary to the Scriptures.. For us in the true church, we cross our hearts and hope to die. Marriage is an iron-clad contract you can’t just break at will. It was ordained for the procreation of children to be brought up in the fear and nurture of the Lord, and to the praise of His holy name. Marriage is made in heaven.’

‘So are thunder and lightning,’ I thought.

The Church cannot make exceptions in its public solemnization of marriage without compro­mis­ing its witness. Woe betide those who sin by such erotic vagrancy, yearning to satisfy their carnal iusts and appetite like brute beasts that have no understanding,” he whined on, bending my ear, thus implicating one of my esteemed aunts who he would have considered had transgressed in this way. “Those who knowingly violate this law of the Church are thereby ineligible to receive the sacraments including the Holy Communion we share,” he pontificated. They are committing mortal sin. If they die with this on their soul they will go straight to hell, denied the sight of god for all eternity.’

‘Eternity’s a terrible thought… I mean, where’s it all going to end?’

‘That is decided on Judgement Day. If a person is found to believe in Christ they will go to everlasting bliss with those who reject Christ going to everlasting condemnation, never to see their heavenly father. ’You wouldn’t that, would you’.

“Not by the hair on my chinny-chin-chin. What can one do to avoid such a penalty, Father?” I asked. “The couple must seek a dispensation through the Sacred Rota, the church’s supreme court. Only it can decide on such matters. Only it can issue an annulment. If they walk away from this ruling they risk being excommunicated”, he concluded his jeremiad with.

Sweet Jesus, the idea of my aunt being subjected to such mumbo-jumbo led me to hold such an archaic procedure in derision. How in the name of reason can it be sinful for a man or woman to live with the one they love? People should be free to marry whoever they want and call it quits whenever it’s on the rocks. They should be honest and come clean. Instead of standing in front of an altar saying ‘Til death do us part,’ they should just go, ‘I’ll give it a shot.’ How on God’s green earth can anyone else – especially someone who’s never been married – demand a relationship driven by messy incompatibility be maintained at all costs. It was one thing for a man or woman to resist an aspiring partner’s advances. It was another to block their retreat.

As for the annulments these struck me as being economical with the truth somewhat, as akin to the sale of indulgences, with similar effect. They allowed Catholics who had once gone and got married in good faith to claim that they hadn’t done so, to gainsay these marriages – despite their vows and often the existence of children – rather than admit their error without cutting the hem off truth’s garment, and make a clean break.

Curious to know how the Church was going to stop people leaving, ’I asked the priest” ‘How can the Church convince people to follow its rulings?’

‘It’s simple. We need a government like that in Spain to set the lead. To enforce our laws’, he declared, full of fire and brimstone. ‘Not Communist manifestos. We need to remove these cancerous sores from God’s sight.’

The priests and nuns had a very dim view of the Communists. In primary school The Sisters of Mercy gave us comic books depicting them as sinister figures skulking in the shadows.

‘We have to have a firm hold on what people can read, see and do. Women used to respect themselves. Now brazen hussies flaunt their ankles and bosoms shamelessly in the street. They smoke, wear pants and get knocked up. The Church has a duty to protect the vulnerable from this fascination with the materialist. This so called rock and roll that inflames the passions with its pelvic thrusts, leg sliding and debased body grappling. So many occasions of sin multiplied beyond our imagination. We live in this world, not of it. We need Catholic rules, not Rafferty’s rules, to clean up the cesspit people are exposed to.’It’s God’s will.’

‘And you’re doing your best to back  up your vindictive version of him,’I thought.

‘Like Franco we have banned the outrageous film ‘Viridiana’. The Holy See supports us  It has denounced it as ‘blasphemous.’

‘So there’s a superior being,’I thought,someone who can make the mountains, the oceans and the skies, but who still gets upset about something someone said. He’s an all-powerful being, would he have such self-esteem issues?’

If God doesn’t destroy the studio responsible, he owes Sodom and Gomorrah an apology,’the cleric rambled on.

‘The film’s distributors should pay for an exorcist,’ I suggested. ‘That way they won’t get repossessed.’

It’s got a “Last Supper” scene featuring crude, ruthless stumblebums in place of Jesus and the apostles. What sacrilege!’

This didn’t fit in with a biblical admonition I had read: “But when you give a banquet, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be blessed.” (Luke 14:13. It didn’t fit in with the view of St. Lawrence that such persons were the treasures of the Church. Our Lord and Saviour always wore sandals and he never married. And he had twelve disciples and I don`t think any of them ever married. And the apostle Paul, he was a Iifelong bachelor. And you never heard anybody in the New Testament say that they was a bunch of ‘poofs’.

I wanted to take the priest on over what I felt was a departure from christian values, but being young and inexperienced I bit my tongue.

I settled for asking him what he thought of the changes being brought about by Vatican 11.

‘These changes are shaking our faith.Members of our congregation are settling for shallow convictions.In some places they are turning the altar around to be closer to the people.Pop music is making it’s way into churches.They are switching from Latin to the vernacular.Like with the Protestants,things are becoming more secular.’

The old priest was a chain smoker,sometimes in the habit of smoking several cigarettes in succession,using the ember of a finished one to light the next. One morning after he had officiated one of the elderly mentally confused nuns saw white smoke billowing from out of the sacristy. ‘We must have a new pope!’she called out.

This priest spent an increasing amount of time reading the bible while puffing away. The way I saw it he was cramming for his final exam.

Before he left for good, I bid him adieu. ‘I’ll be sorry to see you go, Father. I didn’t know what sin was until you came.’

These control freaks were All At See. This wasn’t how the Jesus I had in mind thought of the lowliest-those he called his brothers and sisters. True, some frowsy tramps on the turps I had encountered were not fun people to be with the closer you edged up to them. B.O. Plenty, named after the Dick Tracy character, who humped his bluey, sleeping under Cohen’s bridge in Gunnedah came to my nostrils. His breath could kill a fly at fifty feet. The story went he once looked at the sign ‘Cleaning and Dyeing above the dry cleaners and commented ‘I always knew these things went together.’ However, I didn’t see ending up in this condition as simply down to them. The biblical accounts I had read of ‘The Bread of Life’ depicted him time after time reaching out with compassion to those at the bottom of the social pyramid—the necessitous, the helpless, women, Samaritans, lepers, children, prostitutes, tax collectors and all kinds of social outcasts.

Had the priest had forgotten what we had been told about Jesus’s sayings. That the last shall be first and the first shall be last. That we must feed the hungry and clothe the poor. That it is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven.

I knew for a fact even outcasts can place their hope in the Almighty even if they’ve fallen from a state of innocence.

B.O.Plenty bought a few bottles of the fermented forbidden fruit from our store one day and put them in a bag, But then he realized that if he fell over, the bottles were going to break and the cider would be gone. So he decided not to risk it and  drank the whole bottles right then outside our store.

Having noticed he was a bit wobbly,I asked him when he came next if he would have been better refraining from drinking it until he got made  back to his camp safely.

‘Thank God I had it while I could because I fell over six times on the way home.’

 Feeling the wrath of grapes, B.O.  shuffled into our store another day to buy a small bottle of red wine. While he was fumbling for his coins, I said to him, ‘It’s not my business but you shouldn’t drink so much. Don’t be ashamed to talk about it. Don’t you think that red ned’ll bring you down as you age?’

‘Wine improves with age. I improve with wine.’

‘What do you have to thank for your drinking habit?’

He replied, ‘A woman drove me to drink and I didn’t even have the decency to thank her.’

After rifling through his pockets, he finally came up with the required amount of coins. Jack slid the bottle in his back pocket and started out the door, a little unsteadily I feared. Checking to see he was walking O.K., I saw him go just a short distance when he slipped and fell heavily astern. Struggling to his feet, he looked at the wine trickling down his leg, not yet sure what it was. ‘Please, God,’ he implored, ‘let it be blood!’

When the ambulance took him to Gunnedah District Hospital, he decided to play up his injuries to take advantage of a clean bed with a full meal service. On visiting him, unsure of his denomination, Monsignor Leahy asked him for the purpose of anointment, ‘Do you believe in the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost?’

‘What is this. Here I am dying, craving that sacramental wine and you choose to ask me riddles!’

I inspired visions in some of the clergy I might be ordained with a vocation, to give myself to a higher purpose, my life an ‘instrument’ for God’s will. Monsignor Leahy told me, ‘For the Israelites, God parted the sea. To Moses, he spoke from the burning bush. The Lord has spoken to me and he will speak to you. Allan, expect a sign and God’s wisdom will be proven to you too.

I became engrossed in Church history. I even wanted to become a Church historian until I realised there was no future in it.

At one altar boy’s picnic, I was assigned to rotating the various cuts on the gridiron.

And then there was a hideous wailing and gnashing of teeth. And the air was filled with smoke and flame.

Monsignor Leahy insisted the meat cook slowly for a long time. Too long to stay tender. ‘Oh no’, he cried as he realised his mistake, It’s as tough as old boots!’

As the dripping fat and bloody juices sizzled onto the coals underneath, Colin Sills, my fellow altar boy said to me: ‘Hey, Allan I’ve been thinking—’

‘I thought I smelled something burning.’

‘I’ve been thinking about who my favourite saint is. Who’s your, Al?

‘Nearest and dearest to my heart is St. Lawrence, patron of cooks, chefs and comedians.’

‘Well, If God created us in his own image and according to his likeness and is watching us all the time, he must expect us to serve him fine entertainment.’

‘As deacon in Rome, Lawrence was charged with the responsibility for the material goods of the church and the distribution of alms to the poor. I came across him when I was flipping through the missal to see the different saints’ feasts. Now that’s a saint if ever there was one. In one of their crackdowns, The Romans demanded he render to Caesar what was his. The lot. But there was nothing to give. Having gotten wind of their demands, Lawrence had sold the sacred vessels, golden candlesticks and other treasures and given the proceeds to the poor and needy. So the Romans put the heat on him. They “roasted” him alive ‘by inches’, little by little on a grill. To the faithful his burning flesh emitted a sweet, pleasant smell. To the unredeemed it was noxious. He kept his good humor to the end. So vehement of possessing Christ, he is said to have made his famous cheerful remark, “Turn me over. I’m done on this side.” Then after being turned, he declared ‘I am well baked. Whether better cooked or raw, make trial by a taste of me. Now if that isn’t chutzpah, I don’t know what is.’

‘Do we know if the prefect took him up on his offer? ’

Imbued with the spirit of St. Lawrence, I added my own postscript to the legend: ‘The prefect did make trial. After rolling a large bite around in his mouth, he said, “Umm, love them crispy Christians. You know, I’m converted. Until we barbecued this deacon, I just couldn’t seem to get a tender Christian. I’ve baked them, I’ve roasted them, I’ve stewed them. I’ve tried every sort of marinade.

The second prefect asked, “What kind of Christian have you used?”

The first said, “You know, the ones with those brown cloaks, a rope around the waist and a tonsured scalp.’

“Ah, well” the second prefect replied, “no wonder … those are friars!’

‘Now pass me your plate, Colin. Ready for some short ribs? Sausages? Divers tongue? Eye fillet? How would you like them? Rare, medium or well done?’

‘Ah, I think I’ll pass. I’ll settle for a cheese sandwich. I’m feeling a little unredeemed right now.’

I became interested in the different orders. It was my reading The Three Musketeers that sparked my interest in the Jesuits.

‘One of them, Aramis is a Jesuit novice’, I told a trio of my fellow altar boys. ‘He is preparing for his ordination to the priesthood.’

‘We’re just like the Four Musketeers, aren’t we?’ said Paul, one of our novice acolytes,

‘fighting duels with hairy ticks and overcoming confusion.’

‘Shouldn’t it be ‘The Three Musketeers?’

‘Four if you count D’Artagnan.’

‘Well, nobody knows how many there were, really, do they, Paul? After all, history’s a sketchbook. You do know that The Three Musketeers is a fiction, right? Written by Alexandre Dumas.’

‘A lot of people are saying that about the Bible these days.’

‘What, that it was written by Alexandre Dumas?

‘That’s a laugh, Allan. Everyone knows it was written by Jesus.’

I was interested in how the different orders treated heretics.

“Do the Jesuit and Dominican Orders have similarities? “I asked Monsignor Leahy, one of the parish priests renowned for his wit.

He replied, ‘Well, they were both founded by Spaniards — St. Dominic for the Dominicans, and St. Ignatius of Loyola for the Jesuits. They were also both founded to combat heresy — the Dominicans to fight the Albigensians, and the Jesuits to fight the Protestants.’

‘What is different about the Jesuit and Dominican Orders?’

‘Met any Albigensians lately?’

I was curious to find out more about this French religious sect exterminated for heresy during the Inquisition and other nonconformist groups. Gnostics, Manaechists, Arianists. All came under my microscope and I discussed them keenly with my fellow altar boys. So much so, it started to get on Tom Leahy’s nerves.

‘Sects!Sects!Sects!Is that all you boys can talk about,’he complained. What’s wrong with Rugby League?’’

I was led to the realization how institutions and their representatives can be less likely to be offended by a separate group with a separate name, holding views different from their own, than they are by a group claiming their own name holding different views. Rugby would always mean Union, never League. And League would mean much more than Rugby.

Monsignor Leahy suggested I might follow in the footsteps of Cardinal Spellman. ‘Like you, this humble, angelic boy with a humble wish to serve God, worked in his father’s grocery store and served at the altar. He shares your interest in archaeology. His Eminence is keenly interested in Church history and preservation of its sacred sites’, the Monsignor apprised me. ‘One of his pet projects involved the underground discoveries at the Basilica of Saints John and Paul, this holy of holies.’

During his long tenure in New York, The Cardinal had become known as ‘The American Pope’. He was military vicar general of US forces during World War II and would appreciate my thoughtful consideration in his regard for this service.

I didn’t know at the time, however, that he didn’t appreciate the gentleness and humility of John, the new Roman pontiff. This benign pope had a different agenda,renouncing the vain pomp,cant and glory of the world, favouring a spiritual revolution rather than temporal matters of politics. In his encyclical addressed to ‘all men of good will’ he instructed that every human being has the right to worship God in accordance with the right dictates of his own conscience and to profess his religion both in camera and in public. This was a repudiation of the Catholic strain of exceptionalism-the insistent cry by armies, crusaders and inquisitioners throughout history that the Mother Church was the one and only true religion. He taught that age-old animosities with Protestants must end, even when faced with anti-Catholic bigotry. His ‘Mater et Magistra Encyclical’ took Catholic social thought expressed in Pope Leo’s ‘Rerum Novarum’ and brought it up to date by suggesting that government had a moral duty to provide welfare, health and education services, services for the poor and handicapped, and that democracy was the best governmental form to effect such justice.

To mock Pope John’s wish to be seen as ‘pastor and mariner’ it is said Cardinal Spellman filled a boat with sheep and sailed it along The Tiber. Looking down his nose at him, he is said to have scoffed: “He’s no pope – he should be selling bananas”.

Then there were stories told of the Cardinal himself at his expense. One I would hear later from Russel Ward, tells how Archbishop Mannix of Melbourne had been lobbied at a conference in 1939 by the then American ambassador to Australia. Pope Pius 11 had just died and the U.S. State Department was working hard to have the ultra conservative Spellman elevated to the throne of St. Peter as the first American Vicar of Christ. In pursuit of this end the ambassador, Pete Jarman, spoke long and eloquently to the Archbishop who replied with only the occasional non-commital grunt. Mistaking reticence for assent, the ambassador finally said, ‘Of course, Your Eminence, there may be some difficulty in finding a suitable name for our man.’

‘Oh no, Your Excellency,’ replied the archbishop, ‘we could always call him Bolonius the First.’

I felt myself to be in the same boat as the kindly pope.

Unschooled in the byzantine ways of the Vatican power structure at the time-and even later- and the role in ecclesiastical intrigue played by God’s Field Marshal on Earth, I was just a kid helping my parents sell -amongst other things- lots of bananas. Growing quickly I knew a few things for sure. Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana. And I would learn that officiating in the Church doesn’t make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.

Approaching the age of reason, I would become painfully aware of the hardline conservatives in the church when I attended the local parochial schools.

The Holy Family.

As had the Kennedy brothers from Boston. Monsignor Leahy lionized their clan as the Catholic ideal. His admiration was understandable. They were a gift to the media, the raw stuff of legends, perfect grist to the image making mill. In a hormonal manner of speaking, I had my mind to sharing their vocation, joining women, not men in frocks. Like many I read myself into the lives of these handsome ambitious men and their glamorous wives, all in their prime, all polished, buffed and shining. This was an image of splendour and high calling, of succeeding in places once believed out of reach. The social register. This carefully nurtured image became firmly lodged in my mind.

‘Jack Kennedy’, the monsignor said proudly of the eldest son, ‘is tipped to be elected as the first Catholic to the American presidency. We pray a puff of cigar smoke from the White House will confirm this. This could break the stranglehold of power there that is heavily weighted against ‘left footers.’. He’s a good Catholic role model, from a family to which everyone might want to belong. As a layman in the American church their father Joseph is out of the box. His wife Rose is a saintly mother devoted to the care of their intellectually handicapped daughter” he said.

‘I’ve read about her, I replied. She spoke publicly about her profoundly retarded daughter. ‘She was encouraged by the example of Pearl Buck. Mrs Buck wrote about the same cross her own daughter had to bear. Praise be. Her book ‘The Child Who Never Grew’ led me to understand mental illness better.”

“Is that so?” replied the Monsignor, seemingly taken aback, “I didn’t know they had common cause.”

I wasn’t sure what to say so said an emphatic nothing.

‘Although Joseph Kennedy has made a pretty penny” he resumed,” he measures his success by the kind of family he has raised. They’re one big happy family – dedicated to each other as well as to the Church. They’ve given their nation and ours a sense of moving forward toward great things. They’ve brought to our life a culture, a refinement, a meaningfulness, that we have not known before. They have received the personal benison of the Pope and have always enjoyed the trust and close friendship of Cardinal Spellman.

‘I trust His Holiness received some holy venison,’ I said.

‘You’ll be interested to know that Joseph Kennedy has kept the digging at the basilica moving along. He has chucked in some generous amounts. Relics play a large part in the life of the Church, you know, Allan.’

‘Amen to that Monsignor, amen, ’I replied, the homily from the sanctimonious antiquity fresh in my mind.

I counted myself in this broad constituency of the great young white hope, wanting to mingle amongst the ‘in-crowd’-the blacktie artists, writers, scientists, glitterati and cognoscenti at the ritzy inaugural gala.On the other side of the purple rope, lightbulbs popping, lots of pizzaz. I too wanted to be elegant and sophisticated, with poetry on my tongue and a radiant woman all in white on my arm. I’d take her hand, kiss it and lead her on the floor.

The Woman in Black.

Nudging me along gently in this direction was the radiant lady sitting at my side after school. Dressed in black with ecclesiastical severity from the top of her head to the tip of her toes save for her white bib. My music teacher, Sister Aloysius. Not a widow but a bride of Christ.

With her hands in her sleeves she usually walked slowly,gracefully,never in a hurry,keeping her eyes down so as not to be distracted from the Lord.

She imagined herself flying up in the sky, next to Jesus, as Waldemar von Kozak would imagine.

‘The Catechism teaches that we nuns are mystically betrothed to Jesus Christ. In our actual marriage ceremony, we novitiates dress in white and make a public vow to the Church. After this we must consecrate ourselves to God “until death”.’

‘Why are Wedding Dresses white?’ I asked her.

‘Most people associate the color white with innocence and happiness.’

‘Not Maria’, I said, referring to the heroine in ‘West Side Story, which I had mentioned seeing. ‘She wasn’t happy about her white dress-and she worked in a bridal shop. Her communion dress was being altered into a gown for the big dance. When she tried on the plain white dress with a wide red belt, she complained: ‘White is for babies.’ However, after trying it on, she became ecstatic: “It is a beautiful dress!” What I neglected to add was that Maria had begged for the neckline to be lowered one more inch as she slightly pulled down on her own bodice: “How much can one little inch do?”.

Her name as hard to spell as the life she led, ruled by silences, bells and the metronome, Sister Aloysius combined that essential reserve, delicacy and understatement that is expected of a nun, with a vivaciousness and boundless enthusiasm for all things musical. ‘Music is a language everyone understands’, she told me, ‘Whatever you want to say best, say it with music.’

‘Beautiful music’, I added, as had Irving Berlin. Plink, plank, plunk, Mum played Irving’s songs at home of an evening when we gathered round the piano.

With her rallying benedictions Sister Aloysius worked on me, this so so soprano, to sing in the local eisteddford. She brought to me my first acquaintance with the distinctive, incisive colours of the church organ. She invited me to be her learning companion while she practiced it in the church. ‘It’s time you learned about the king of instruments. It’s ideally suited to accompany human voices.’

She used it to accompany the choirs, inspire the congregation in their singing, and generally to enhance the liturgy. ‘ It powerfully lifts up man’s mind to God and to higher thing’. First and foremost she taught me piano.

I found limb-hand independence, playing with my hands together, doing two separate things at once, extremely challenging.

Even when both parts were incredibly simple and I could sight read both lines mentally easily, I started playing and my hands just locked up.

‘You’ve mastered the important scales and learned the prominent chords with your right hand. On the other hand you have different fingers. To co-ordinate your hands, try and play something using the right hand, and slowly moving your other hand at the same time. Take your time, don’t rush it. And above all practise, practise, practise!

Make use of the metronome as you can practice coordination at different tempos.’

One of her favourite solo piano pieces was Prokoviev’s Romeo and Juliet based on his ballet score. She shared my infatuation with Shakespeare’s timeless tragedy, the tale of two ill-fated lovers thwarted by circumstances beyond their control. I told her more about my favourite re-telling, the musical ‘ West Side Story’, presenting her with a vinyl record of the movie soundtrack. It’s iconic red and black cover depicted apartment block fire escapes in New York.

‘One of these takes the place of the famous balcony in Shakespeare’s drama’, I said. ’The outlines you can see are Tony and Maria, the star-crossed lovers, in dancing pose, declaring their love for one another. I hope some-day you’ll be able to see this masterpiece. It’s a true marriage of drama, opera and ballet. Saints alive, it’s got everything- sheer visual excitement, a score heavy with jazz and Latin-American rhythms, music that pulses and soars, superb ballads, restless, dizzying dance steps, bodies high-stepping, leaping, tumbling, rumbling, spinning, flying wildly through space, flickknife fighters chest-puffing, fist-clenching, chin pointing jeering and snorting, crouching slithering and springing. It’s a a feast for the eye, the ear and, ultimately, the heart.’

‘What’s it all about, Allan?’

‘This powerful real life tale uses the street-smart slang of teenagers, skillfully updating Shakespeare’s plot intricacies. It’s set in the plug ugly tenement slums of today’s ‘Big Apple’. The ill fated lovers struggle to exist together in a concrete jungle of violence, hate and prejudice. The theme of love defeated is widened to that of society rent asunder.

‘Who are the main characters?’

‘Tony, a Jet. and Maria, a Shark, find themselves caught between not rival families but rival street gangs of different ethnic backgrounds. The native born are the ‘Jets’ and the Puerto Ricans are the Sharks, the sons of less recent immigrants. In a fight to the death over who will control the neighborhood, the Jets, the “American” hoodlums, want to resist newcomers setting foot in their territory.’

‘Our Sisters in New York write about this savage brawling,’ said Sister Aloysius. ‘Some of the bigger ruffian schoolboys give them the collywobbles. Knife fights are a fact of life in their diosceses. A young punk pulled a knife on one of the Sisters recently.’

‘She must have been terrified.’

‘She stayed calm. She could tell he was new to the game. The knife had butter on it.’

‘The musical is relevant then,’ I said. ‘It makes points in its description of the hell to pay when youth are devastated by poverty. It deals with social problems, particularly those faced by immigrants, grappling with the difficulties of assimilating into a different society. They have mixed feelings about their new country, alternately excited or with their heart in their mouth. In ‘America’, its praises are sung to the skies. But the streets are not paved with gold. The land of opportunity is also one of racism and discrimination.’ ‘By all that’s holy, it sounds very heart-breaking ’, said the nun, after she had listened to the album, ‘and also very instructive artistically. The tension and suspense are reflected in musical terms. Bernstein displays a motif prominently throughout the entire musical, a common musical device called the tritone -also known as the augmented fourth, or diminished fifth. You can hear it in the reiterated word, ‘Maria’, in the song. Try singing it.’

Breathing in deeply, I sang the three syllables:“Ma-ri-a: I’ve just seen a girl named…’’

‘It’s hard, isn’t it. It plays on so many rhythms, almost on just that name. Three notes pervade the whole piece and in the overture and all of the fight music -“The Rumble”. It comes out in ‘Cool’ and as the gang whistle -in “Prologue”. The same three notes. The interval is dissonant, It sounds jarring, restless, unsettled and creates musical tension. It’s something that yearns to be resolved into the next note. It’s also quite exciting. By embracing the musical disunity created by the tritone, Bernstein provides a musical representation of how Tony, Maria and the opposing gangs feel.

‘It triggers off all kinds of feelings, I said.’

‘As God is my witness, music has a powerful subconscious effect,’ she replied. ‘Certain notes can stir certain internal reactions within the listener they may not even be aware of. Today the tritone is used in films and theatre to suggest an “oppressive”, “scary”, or “evil” sound. It used to be nicknamed ‘The Devil’s Interval’ hundreds of years ago. Some considered it most “dangerous”, being associated with sinister things, mainly Beelzebub. In medieval theology you had to have some way of presenting Satan. Or if someone in the Church wanted to portray the crucifixion, it would be sometimes used there. The Church didn’t regard it in accordance with canonical rules. It discouraged use of this particular dissonance. It was seen as wrong when it came up in choruses of nuns and their ascetic brothers.’

‘Felonious monks.’

‘Especially when their sounds were heard as melodious thunks.If I had been teaching you then, I would have told you that it simply doesn’t work technically and was to be avoided like the plague. There were stringent musical rules.’

‘More honoured in the breach than in the observance, I daresay..What would have happened if you had broken these rules?’I asked.

‘There were rules for getting around it. Church history is full of compromises. There’s a lot of them happening now. Pope John is bringing us up to date. Some say that singers were cast out, bell, book and candle, or otherwise the Church came down on them for invoking this interval. This notion is likely fanciful. The tritone is just another color in the musical palette. You can’t ban it. It’s a natural and expected component of our music.’

“Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!”- Psalm 150:6.

One day Sister Aloysius led me up the stairs at the rear of St. Joseph’s to the gallery and approached the organ console.

‘As with the tritone the organ has occasioned some misgivings in the eyes of the Church. The sound generated by the hydraulis- the first recognizable ancestor of the organ- was thought to be so terrifying that it was used at the ancient Roman circuses. At that time these were more of a horror show than family entertainment. A strong objection to the organ in worship remained pretty general down to the twelfth century.

‘Why was that?’I asked.

‘It’s partly accounted for by the imperfection of tone in organs of that time. But from the twelfth century on, the organ became the privileged church instrument. The majesty and unimpassioned character of its tone made it a particularly suitable means for adding solemnity to Divine worship. Evolving over time It eventually worked its way into mainstream liturgical use. It hasn’t lost prominence.’

‘Sister, I read in The Catholic Weekly that Cardinal Spellman says the pipe organ is a treasure of inestimable value. He says it adds a wonderful splendour to the Church’s ceremonies. He’s raising funds for a new one.’

‘Whereabouts?’ she asked”.

‘It’s for the the Basilica of the National Shrine of the Immaculate Conception in Washington. One that will be a resounding memorial to the many deceased chaplains and members of the armed forces.’

‘What a fitting way to show this. Let me show you our’s resounding range of timbre,’ she said.

Sitting herself down, squaring up over the keyboard, she put her feet on the pedals, cracked her knuckles and began coaxing the organ to life. Slowly increasing in volume until a discernible melody breathed through a fluid amalgam of tones and harmonies.

‘Holy smoke’, I thought, She’s having a go at ‘Maria.’

‘Listen to it piano,’she said, ‘just whispering: ‘Say it soft and it’s almost like praying.’ Pulling out all the stops, she continued to magnify the intensity of sound and, after several minutes, was pumping like crazy. Now listen to it fortissimo:’ ‘Say it loud and there’s music playing.’ Timbre! ‘Maria’ thundered throughout the hallowed space, filling the church with sounds of worship and praise.

I’ll never forget the thrill of those tricky tritones. As I recall they gave me goosebumps and set my heart beating. Sister’s playing could only be described as magnificent, the registrations dramatic. I found it devilishly hard resisting my eagerness to sing. Between stanzas of the song, Sister Aloysius played it by ear with the skill and artistry for which she was noted. The sound effect, the very best ‘cos the church was empty, was all that I had imagined and more besides. I was in awe until I noticed that it we had some company. Monsignor Leahy, open mouthed, was gazing up at us from the sacristy. What was going on in his mind? After Sister packed up playing, he started walking along the aisle, to the staircase. O dear, was he unnerved, coming to register his displeasure?

‘What is that you’re playing, Sister?’, he asked, as he climbed up to join us in the loft. I’ve never heard anything quite like this before in our church.’

‘ It’s ‘ Maria’, Father. Do you like it?’

‘Bless my soul, I don’t like it, Sister. Hallelujah, I love it!’ he said, his eyes sparkling. ‘You must have a direct line. It’s sublime. It transcends the merely human sphere. It evokes the divine. It’s musical testimony to the composer’s obvious devotion to the Blessed Virgin.’

When he left, I confided my fear to Sister about how this secular piece composed by a worldly New York Jew might have gone down with him. ‘I thought he might have found it unfit, unpleasing, wanting to stick to the traditional hymns.’

‘Allan, you needn’t have worried. This majestic instrument is exactly that- an instrument and its uses are only restricted by the imagination of the organist who plays it. It follows, therefore, that an organ may be used to render traditional or contemporary styles of church music as they may be required. It gives resonance to the fullness of human sentiments, from joy to dejection, from praise to lamentation. It is capable of echoing and expressing all the experiences of human life. According to present canonical legislation organ music is allowed on all joyful occasions. Other than for celebrating our love of the lord, what could be more joyful than celebrating the love of a man for a woman. And might I add your newfound love for this instrument, superior to all others. What could be more becoming for playing in the Church than ‘Maria’?’

‘Would you go to see West Side Story if asked, Sister?’, I asked her later.

‘I wouldn’t say no’, she said. ‘One day. It’s subject is not for the fainthearted-it is a tragedy after all- but-and I’m not placing them on the same level- like that of the death of Christ, what it draws out of it is beautiful. For all its sadness West Side Story ends on a positive note— with the idea that out of the vale of tears a better society can be created in which different groups can live together.’

The Altar Boys Picnic.

The annual altar boys outing was the occasion on which the priests thanked us for our services with a splash at the local swimming hole followed by an outdoor spread and barbeque. One in particular presented me with an opportune moment to find out more about the Church’s views on the political hot potato.

‘Monsignor Leahy, I see many articles in the Catholic Weekly that paint a diabolical picture of Communism. Some in the church see it as the devil incarnate.’

‘Of all the animals God created, the serpent was the most tricky and deceitful. Snakes and serpents take many disguises. Lucifer doesn’t necessarily stink of sulphur, have horns and a pointed tail. He may wear a fine red shirt and sing about brotherhood. But his horrible goals are still the same.’

‘Monsignor, I read in the ‘News Weekly’ the Communists are planning to take over the world. Is that true?’

‘News Weekly’ was the Catholic newssheet which was available at parish churches after Sunday Mass.

‘Santamaria believes the advance of Communist world conquest through Asia has been planned along the axis of a line drawn from Moscow to Sydney. This line passes through China, Indo-China, Indonesia and New Guinea to Australia.’

‘At school the Sisters have given us comics. They show the Communists as sinister figures skulking in the shadows. They say they worship the anti-Christ and his false idols. What is it between the Church and the Communists?’

‘We are at loggerheads with Communism, Allan. We don’t go along with it for its pagan ideas and we fear what they have done to the Church. Communists don’t believe in the soul, in the afterlife. They don’t believe in the Trinity or the Virgin Birth. They believe that man is a physical being and nothing else. They have put the God-Man in place of the Man-God.’

‘What have they actually done to the Church? I asked.

‘Let’s look at their record. In the 20’s priests disappeared in the gulags to the sorrow of the faithful. In the 30’s mobs looted convents and seminaries in Spain. Religious properties were torched and desecrated while crowds looked on and cheered. Archbishop Duhig feared that the Republican measures were part of a universal pattern. He said: ‘Yesterday it was Russia and Mexico; today it is Spain. Tomorrow it may be Britain, and the day after, Australia.’

‘Monsignor’, I said, ‘Don’t you think some of this trembling fear led to unnecessary alarm. To some real howlers. I’ve been reading some old back copies of The Catholic Weekly’ from the presbytery shed. In two September 1942 issues Cardinal Gilroy said that the communists-our allies- were gearing up for “armed insurrection” in Australia. Archbishop Mannix called Mussolini-our enemy- the greatest man living today” in 1943. Cardinal Duhig glowingly described him as ‘like Napoleon with few, if any, of his faults’. Mussolini who we know was butchering so many people. How could Catholic spokesmen parrot such alibis. Some might say these statements, sowing doubts and confusion, bordered on apostasy and disloyalty’, I commented. How do we explain this blot on their conduct?’, I asked.

‘Allan, none of them seriously went along with fascism.’

‘No, of course not. None of them ever did,’ I said, only too aware of Pope Pius’ notorious failure to condemn the Nazi regime and the deals he made with them. ‘I don’t know how those rumours ever got started.’

‘The thing is they were scatty and simply got carried away. To understand the position they got into, you have to understand their background. They inherited a deep mistrust of the British Empire and felt impelled to speak up for the Italian flock in the fight against Communism. This fight hasn’t stopped. The Communists haven’t made it easy. To be a priest serving in Eastern Europe today’, he said, reaching to the hamper for a sandwich, “is no picnic. Heavens preserve us, the Communists have commited a multitude of sins in these captive nations. They accuse the Church of offering people a false illusion. Like the serpent that tempted Eve in paradise, they offer pie in the sky,


‘Apple pie,’ I said, cutting in on him.

‘– with the bogus promise of limitless output and leisure time. A fool’s paradise. Like Judas of old, they lie and finagle. They’ve disbanded and razed churches. Our priests act in the spirit of Thomas More, resisting Henry VIII’s seizure of church power.’

‘Martyred,’ I said, drawing my hand across my throat.

‘The Communists deny congregations the right to practice their religion. They have silenced the clergy. People have forgotten how to pray’.

‘What about the Pope? I asked, picking up a pie from the ground. ‘Can’t he do anything about this?’

‘Pope John is taking a very diplomatic approach to this matter. I’m told Pravda, the Soviet newspaper, has cautiously praised him. They see virtue in his upbringing as a peasant, like Khruschev, their leader.’

‘So what are the biggest hurdles along the way?’

‘The immediate stumbling block remains the situation of the Hungarian Cardinal Mindszenty. As you know he has taken refuge at the American Embassy for standing up for his beliefs. When Bobby Kennedy spoke up for him in Budapest they put him under close arrest for being a spy, accusing him of collaboration with Cardinal Spellman. They won’t forgive the Cardinal for standing up for victims of the Communists in Vietnam.

‘What happened there?’ I asked.

‘They beat a priest with a bamboo club. They’ve disembowelled women. They jam chopsticks in the ears of children to keep them from hearing the word of God.’

‘Holy Dooley’, I said. ‘What cruelty.’

‘Holy Dooley’ is right. When they were forcing all the Catholics out of the country, Dr. Dooley helped them flee their clutches. He was backed up by His Eminence.’

‘The Cardinal’ I thought, tucking into a meat one, ‘seems to have a finger in quite a few pies’.

Monsignor Leahy reinforced the same message being piped into our house each work via the radio program of Bishop Fulton Sheen,. arguably the most popular public figure of the Catholic Church. With its conversational style his voice was known to many thousands of listeners as the host ofThe Catholic Hour, He pounded the episcopal message home in broadcast speeches and sermons Sheen believed people had to choose between two pursuits-the Cross or the Double Cross. The brash evangelist told us that a nominal Christian with a memory of the Cross can easily be twisted to the purposes of evil by men, particularly Communists, who masquerade as saviours.

‘The Communists have no feelings for other people.’ Monsignor Leahy went on, ‘They don’t listen to others. They listen in. They don’t watch over people. They watch their every step. They debase the individual. They don’t allow you to read and see what you fancy. They allow no search for the truth. Children are taken early and moulded to fit the vast machine that powers the state. They have no respect for private property. They take over people’s businesses and homes. They don’t know the meaning of fair play. All these heathens know is how to inflict pain on people’.

Tender Mercies.

‘Stand up straight and hold your hand out!’ Something told me I wasn’t about to be presented with a sweet. I gritted my teeth, waiting for the first sharp blaze of pain across my hand. Each stroke she really laid it on. The whistling sound of the cane cutting downward through the air apprised me that all I could expect was a weal, a ridge the stroke would raise on my flesh.

‘Silence!’ Sister Casimir had howled out to the assembly like a mighty Wurlitzer. She was breathing fire. When she heard what she deemed an infringement of this command, she would point to whoever she thought had breached this commandment.

‘What did you say?’ she demanded of of one of my classmates who had whispered to me his discomfort.’

‘Oh, I was just thinking out loud’, he came back.

‘Well don’t’, she warned. ‘People get in trouble for that.’

Double, double, toil and trouble. I got the lot at one assembly when she put the finger on me. I was to be the whipping boy.

‘Good grief’, I thought, wincing, as she flexed it. ‘I’m for it. ’

‘If I’ve told you once I’ve told you a thousand times, you’re not to talk on assembly. You’ll write this out one hundred times.’

What rankled with us was that this  termigant could pick you out at the drop of a veil for the most trivial infractions. I can still remember the instructions – ‘hand out level, keep your thumb down and out of the way, and don’t pull away.’ Lashing herself into an almost orgiastic fury, flushed more purple than ever, she smote thee thrice on each hand, prescribed I dared to say, by summoning the Holy Trinity in her ghostly ritual. Take that! And that! And that!”

It wasn’t too bad if you copped it against the centre of the palm. Further out on the fingers, it hurt like blazes. It was no use pulling your hand away. If you did you got it even harder. She could raise welts like nobody else.

‘You’ll thank me one day for this’, said this flailing flagellator. ‘It’s for your own good.’

Why not? Of course she was only rough on us ‘cos she loved us.

‘Yeah, and pigs might fly” I replied, under my breath.

‘ Say what ?’ she demanded.

‘Yeah and time flies’, I replied without blinking an eye, somehow convincing her that I wasn’t referring to her, thus saving my own back. ‘Watch your tongue, boy’, she snapped. ‘Off you go!’.

Stinging from her scolding, I held my tongue as it occurred to me how I could express my gratitude to her.

‘I will thank you to keep your comments and your hands to yourself, Sister Harridan’, I said to myself. She was, unless I was very much mistaken, descended from the Marquis De Sade. Biting my lip, fighting back any tears welling, I headed for the tap to douse my hands in water to salve the pain.

Later in the secondary school, we were expected to use our ‘best writing’. This was always a trial as you had to frequently replenish your pen, dipping it in the inkwell on the flip top desk, and try to write without producing blots. The nibs would cross or break, or simply pick up too much or too little ink, with an inevitable result of ink on our fingers and clothes.

Sister Kieran, our class teacher would rap the back of our hands with the edge of a ruler and say “start again” if our work was not up to standard. The inkwell and blotting paper naturally had the alternative use in the making of ink. Once she noticed blue pellets on the floor. All hot and bothered she raced around like a bullant when a stick is plunged into it.

After she slowed down, she asked, ‘Perhaps one of you would care to explain this to me?

Everyone took a bopeep at one another only to give the expected comeback:”Nobody Sister, cross my heart and hope to die”.

“Own up or you’re all in for it. You’ll all all stay in”.

‘I’m Spartacus’, called one boy. ’No, I’m Spartacus’, called another and so it went on.

When she selected one as the guilty party, she demanded, You’ve got a real nerve, boy. What have you got to say for yourself?

Upon getting the wrong reply, Quick Draw McGraw ticked him off, raising the cane backwards to whack him: ‘ This is going to hurt you a lot more than it hurts me. Let’s get this over with.’

‘Well I never. Swish. She got it over all right. Before she bore down on her intended target, she swiped me a real stinger on the backstroke. Right across the cranium.

She was totally unaware of any collateral damage. ‘I’ll thank you not to dip your nib in the well when there’s no ink, Sister,’ I cried.

‘You can take it can’t you, Allan.’

Seeing I was in on the deal, I took this as a backhanded compliment.

You needed gumption just to be in her firing range.

Many years later I would be in stitches watching Jake and Elwood, the Blues Brothers, being woman handled by Sister Mary Stigmata. I would thank her prototype, Sister Casimir for this motherlode that the Church has blessed the literary world with and for letting me off lightly.

Many others who had attended Catholic schools had had the living Christ beaten out of them. And that’s the gospel truth.

The Devil’s Showground.

The ascetic lessons of sacrifice, confession and spiritual reflection would become a strong and lasting counterpoint to any more frivolous side of my sunny personality. Minding my p’s and q’s, I was always a conscientious student and never cheated. Well, just once. During a religious knowledge test, I looked into the soul of the boy next to me.

I didn’t get up to mischief. This was no vouchsafe against getting the ‘cuts’ from some of those big on wielding the cane. On one occasion Sister Stephen, the principal, whacked me for jumping up to look over a fence while marching in line to benediction.

Another occasion to interrupt lessons took place soon after the travelling showground families had rolled into town with their overflowing trucks and caravans for the annual agricultural show, set up their rides, stalls,sideshows and spruiked their offerings to the locals.

‘Come on licorice!’ called the showman out on the front platform, on top of the tent. He was drumming up both an audience and anyone wanting to have a go. Country boys liked a bit of a punch-up according to the owners of the business. As for the Aborigines, they believed: ‘It’s in their blood to fight.’

A visit to the boxing tent was as much a part of the show as Dagwood Dogs, amusement rides and district exhibits.

People would pay for the privilege of going a few sometimes bloody rounds with the troupe of boxers, more often than not aboriginal, eyes turning blacker than their skin.. Some shows included professional wrestlers.

People lined up to see the fat tattooed lady – now they’re everywhere.

‘Hurry, hurry, roll up,roll up,see our top billing

the greatest show in town for only one shilling.

Step right up, hurry, hurry before the show begins, my friends

Stand in line, get your tickets,

I hope you will attend,to excite you backwards our human knot will bend,

See our Filipino  fold his body forward

See him fold his body backward.

The Manila Folder is sure no coward.

No doubt about it, satisfaction’s guaranteed

So let the show begin

Hurry, hurry, step right on in

Can’t afford to pass it by

Guaranteed to make you wonder why,

It’s more exciting than a one man band

The best little show in all the land.

What concerned the principal was not so much what was going on but what was coming off.

This time her delivery was for me attending a sinful ‘striptease’ sideshow performance. What had been little more than a sideshow became seen as a den of iniquity. Such forms of entertainment were frowned on severely, seen as designed to make people happy without divine assistance. Muggins me was guileless enough to put my hand up when quizzed at assembly. I had actually only gone on sufferance, being a bit of a Holy Joe myself.

 I was so polite when I saw women wearing a bikini, I only looked at the covered parts..However some madcap girls insisted I go.

 Keeping my eyes closed most of the performance, I dared not open them. Finally, I forced them open them furtively at one stage to glimpse the vague outline of a human form behind a thick sheet of glass fairly impenetrable to sight. Neither bump nor grind. Merely hokum.

I was told I had transgressed the Seventh Deadly Sin. ‘ We’re such weak pitiful creatures, prey to the vilest temptations of the flesh. Remember yourself. Your body is a temple of the Holy Ghost.Those who abuse it by posing naked  or  leering at that pose are trafficking with the devil himself.If you don’t watch out, you’ll form habits that will be hard to break later.None of our activities in this life go unrecorded. If you harbour impure thoughts, indulge in base vices, God will turn away from you. Remember he died for your sins. ’

There I was just turned twelve blamed for a crime commited thousands of years earlier.

The ensuing penance imposed on me, ‘equal to the gravity of the sin’, led to greater transparency in this matter. To the striking disclosure how religious authority can resort to violence to prevent a child learning about the human body. To realization of the restrictive boundaries of the Church when dealing with sexuality. A topic never mentioned except in vague general admonition about ‘purity’ and ‘clean living.’ This was still a time when sex was something few talked about openly and sexual development was accompanied by ignorance, fear and psychic trauma. The nun’s action, with much left to the imagination, said more about what was in her prurient mind than was in mine.

On another occasion this moral watchdog cracked down on students after the school dance. It wasn’t about clinches too close for chastity. Something far more serious. Somehow the Hokey Pokey had made it onto the program.

One of the Sisters had had a go at it on a pervious occasion but thanks to the Grace of God turned herself around.

It was something quite innocent and fun filled as far as I was concerned. Oh me, oh my. The idea of body parts other than those in the lyrics being put in and out of the ring and wiggled and shaken hadn’t occurred to me. Any sexual overtones of this dance were put in my mind by this nun who laid the seeds of my secular awakening. On that account it only made me think more about it. Ironically one plausible explanation for the origins of this dance’s name lies in the corruption of a phrase used in the ritual of the mass.

After the hemlines of the girls’ dresses had been checked for proximity to the floor, close contacts between girls and boys were conducted under conditions of strict vigilance. At one school dance, I said to my partner, ‘Do you have the feeling there’s someone coming between us.’ One of the older nuns went round couples, her arms outstretched to indicate the regulation distance for being close, ‘Don’t forget to make room for the Holy Ghost,’ she reminded us.

The infliction of pain on me at St Mary’s did not stop with some nuns. I collected a ‘rabbit chop’ to the neck from one boy and a cricket bat hurled at me by another who went on to graduate as a policeman. I’m not so precious to consider that this was big time bullying, but considering that this was a fee paying institution my father concluded you could avoid this arrant tommyrot without the cost.

Catholic boys in the final years of secondary school in a country town like Gunnedah were usually shipped off to a larger centre or the city. At a time when as in many facets of life the separation of Catholics in education was waning, my father ruled this out. “Better to put the money saved towards a university education”, he opined wisely. “Look at John Kennedy”, he said “He only spent one year at a Catholic school but that didn’t stop him being publicly identified as a practising congregate”.

My father’s Catholicism was much more secular than my mother’s. He had tasted the harsh regime of Christian Brothers as a boy: ‘I received more than my share of corporal punishment for relatively harmless offences. Some of the Brothers were real sadists’, he recalled’, raving about the ‘filthy beast’ called lust while they flailed us with their sticks. We spent so much time escaping their violent attentions’.

Wisely he saw fit to send me to the state high school. I was more interested in understanding the headless pins that made up my my record player’s styli than those with heads and angels dancing on them.

Finding it increasingly difficult to reconcile the preaching and practice of Christ with those of most of his professional servants, I would increasingly shed any vestigial belief in the supernatural, messiahs and men in the sky authoring public morality. The whole Judeo-Christian view is that the body belongs to a fallen world and nature belongs to a fallen world, and I don’t accept any of that at all. Both a sensualist and an ascetic, I think the sacred is in this world, not in another world, and in the body and in nature.

I continued to love the peaceful precepts and example attributed to Christ. I saw him as no kind of miracle man, no surveillance agent of the  highest level, no super being who concerns himself with our fates and actions, but a whole and magical human being with no magic advantages over the rest of us. Who could lift people up but not with the aid of mirrors or crippled midgets behind black curtains. I aimed to become as human all over as I could and to bear the responsibility for my own actions.

A Delicate Matter.

But not before my next brush with another major figure from the Establishment which occurred in 1961. It was quite instructive. The year my voice broke Menzies had appointed a new Governor-General who had the impeccable pedigree and accoutrements of the nobility that he himself, a mere bunyip aristocrat, still lacked. Nay the ceremonial head of state also had a distinguished military record. While travelling widely throughout Australia and  stopping off in Gunnedah, his duties were to cut ribbons, unveil statues and monuments, utter generalities, attend garden parties,  celebrate outstanding anniversaries. open formal events and buildings. It was said that he would be on hand to attend the opening of an envelope. Another duty was to encourage by his presence and interest, individuals and groups considered to be making a substantial contribution to the community and to national life. That’s where I came in.

As a member of the student body, I found myself part of the guard of honour formed to welcome the vice regal visitor. Once settled on the podium, the Governor-General took the floor, launching into an upbeat appraisal of the state of affairs in the British Commonwealth. His address started something like the following: “Ladies and Gentlemen, Sisters of Mercy, Boys and Girls, On behalf of her gracious Majesty the Queen, I must say how proud we are of our Commonwealth of Nations and the family of nations that belong to it. Former members of the most benevolent empire the world has ever known. Ruled not by superior force or skill, but by sheer presence. It only ever went to war to defend values and principles, never to acquire territory or to subjugate people. It left behind for the local people roads, hospitals and schools. We ought to always remember that.

The ties of loyalty that bind us together bring us all greater prosperity and democracy. It is my great pleasure to tell you that this family will be growing over the coming years. Most of the remaining Crown territories will become independent. They will choose to maintain their links with the other countries of the former empire which had jurisdiction over one fifth of the human race.

I call on you, especially you youthful Australians to nurture this family of nations on which the sun as before never sets on at once.’

‘Maybe God didn’t trust it in the dark,’ I thought.

‘I call on you to learn from its peoples. I call on you to its service. It is within the province of all of us to be great or small, according to the degree of service we render, service of one man to another, to a community, to a nation, to all mankind. Anything is possible.’

‘If this is so,’ I wondered, ‘is it possible for something to be impossible.’

‘It is by service we are born, we live, and we are carried to our last resting place. It is therefore not just an obligation, it is the very purpose of life – to serve.’

I was fain to follow out the benign spirit of his exhortation. Happenstance came forthwith. Making his way along the guard of honour at the end of his address he paused his review, according to his wont, to inquire of children after their interests.

“Young man ”, he asked me “What subjects do you like to study?”

“ Verily I say unto you, Your Excellency, history and languages,” I replied. ’I’m studying French and Latin”.

“Magnifique!” he enthused. “My life is closely bound up with France and its language. My family came over with William The Conqueror. My title originates from French. Viscount comes from two parts ‘Vis’ means ‘in place of’, like ‘vice’ in vice-royal. ‘Conte’ means ‘count’. “And my titular name is ‘de L’Isle”, he said tearing out a page from a pad, writing it down and handing it to me.

‘This means ‘from the island’ in French, or from ‘insula’ in Latin. It originally stood for coming “from Lille’ in France which used to be an island of dry land in a marsh”. “And this officer assisting me, my aide-de camp gets his title from one who aids or helps in the military camp.’ Unlike Menzies who saw himself as British to the bootstraps, it seemed de L’Isle was British to the ‘languettes’. It entered my mind that the stronger your connections with the French, or in the case of the royals with the Germans, the more British you were. That is if you’ve blue blood.

I had a question ready for the Governor-General arising out of my reading about his background. In framing it, the advice dispensed by Sybil Thorndikes’s Dowager Princess to Marilyn Monroe’s showgirl about how to address the royals was fresh in my mind. This was not less than to say what is obvious.

‘ Hail, Milord, well met, I believe you were injured during the War. Where were you shot, pray tell me?’ I asked, shucking and jiving, somewhat presumptuously letting slip what I felt was the kind of archaic highfaluting utterances you might hear at court.

“In Italy” he replied.

“Italy?” I queried “but where forsooth …” Before I could finish the sentence he was off again, spreading his stately personage hither and thither in the short amount of time he had. But not before I caught the faintest trace of a blush betraying blood the same hue as my own coursing through his veins. Was he being coy about something? It was the aide-de camp shadowing him that my complete question would fall. As he passed, I put it to him. “Sir, I wanted to know what part of His Excellence sustained the injury?’ Smiling at me vacantly he lowered his head and whispered in my ear “Hearken to this. Do your homework, Danny Boy!”

Avast! Was this an officer but not a gentleman taking the micky out of me, this green Catholic bucko? Did he think this was bush week? Did he think I had been out of place the way I had spoken? Chewing over this puzzle during the following days, I couldn’t make head or tail of it.

Gadzooks. It turned out to be a tail. The breakthrough came after I conveyed the aide-de camp’s advice to Sister Aloysius, my dear music teacher.

‘Danny Boy’, she informed me, ‘is the familiar title of the Irish classic ‘Londonderry Air”.’ After much deliberation I rearranged it in franglais as ‘London Derriere’. Further research turned up the fact that the Germans had lodged a bullet in the nobleman’s buttocks. Methinks I had been given a bum steer – albeit one in the right direction.

The Secular Estate.

At first blush I was a bit apprehensive over the new academic direction I was headed At that time there was still some residual degree of division between Protestants and Catholics. Some newspaper job advertisements, as late as the 1960s, even confronted Catholics that they needn’t apply.

Many Catholics in turn had their prejudices about Protestants.One local girl who went to work in the Big Smoke arrived back home and her dear old mother was just overcome to see her again. ‘Oh darling its just wonderful to see you again looking so nice. And sending me all this money all this time. Tell me, dear what have you been doing to earn all this money?’

“Well mother, I don’t know how to tell you this, but I became a prostitute!’

Mother went white, clutched at her breast, and collapsed in a heap on the floor. Her daughter brought her a glass of water and she staggered back on her feet.

She faced her daughter. ‘Tell me again darling I want to hear you say it again, so I can‘t be sure I heard you right.”

The girl says: ‘Yes mother, I said that I became a prostitute!’

The old girl heaved a huge sigh of relief, wiped the sweat from her brow and said: Oh Jesus – thank the Lord for that. I thought for a minute there I heard you say you’d become a Protestant.’

My father’s parents had come from both sides of the aisle. My grandfather was Catholic, this side seen as that of the Irish without a penny to their name. His own father’s family in famine stricken Ireland had been forced to light out during the great wave of immigrants in mid-nineteenth century. My grandfather told me ‘The English summed up what they thought of them in one sentence: “Those bogtrotters keep pigs in the parlour”.

‘Pigs arse!’, he exclaimed. ‘They were talking through their bowler hats. It was those who didn’t have a pot to piss in or a window to throw it out of who mainly kept pigs. And in their houses there were no parlours’.

My grandmother’s was on the Anglican side, it seen mainly as the spiritual home of the rich and fashionable. Except, in her case the second of the Catholic Church’s choices for women- perpetual virginity or perpetual pregnancy- won out. As she and her husband’s brood was larger and closer and more within cooee than my mother’s, it was their union that shaped most the ideological and cultural makeup of my parental family. In this mixed marriage the issues determined to a large extent where your business went, to whom you paid your tithes, and where you fitted in with respect to the establishment. Religionwise my father and his six siblings were a mixed bag, half choosing to stay aligned as their father, half staying on the distaff side. Seeing my father went along with his father, Paddy, and married a Catholic, the sense of the Irish Catholic thread, and of coming from an often oppressed minority – albeit a most significant one – carried through generationally.

Dad took me to see ‘Shake Hands with the Devil’ in which Lady Fitzhugh an Irish noble woman, is arrested and put on trial for assisting the IRA. Sybil Thorndike’s Lady Fitzhugh challenges the legitimacy of the officer trying her: ‘What’s an English judge doing in an Irish court.’ Dad supplied his own answer loudly: ‘Up to no good.’

‘As far as I can see, Dad, all the differences between the various religions and their followers can be linked to whom they recognise as legitimate.’

‘Allan, it’s all about recognition. Jews don’t recognize Jesus as the Son of God. Protestants don’t recognize the Pope as the Vicar of Christ and Baptists don’t recognize each other in the pub on Saturday nights.’

It occurred to me it would be probably more sensible if people brought up their children free from all these traditional divisions.

at any rate the timesin christendom were a changing. My aunt Colleen pointed out to me in 1960 the ecumenical milestone reached by Geoffrey Fisher, Cantuar of the Church of England : ‘The courtesy call by Pope John XXIII on the Archbishop of Canterbury, is the first meeting between a Pope and an incumbent of this office since the English Reformation. This paves the way for greater tolerance. I agree with what he says about the words Catholic and Protestant. As ordinarily used they are completely out of date. They are almost always used now purely for mischievous purposes. To make waves.’

‘So what are the real differences?’I asked.

‘As Anglicans we have no faith of our own.’ replied my aunt. We sit in the ‘middle way’ between Catholicism and outright Protestantism.

Our statements of doctrine and liturgies contain, and have always deliberately contained, elements of both. Anglicanism has no Scriptures of its own, no sacraments of its own, no holy orders of its own – just those of the one Holy, Catholic, Apostolic Church that we have received.’

‘The same rituals, half the guilt,’ I said.

‘These creeds we hold without addition or diminution. Geoffrey Fisher says we stand firm on that rock.”

‘What about all the issues that led to the great schism? What about the 39 Articles adopted by the English Church after its break from Rome in the 16th century?’

‘These must be put to the side. Our high priests don’t have much choice than for our churches to come closer together. We can’t go back but we must move forward together. They’re looking for a common front in the face of what they see as increasing materialism. The Archbishop thinks that of the Soviets cruder than the more refined Western variety. And more likely to triumph.’

Both the head of state of Vatican City and the primate and metropolitan of all England were presiding over their respective communions during a momentous transition in modern culture and society: from deference, dependence, and duty to indifference, insecurity, and mass individualism. As the Empire was ending, the masses at home enjoyed the welfare state. Revolutions in higher education, health, and consumer spending gradually gathered pace. The end of conscription, emerging feminism, and comparative affluence further eroded the old order. The Anglican Church and all Western Christian churches faced a new intractable problem- wealthier leisured classes rather than poverty.

This was a shock for many but it softened any discomfort for me settling into my new high school. The first day, I felt as out of place as remove-like a pig in Tehran. However while most students were nominally Protestants, the secular nature of the system soon proved congenial and, having a natural affinity for hitting the books, I settled down to two years of preparation for the university entrance examination. I absorbed the required knowledge like a blotter.

A tisket a tasket, something was missing from my matriculation basket. Physics and chemistry, the scientific end, which hadn’t been available at the parochial school when I was there- another factor influencing my father’s decision. It was too late to pick them up when I got to the local high school although I did study biology which I lapped up. My remaining subjects were deemed to have sufficient cognitive demand to provide what I needed. A suitable preparation for future university studies in economics and the humanities, ones which could normally be studied further once I got there. All going well I would be the first member of my father’s clan to make it there, Having invested so much vicariously in my career path, I would be embodying his own cherished aspiration.

‘I never got the chance to go to university, Al. It wasn’t in the cards. But if I had, I would have wanted to take all my tests at a grocery store.’

‘Why’s that Dad?’’

‘ Because the customer is always right.’


“If all the world is a stage, where is the audience sitting?”

George Carlin

It was during this time that I would be introduced to the works of the Bard of Stratford on Avon, the high priest of literature with his fabulous felicity of language. The remarkable thing I found about Shakespeare is that he really is very good, in spite of all the people who say he is very good. Plenty of it went right over my head, wouldn’t you know it, but that’s part of what made it attractive and valuable. Things that go over your head can make you raise your head a touch higher.

Where others were turned off, I worked my own sweet way through the arcaneness, interpreting the words we don’t recognize anymore. Once I broke through the language barrier, the experiences and emotions Shakespeare wrote about spoke to me. Their timelessness, their distilled representation of life lodged deep in my skull and never left me. With him, there’s always talk of the cosmic nature of things – the sun, the moon the stars. Despite his having lived in a different society, in a different time, the same emotional dynamic infused and animated society as it was doing around me. I could see the lust for power, the hunger for love and what it does to people in his plays alive and well around me. Each of his plays showed in terms of thinking about what it is to be human, what it is to live in society, and above all, what it’s like to live in personal relationships, men and women together, families. Shakespeare really worked these out in a profound way. What I learnt from him is that theatre is a sacred art and not some fringe pursuit.

The most important thing he taught me is that we’re not alone. There are some experiences that are so subjective that you might believe you are the only mad person in the world that has actually felt that way or thought that way. Shakespeare’s ability to articulate those ideas into something an entire audience can feel, too, is what theatre is all about.

‘Shakespeare’s crafted his language for the stage,’said our English teacher Ron Davis. ‘He wrote to put money in his pocket, food on the table and fire in the bellies of his audiences, not strike teenagers like you with fear.He didn’t intend his works to be bound to a desk with teachers like me taking students like you through every word in his sentences. Most of Shakespeare’s audiences were illiterate.Like you who are less so they didn’t know the meaning of every word uttered but the sounds and pictures they created kept viewers enthralled for hours. His words were chosen to be spoken or heard, not to be read and deadened behind a desk – they wither when performance is removed.It’s our job to analyse his language, but pick apart every word of Shakespeare and you’ve dissected the butterfly – pretty in parts but a nonsensical whole and certainly unable to fly. His plays are meant to be explored on their feet.No one has all the answers and everyone has different opinions: why does Juliet say this? Why would Macbeth do that? Actors and audiences have to argue over his plays’ meaning.They have to find multiple ways of delivering their word and deed. ‘

Mining through his works, indulging my emotions, flexing my vocal muscles, delivering my lines, I developed a strong lifelong taste for theatre. Being shy, introspective, guarded in nature, without too much to say for myself, public speaking had left me a quaking jelly of self consciousness, my tongue sticking to the dry roof of my mouth, afraid of fluffing my lines. Dressed up in tights and garters, greasepaint and masks while moving around, acting enabled me to break the ice, open up and express myself more freely.

‘With talent comes doubt,’my English teacher Ron Davis assured me. ‘Fear of the unknown,Stage Fright.You’ll get over it.’

I didn’t know I had it in me. While we parsed ‘As You Like It” and ‘The Tempest’, better still we mounted performances of them as Shakespeare intended. I followed Laurence Olivier’s approach. I aimed to find the external look, walk, speech of the character and then come on to his inner thoughts and feelings. In ‘The Tempest’ I lent my lungs to the role of Gonzalo, the ‘honest old counsellor of Naples. “Knowing he was good hearted, and wearing a grey streaked beard, I began my character development from there. From that everything flowed. The moment I was dressed, the costume and the make-up made me feel the person he was. Walking slowly, calmly, stroking my beard, I thought of myself as none other than the wise and generous counsellor with an optimistic outlook on life. Staying positive, breaking up arguments, I was the only character able to see the misshapened Caliban as more than a demonic beast. The one who reminds my fellow shipwreck survivors else that they should be celebrating because they’re alive: “Beseech you, sir, be merry. You have cause, So have we all, of joy; for our escape is much beyond our loss” (2.1.1).

If our audience didn’t get some of the words, the puns or even some of the characters, if our lines were well delivered, using spontaneous, comprehensible, natural speech patterns, they got enough of them to enjoy the play. We avoided laying on Ye Olde Englande over coloured, overt musical, poeticised stuff.

The audience got some unplanned laughs one night. One of our falstaffian members broke through a termite weakened floorboard sending his foot into the crevice. Since he was unharmed we thought no more about it. It was just a stage he was going through.

After so many exits and entrances, I would put such board treading behind me, never to come to a theatre near you. I would further my understanding of Shakespeare through my reading and writing. I would keep not my costume, but my pencil sharp, to see the point. The main question that would remain for me: ‘What kind shall I use? 2B, or not 2B?”

However this drama tragic, away from the footlights’ glare, remained eager to witness the commanding presence that others could impose on such works, others who could convey the sheer poetry of his language, its sheer descriptive quality, those who had a sui generis perspective on the man known as the greatest writer and dramatist in the English language.

On a Good Wicket

Another facet of my schooldays was an activity somewhat akin to drama. Based on conflict, guile and deception it involved lengthy periods of inactivity while us players choreographed into position and posture, circled each other, watching and kept dangling. We made our entrances, we made our exits as honorable opponents; we were bound by a code of fair play. Seated waiting for my entrance I kept the benchmark in mind. The player who had held the stage unchallenged.

It’s Not Golf

The water tank at the back of our house sat on a wooden platform and was close to a shed. It needed to have a round brick base and be less confined for my purposes. I needed to be able to hit a golf ball against the base with a cricket bat and hit it back when it rebounded at any angles. This is how Don Bradman, the greatest cricketer and batsman of the 20th Century honed his remarkable powers of co-ordination, concentration, unnerving judgment, fast footwork and decisive powerful bat motion to a fine edge.

Hitting the golf ball in the garage where I threw bolt bombs would suffice. There, game faced I replicated the Dons technique for sharpening his reflexes and developing his strokes. The bombs had already taught me to be nimble. Unlike the Don who had to practice in the absence of friends, I had ample opportunity to train with my school mates. There was nothing like the smack of leather on a willowy blond to let us know that summer was coming.

Not that I had an overriding sporting career ambition in mind. I simply went in for the fun and action of this gentlemanly game. Nevertheless, I aimed to focus as did its near flawless exponent as I stepped up to the wicket – keeping calm and still while awaiting the bowler’s delivery, sizing up the ball in a flash and exploding into action, dispatching their fieldsmen to all parts of the park. Touching base with the Don, a humble man, I said to him ‘Good on you, Sir Don, you’re a real beauty.’ I told him that his admirable personal qualities were ones I wanted to emulate. Being part of a team yet standing out, knowing just what was needed to be done to achieve a roaring success. The Australian people, hit for six during the Great Depression, kept in fine feather when excitement over his tally of runs reached fever pitch. Hats went in the air as he hit balls round the boundary.

I told this national treasure his contribution transcended sport for which he thanked me.

This Sporting Life.

Over these years, taking part in organized sport was naturally de rigueur. For a couple of hours a week, our little town, one community, lived and breathed as a single being. This was during the weekly game of rugby league, the town’s overriding religion. In a country where men were men and if boys knew what was good for them, they were men too. Weathering nicks, abrasion, bruises, collisions and concussion, with crowds roaring on the touchline, I engaged in this gladiatorial game at school. On the wing, I would wait cautiously, feet astride, crouching, my arms pushed out protectively, while some bruiser ran at me and shoved out his fist. Grievous bodily harm was an ongoing curse. Like death, tax evasion, and of course shipping and handling too, it was inevitable. Each week I would brace myself for another clash in which my gangly frame would get roughed up and flattened again and, black and blue, dinged and dented, I would ache like the devil. After which it was time to bounce back to the end of the line – on the wing.

We usually got thrashed by the bigger boys from Tamworth, some of whom repeated their final year to stay on to

They saw us as good sports. The only disadvantage to this was that we had to lose to prove it.

Going down to them in the comp yet again, we once did a lap of disgrace.

And the Lord said unto John, “Come forth and you will receive eternal life”. We came fifth and won a wooden spoon..

We said at the beginning of each season we’d be the team to beat that year. And sure enough everyone beat us..

When our headmaster asked a visitor if he would like to look at the trophies won by our team, he replied that he wasn’t interested in antiques.

The blame for our losses usually fell on our backfield player, the one positioned nearest our defensive goal line.

‘I think he’s one of the drawbacks,’ I overhead one of the girl spectators say.

This utility player, chosen when we were a man short, was more a futility player.

All and all the game was goodly for my sense of esteem, but a relief when the time came to hang up my boots. I had shifted my gaze, becoming a keen observer of another far more chilling blood sport.

Clear and Present Danger.

In 1962 I braced myself for a clash of the most unimaginable sort, one which overshadowed my simple world and threatened to open the gates of hell. Like most people around the world, I held my breath, the Doomsday clock ticking, all set to duck and cover as we visualized the dark mushroom cloud of atomic devastation. Red Alert.

Monsignor Leahy had told me to expect a sign but nothing like this.

The Cuban leader Fidel Castro had availed himself of a Soviet offer to place nuclear missiles on his tropical island. When these were discovered by American spy planes in October, the Cuban crisis escalated into an unprecedented face-off, threatening all out nuclear war. Even an accidental first strike would have likely resulted in retaliation leading to full escalation. Full on blowback.

‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’, said Dad. ‘Everybody will be blind and gummy as well as microwaved.’

‘ I don’t know what the world’s coming to’, said Mum. ‘Scientists say we’ll be blown to bits this time. God made the world in one week but we can unmake it in one minute. It seems like it’s human nature to want to kill.’

‘Mum if that’s human nature, we’d better change it or there won’t be anything human left to change. We’d better get ready with our thinking, not just our bombs.’

Dad said ‘We have to get off this Mutually Assured Destruction merry-go-round. It’s MAD. When everyone around the world talks war, what we’ll get is war.’

‘War will come, want it or not’, said Mum. We must hope for the best but expect the worst. We have to make provision for when the lights go out. ’


‘My word, you’d think this was the Last Supper,’ she said soon after that, noting my gargantuan appetite at the time. ‘Where do you put it all? You’re a bottomless pit, Greedy Guts. Eating us out of house and home. And store.’

‘Armageddon ready to meet the storm,’ I replied, ‘building up my reserves in case we have to go without.

We were better placed than most. We didn’t have to stock up. We already had a decent doomsday supply of canned foods, biscuits, dried hams and potatoes stowed to tide us over while we sheltered. After the electric supply went down, I would console myself over a world pulverised by polishing off our tubes of ice cream as if there were no tomorrow. Bags of grain and coal would do the job of sandbags around our perimeter. As if these would have done much good.

As it turned out matters were within the grasp of the respective leaders. The U.S. Secretary of State Rusk said: ‘We’re standing eyeball to eyeball, and the other fellow just blinked.’ The Kennedys were able to resist the calls by some generals and White House top advisers for an immediate all – out unprovoked invasion of Cuba, a move virtually certain to precipitate a hemispheric showdown änd a war with the Soviets. The Colossus of the North sent a ring of naval destroyers to blockade the island until the Soviets agreed to return their missiles. Rather than a full scale war, this more limited and measured response afforded the Soviets enough time of their own to reconsider and give ground, saving face by declaring they had saved Cuba from invasion. As well they may have done. Castro had good reason to fear an invasion by the US.

This was no straightforward victory. Missiles were used as a bargaining chip in negotiations for withdrawal. The US would back off their plan to bolster their offensive nuclear installations in Turkey. At the time the sainted Kennedy was riding high in my estimate and looking back on this man I give him credit for arriving at good judgement and opening up lines of communication with the Soviet leadership. In light of Nixon’s comments that he would have dropped the Big One, that he didn’t give a damn about the civilians he bombed, the better by far of these men, finger on the button, won in their neck and neck contest.

The cynic of course would say it was like a choice between gonorrhoea and cholera.

Eventually, a lifetime away, the US would even strike up a quiet conversation with the Cubans, irrespective of their leadership.

The Band Begins to Play.

Finding my musical feet, I stepped up to the bandstand – in Wolseley Park, and other venues – as a fully kitted member of the Gunnedah Municipal Band, a bastion of the town’s civic pride. Like Eddie Calvert, I saw the brass band as the logical place to pick up musical skills without fees, my father’s business going through a rough patch.

‘The music world would be a lot poorer if there were no such subsidized tuition’, our highly regarded devoted bandmaster Iven Laing pointed out to me. ‘We may never have known the brilliance of Benny Goodman. The King of Swing’ owed his training to his father sending him to music classes at the local synagogue. Buckshee. His father could not have done otherwise shovelling animal parts in the stockyards on sweatshop wages.’

Being unnoteworthy, with more enthusiasm than finesse, my humble part was to chime in with the ‘oompah’, tooting my melodious cornet. I played all the right notes, but not necessarily in the right order. My ability on the cornet was legendary; everybody knew I had little.

I played the cornet like nobody else. I played it like a flute.

‘I play it like I’m Hirt.’I explained to one commentator,referring to the master of the cornet Al Hirt.

‘You are probably using too much pressure.That can hurt your lips and cause a poor performance.’

For some time I only knew two pieces; one was ‘Colonel Bogey’ and the other one wasn’t.

I once played the one that wasn’t solo. Naturally I got a big cheer when I finished.

I didn’t know the notes that well, but I played in their general vicinity.

During one of my early bandstand performances, we were playing a very sad hymn. I noticed a man in the front row of the audience near me with tears running down his face. When we were finished, I approached him and asked, ‘Are you a devout Christian?’

He replied ‘No I’m a devout musician.’

‘So what is my main sin?’

‘You’re supposed to follow the music, not chase it all over the place.

‘But I need to play music so much.. I’ve always wanted to play so badly.’

‘Well, you’ve certainly succeeded.’

It didn’t take long for me however to stand out as someone to take note of. There was one especially memorable moment after the wrong music sheet was handed to me at practice. When I began a very difficult passage from ‘Colonel Bogey’, everyone in the band turned and looked at me in wonder and amazement. They were playing ‘Eine kleine Nachtmusik at the time.’

I had been influenced to take up the cornet by a Scottish migrant, Jock whose instrument of choice was battered and rusty but still delivered its characteristic warm, mellow tone.

.‘What led you to take it up?’I asked him.

You may not believe this,’ he said. But I came across it in the garden of a house I moved into in Glasgow. The wife of the previous owner didn’t take to it at all and buried it along with her marriage.’

‘You mean to say you dug it up?’

‘aye. I rooted it oot!’

The band hall adjoins sporting facilities. It’s next to the town’s basketball court.

When I played Mozart, Mozart lost.

Over the period I was with the band period I helped raise funds through raffles and housie for the benefit of brass band music; of course, a lot of people claimed that that was my way of paying for the damage I’d caused it.

To teach me embouchure and the mechanics of this brass instrument properly was the lot of our principal solo cornettist, John Hinton. There’s nothing to it, buggerlugs’, he advised. ‘Just watch me and it’ll all become clear. Just do it the Wright way’, he smiled, referring to Tommy Dorsey’s female vocal:

‘I blow thru here

The music goes ’round and around


And it comes out here

I push the first valve down

The music goes down and around


And it comes out here

I push the middle valve down

The music goes down around below

Below, below, deedle-dee-ho-ho-ho

Listen to the jazz come out

I push the other valve down

The music goes ’round and around

Whoa-ho-ho-ho-ho-ho And it comes out here’

The main source of music in the town, the traditional British brass band was at the service of the community. In our “lion tamer’ uniforms with peaked caps and gold braid, we led the solemn Anzac Day march. Ahead of the army reserve we moved in step as a unit and in formation, coordinating the movements of close order drill with precision, with the beat or cadence bang on, sounding off between full-band pieces:

‘Hib-hub, hib-hub, hib-hub, hib-hub The heads are up The chests are out The arms are swinging And cadence count Sound off, sound off, Sound off, sound off, Cadence count 1-2-3-4 (1-2, 3-4) Enie, Meanie, Minie, Moe Let’s go back and count some more Sound off, sound off, Sound off, sound off, Cadence count 1-2-3-4 (1-2, 3-4) I had a good home, but I left (you’re right) I had a good home, but I left (you’re right) Jody was there, when I left (you’re right) Jody was there, when I left (you’re right) Sound off (1-2) Sound off (3-4) Cadence count 1-2-3-4 (1-2, 3-4)’

We entertained local people through concerts, parades, park performances, opening events, ceremonial occasion, church fetes and a wide variety of public engagements. Eat your heart out, Mick Jagger! I have read that Sir Mick has ruled out the idea of writing his memoirs as he considered his life too ho hum. It must have been, increasingly restricted to huge overcrowded gigs with an avalanche of anonymous faces straining to see the stage. Boring! When I consider the extremely diverse repertoire of the Gunnedah Municipal Band performing classical, contemporary, sacred and military music, I feel frightfully sorry for this frustrated Rolling Stone reeling out his rock and roll standards over and over again. Boring! And can you possibly blow and toot and pound drums up and down the streets to the strain of ‘Jumping Jack Flash’. Then there’s the matter of the audiences – did Sir Mick ever experience the intimacy of gigs where the bandsmen outnumbered the audience. Did he ever see grateful pensioned off geezers and blue rinsed matrons charmed, get their ya-ya’s out, a twinkle in the eyes as their  toootsie wootsies got tapping, tearing into favourite melodies.

Small wonder he couldn’t get any satisfaction. Singing hey rig-a-jig, kiss a little pig, follow our band!

Our kingpin bandmaster Iven Laing had been pointed out to me when I first saw them performing. Moving my teenage head to see if I could recognize him, I had asked someone which one Iven was.

‘That’s him’, they nodded. ‘The one in the way.’

Iven wasn’t a fulltime musical director of course. He worked in a department store. He was a semiconductor.

Joining the group, I demonstrated to them a basic musicological fundamental from the word go. As I made my first grand entrance into the bandhall, Iven was just quizzing the guys as to which scale they were playing in. Tripping over a tangle of electric cord, landing on my back, I gave trumpeter Bill Syphers the very prompt he needed: ‘A flat minor.’

I felt rather diminished. After a brief interval Iven augmented the situation advising me, ‘You’ll have to be more sharp in future.’

Under his baton our ensemble rehearsed long ahead for the competition circuit sweating it out, keeping in time with him. While the townsfolk were splashing around cooling off in the adjacent municipal swimming pool, Iven never faltered, working himself up into a solid lather putting us through our paces.

‘All right,’ he’d say, ‘now once more with feelings and remember guys, only the once. Time is tight, time is very tight.’

Orchestrating the talents of seasoned players of a high standard playing alongside the like of kids like me demanded the patience of Job. As it was Iven was just the job. His expert ear would detect when anyone was playing louder or softer than they should: ‘No, no, no, gentlemen let’s not strike any false notes here.First things first. You must remember, we need intonation, accuracy, and pitch. We want a melody, not a malady. It may not be alright on the night. Remember, it’s all about the team, not the individual’, he drummed into us unremittingly, pushing our musicianship and personal level of performance higher ‘Where are you bush callithumpians going? I’m not going over all this again. Your parts seem to be all rests. You’re better than this,’ he would habitually interrupt, tapping his stand, just as we had struck up, ‘now straight ahead, and strive fortone’. One wintry evening he interrupted play when my music stand went flying. ‘What’s up now?’, he demanded. ‘I taut I taw a puddy tat a creepin’ up on me,’ I tweeted,‘I did! I taw a puddy tat as plain as he could be!’ Then we all spotted the culprit, a pussycat that had strayed in from the street. It was meowing and fluttering loudly. Shooing away this varmint briskly, Iven was being a bit too finicky, I taut. ‘Take it easy, Iven,’ I said. ‘There’s no ladder in here. This cool cat just wants to hear some hot sounds close up’.

I’m not superstitious, Allan’, he said, ‘that just brings bad luck. But Sylvester has to vamoose.’

‘Go easy, Iven,’ said John Hinton,’ we all make mistakes. To err is human; to purr, feline.’

‘This is no place for our felid fans. I don’t care to fetch up with Bernstein’s Allergy.’

‘What in dickens is that,?’ I asked.

‘As a young man Leonard Bernstein once had difficulty seeing the music while being tested in his conducting class. Of all things he was coming down with an allergic reaction to a tabby tom. I can’t afford the remotest chance of furball fever. What with the contest coming up.’

It was the cut and thrust of band contesting that led us to strike up at regional centres and cities. Our aim was to fly to faraway places. This led me to value the camaraderie of amateur musicians from all walks of life. Passionately committed to his musical ensemble, Iven encouraged me to widen my musical education. ‘Whatever you’ve learned here won’t be lost on you. You might branch out into some other kind of music. Look at Paul McCartney. His dad took him to brass band concerts when he was a tot. Look where young Macca is today. He filtered these influences of the people’s music through his own experiences. You yourself might just want to appreciate music more deeply. It doesn’t matter if you don’t go on beyond that. Build on your experience with us. Music is the international language. Wherever you go, whatever you want to say, say it with music.’

Iven swelled with pride over our band hall, its walls lined with cups and trophies, mementos from past accomplishments. Looking up at these awards after I practised with them several years later, I told Iven “You must be proud of having built up this flourishing band. Was this what you always wanted to do?”

Iven replied “Band music is in my blood, laddie. This outdoor kind of music has been beating inside me since I was knee high to a grasshopper. One of my first memories was when our family joined the throngs waving streamers, lining the ticker taped streets to welcome home the troops from the Great War. Togged up in our Sunday best to attend band concerts in the park – weather permitting. It was on these occasions I realized the power of music to stir men. To march into battle. To supply entertainment where there was a dearth. To allow us to enter an inner world. To reach emotions that go beyond words. So I wanted to form the best band in the bush.”

‘The cat’s whiskers you might say.’ I replied with a mischievous wink. ‘Did you consider going beyond leading a small town amateur band?”

“I long nursed an ambition to do something on a grander stage, something more elaborate, more orchestral – produce glorious symphonic sounds – with clarinets, saxophones, French horns, soaring violins, crashing cymbals and thundering tubas – the whole kit and caboodle.”

 Like Sergeant Peppers’, I suggested, ‘singing Polly Wolly Doodle,’ referring to the fictional psychedelic marching band, top of the pops at the time.’

‘We’d really turn on the locals in our garish satin bib and tucker, dyed in funky day-glo colours,’ chortled Iven.

‘Growing moustaches beards and long hair’, I added, ‘spelling out our name with flowers.’

‘Did you ever try composing music, Iven?’

‘I had a go at writing jazzy music for band and choir. I wrote verses easily, but I had trouble with the chorus. None of the girls would go out with me.’

What about you, John?,I asked of John Hinton.

‘ Some like it hot’ he replied. ‘The jim-jam-jump with the solid jive, Makes you nine foot tall when you’re four foot five’. ‘ Well, twirl my turban, man alive!Here comes Mister Nine to Five.’

‘I‘ve long hankered to be more adventurous, bopping and jazzing it up with loose bluesy, ricky ticky numbers, rocking dance pieces– and sounds to soothe the soul. ‘Four beats to the bar-and no cheating’to quote Count Basie. Catering to the widest and deepest range of emotions and impulses. If our bands are going to keep being a draw, we have to widen our appeal and keep up with the times. Our music just doesn’t do it for younger people. We can’t afford to be seen as stick-in-the mud. We have to break away from our traditional stylings, add other elements to our repertoire. It don’t mean a thing, if it ain’t got that swing.’

‘We should try some. Show it off when we go by plane. Can we do Glenn Miller?’ I asked him. ’

‘What, fly off in the fog. Perish the thought. Seriously though, the best music in creation does come from fusion. We can learn a lot from the New Orleans brass bands. That’s where Satchmo’s pubescent cheeks first swelled out- blowing his cornet. These hepcats improvise, blending our heavy metal martial music with the African folk music brought to the Americas by slaves. Of course, you need a special personnel for such magic and they are far and few between. With what we’ve got, we’ve got to make do. Salagagoola mechicka boola bibbidi-bobbidi-boo.’

I pictured these two guys swinging together a generation back, balancing this partiality for free, joyful improvisation while maintaining recognizable melodies. Swinging high, swinging low. It was not surprising that we concurred on who we rated our favourite big band player. Benny Goodman- that most technically proficient jazz clarinetist, the first jazz musician to gain a reputation as a soloist with symphony orchestras.


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